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My New Years Resolutions

Hola everyone.

The new year is literally just around the corner and in prospect of this I’ve been thinking pretty much about 2017 and what I achieved and what I’d like 2018 to be like and what my goals are.

I have to say that 2017 has been a pretty crazy year for me. I mean, I started off the year with my last month of living in Berlin and then I got back and continued university and recently I found this amazing university course in the UK and just an hour ago I started applying for it. I mean, how crazy is that? And I flew to Zürich to see Ed and then to Amsterdam to see Martijn. And I got to visit three new cities in the UK – Liverpool, Blackpool and Manchester – and flew to Paris with my mum and got a new, unbelievably beautiful tattoo there. I just started writing my first Bachelor thesis and I’ve just got this semester until February and then the last one and then I’ll be already finished with my Bachelor in Vienna. I seriously can’t believe how fast the time has flown by. And apart from all these huge things, I accomplished so much more and made so many more experiences and and and. I met new people, started new friendships, had quite an amount of exams, attended looots of concerts and started a job as a magazine journalist. I cried a lot but laughed even more. Went on many adventures and got out of my comfort zone. And when I look back at it, I don’t think I’d change anything (apart from all the bad stuff that happened and is happening in the world right now, but let’s not get started on that).

But there is a new year coming up and I want it to be a new start, a new beginning. A new year to meet goals, turn dreams into reality and so so much more. So I thought why not make a list of my personal new years resolutions? Let’s go.

I really want to stay the optimist I am – it doesn’t work all the times, but sometimes it’s the only thing that brightens up a shitty day
I want to dive even deeper into the topic of my heart – music.
I want to experience more, learn more, see more, hear more, feel more.
I want to meet new people, new cities, new cultures.
I want to get even more out of my comfort zone. Of course it’s scary, but those are the moments life turns from good to exciting.
I want to stay healthy.
I want laugh louder, cry harder and live every moment to its fullest.
I want to show the people around me that I love them and that they literally mean the world to me, because they all deserve it.
I want to go to as many concerts/festivals as I can – those are my happy places and I’m kind of addicted, so…
I want to read even more books, listen to even more songs and bands and watch even more movies.
I want to meet up with my friends and family as often as I can. I know it’s hard, because we all have our own lives and own tasks and jobs and so on, but when I look back I don’t remember the hours I spent scrolling through twitter on my phone, I remember the evenings I spent with my friends, drinking a Chai Latte and laughing about stories of when we were young.
I want to stop pressuring myself so much. I know I’m a perfectionist and that’s actually something I like about myself, but that changes when I start treating myself badly.
I want to continue working as hard as I do now or even harder (I know this kind of doesn’t go with the resolution above, but I’m sure there is a way to combine those two things).
I want to cuddle even more with my family and my pets.
I want to take even more pictures, cook more meals and maybe find a new fascinating hobby I can be passionate about.
I want to try out new things and new activities, maybe some kind of sport or something like that.
I want to try and start being punctual – this is actually the toughest aspect of this list, I am literally never punctual.
I want to go to sleep earlier and change my sleeping schedule – it’s slightly getting out of hand right now.
I want to be nicer to the people I love, I want to forgive more and stop freaking out because of little, stupid things I will probably have forgotten about an hour later.
I want to finish my Bachelor and try to get the best grades possible.
I want to nail my two Bachelor theses.
I want to keep faith and believe in myself, even when the times are hard and I feel like everything is getting too much (like now, when my to-do-list is literally far too long – I can do it and I know it).
I want to get into BIMM (the university in the UK) and find the cutest little flat ever.
I want to continue being this curious and childish and easily excited and funny.
I want to love more.
I want to continue writing this blog, as I love it so much that I can’t even describe it.

So guys, there you go. Those are my new years resolutions or let’s say those that I can think of right now. I’m pretty sure I could come up with about a hundred more if I had more time. But I want to try and make every single one of them and stick to them. Mostly because they all mean quite a lot to me. And I think this way 2018 can’t be anything but another amazing year.

But guys, what are your new years resolutions? Do you even have some? And do you stick to them? This is actually my very first time of writing them down like this, so wish me luck. And guys, I wish you all a happy new year and I hope you’re all doing good. I wish you all the best. Thank you so much for 2017. It’s been an amazing year and I’m more than thankful that I could spend and share it with all of you. Thank you. And, as always, thanks for reading. Here’s to 2018. x

He’s coming

Hola everyone.

I know. Where the hell have I been? Honestly, I can’t even tell. I don’t really know why I just didn’t post anything the past week, somehow I just never found the right amount of time for it. I’m really sorry guys. But now I’m back and holy moly, I have so much to tell you guys, no joke.

First things first – the IELTS exam. To be honest, I think it went really really well. Especially the reading part was really easy for me and I’m already so damn excited to get the results this Friday. I hope I passed the 6.5 mark in every part, so I can start applying for the universities in London. Wish me luck guys. I’ll of course keep you updated.

Okay, and now the cinematic highlight of the past week – the trailer for Avengers – Infinity War. Oh my god guys, I can’t even begin to tell you how excited I was for this trailer. I’ve been waiting for this for months and the day they told the world the trailer would come the next day, I was already at the edge. I remember counting down the hours and updating my Twitter search every few minutes in the hope of some news. And then, finally, there was it. God, was I excited. I mean, you guys know how much the MCU means to me. And as the last Captain America movie left me with quite some question marks and worries about the whole Avengers team, I was especially curious to see what my favorite heroes would be up to in the next movie. So, without further ado, here it is, the trailer for the cinematic highlight of the upcoming year:

Actually, I don’t even know where to start, there’s just too much to take in. Also, just to warn you guys, there are quite a lot of spoilers coming up, so please be aware of that. So, we all know that Thanos, the big, lilac guy, is on the hunt for the six Infinity Stones and is of course willing to kill anyone who tries to stop him from doing exactly that. We know that the movie will be playing in Wakanda, which we will get to know further in the upcoming Black Panther movie, in New York and somewhere in the galaxy. I think the movie will start off with Thor and Co. crashing into Thanos spaceship – which was hinted in the post-credit scene of Thor: Ragnarok. This of course won’t probably go well, so I guess that’s when Thor crashes into the spaceship of our beloved Guardians and Hulk into the headquarters of Doctor Strange in New York.

It can also be seen that Thanos is able to collect two Infinity Stones, the power stone, which we saw in the first Guardians movie, and the space stone, which is located in the tesseract, which Loki stole at the end of Thor: Ragnarok. In the trailer we can see him holding the tesseract and I’m guessing that he willingly hands over the stone to Thanos in order to save himself. I’m not quite sure whether this will truly save him or not, but we’ll see.

What especially shocked me was seeing Vision in his human form, which is like a completely new concept and a total surprise. That he and Wanda apparently are a couple now not so much, but that part really did surprise me. And then seeing him lying on the ground, someone trying to pull the stone out of his head. At that part it was kind of an obvious idea for me that he’d die, but I think that Vision will be one of the new Avengers, so killing him wouldn’t really work.

Oh and speaking about deaths – I think we really all have to buckle up for some cruel, shocking deaths that are coming up. And trust me, I’m probably more frightened than you are, especially as Robert Downey Jr.’s contract with Marvel is ending with the second part of Infinity War and, honestly, if they kill Tony, I might as well walk out of the cinema and cry for a week. Seriously, Marvel can’t do that to me. I would be completely devastated.

And apart from that I think that this movie will be a total rollercoaster. Because, as we all know, Doctor Strange has the time stone, so they can actually kill off whoever they want as long as they just have Strange to take them back. I’ll be totally done after watching that movie, I can already tell. But that doesn’t of course stop me from watching it the moment it is out here in my country, which is at the end of April 2018 to be exact.

But actually, I don’t think they’ll kill anyone “important” in the movie. I mean, they will probably “save” that for the second movie, after the Avengers have fought against Thanos altogether. As the MCU as we all know and love it will be over after this – but before you now get a heart attack, there will still be a MCU, just mostly with different and new characters -, I think they will come up with the whole team first to celebrate the past years and movies and stories.

Overall, I am so damn excited for Infinity War, I can’t even put it into words. Especially as I know that Marvel always comes up with the biggest surprises ever and I’m just so up for it. Can I please watch the movie next week? That would be amazing, thank you.

So guys, there you go. That’s one of the crazy things that happened last week, but I of course have so much more in store, so stay tuned. And please don’t forget to share your thoughts about the trailer. It is now the most-watched trailer with over 230 million clicks in 24 hours, so I guess some of you have probably already seen it themselves and I’m really curious about your thoughts and opinions. And until then I wish you all an amazing week. Oh and also a happy start of this years December. Christmas is literally just around the corner but so far I haven’t really been able to wrap my head around that, but I can already feel the christmassy feeling coming up. The snow helps. Oh, and, of course, as always, I hope you enjoyed this post and thanks for reading. x

Happy Friday

Hola everyone.

Right now it’s eight pm on this Friday evening and I’m sitting in my apartment in Vienna, thinking about what I should tell you guys first. Fall Out Boy is playing in the background and to be honest, I couldn’t be happier.

There is something quite exciting and also slightly frightening happening tomorrow, which also partly happened today. Let’s get right to the point. I am currently taking my IELTS exam. The exam that determines your level of English and the one exam that decides whether I’ll be able to go to a university in the UK or not, because in the UK you need to have a special level in order to be even allowed to apply. So yeah, you could say that this exam is pretty important and the results are even more. Wish me luck guys.

I have to say, I can’t really tell you how I feel about the exam – I’m taking writing, reading and listening tomorrow – because on the one hand I am really nervous because the results are so important for my future, and on the other hand I’m super excited because I just love the English language so freaking much and I know that I am good at it so I actually look forward to showing off my skills a little bit. It’s a little bit complicated.

But today I already had the speaking part of the exam and as far as I can tell, it went pretty pretty good. I had to talk about my family and friends and education and that kind of stuff, so it wasn’t that hard to come up with good answers. But I think it really showed that I was quite nervous, I literally couldn’t stop talking. The examiner had to always stop or slow me down, I was just babbling on and on. I mean, not that that’s something bad. Actually I think it’s far better to talk too much than not enough. But yeah, that was that part. I am really happy that it worked out and I can’t wait for the results, really.

And apart from that another really amazing thing happened today. God, how long has this day been? I feel like I’ve been awake for 40 hours. Anyway. Today, I tried to get tickets to see Fall Out Boy I’ve on their next tour. I actually tried getting some yesterday, but the presale didn’t work at all, so I really placed all my bets and hopes on today. And guess what? I seriously managed to get some pretty awesome seats and I am literally internally screaming in happiness. I mean, how awesome is that? I really got tickets to see Fall Out Boy, one of my favorite bands on this planet. And not only that I’ll be seeing them for my birthday, no, I’ll also be in London, my favorite city ever. Oh my god.

Unfortunately, this amazing band again decided that my country isn’t worth a visit, so, as always, I have to get to them if they don’t come to me. And thankfully I really do have the most amazing, coolest parents on earth, who said that they would make my big wish come true and fly to London and see Fall Out Boy together with on my birthday weekend. I could start crying just by the thought of it. I can’t even begin to tell you how thankful I am. Sometimes I seriously have no idea what I did in order to deserve such awesome parents. And oh god, I love this band so much, I can’t believe this is happening. Holy moly.

So yeah, that was my day. After the exam I went for some christmas shopping and now I’m back home and already thinking about which part to prepare for first – writing, reading or listening? To be honest, I’m really not that nervous about tomorrow. Because I know my abilities. And I just love this language. I know I can do it. And I just have to tell that myself over and over again.

But guys, how was your day? I hope you had an amazing Friday. And I hope you enjoyed this little update or whatever you could call this. I’ll of course keep you updated on my IELTS results. And yeah, until then I wish you all an amazing weekend and, as always, thanks for reading. x

Quick update

Hola everyone.

You know what? I was just thinking about what to write today and then I thought, it’s been quite some time since I just talked to you guys, about everything and nothing. And I thought the weekend is just around the corner and I’m quite in the chilled mood, so why not chat a little bit today? So, maybe get a cup of tea, put on some good music and enjoy me babbling about things.

First of all I have to say that today started off amazingly – I woke up to Joe (= Joe Sugg) posting literally the cutest videos of Conor on his Instagram site and they just made me so smiley. But that’s no surprise, actually. I mean, what else can I do besides being happy at the look of Conor, smiling widely, wearing a goddamn white shirt? That’s basically the most natural reaction to something like this. And I’m really glad that Conor looks happy again and doing better. Thank god. Seems like the sunny LA is working miracles on him.

And yeah, I just had another exam on Monday, which I gladly aced. It was the last exam of one of my optional courses and I can’t even begin to tell you how happy I am that this is finally over. I mean, I literally chose this myself and god, it was so damn boring. I mean, actually the last exam, so this one, was pretty interesting. But all the others ones… Nope, not at all. And if you’re wondering which subject I’m talking about – it was culture anthropology. And I have to say that I expected it to be more on the “this is how cultures work”-side, but no, actually I learned about small tribes in Africa. I’m a hundred percent sure that this could be the most interesting subject ever for other people, but for me, not so much. But yeah, I finally finished it and I’m really glad about that. And it also means that I now have some time to chill and relax until my next exam in December. After nearly two months full of studying and thinking about all the things I still had to do and always feeling bad when I did something else than study, this feels like being on holiday.

Oh and right now I’m actually on my way home. I’ve now been in Vienna for over a week and I seriously can’t wait to get home again, even if it’s just for two days. I think I’ll always be one of those people who just can’t wait to get back home. Pretty paradox if you think about it, as I’m planning to move to the UK next year. Ad speaking of that, I know I always babble about my future and amazing colleges in the UK and I know, I have something new every single time. But this time it’s different. I really found my place to be. It’s a music college where I could study music journalism, including all the PR, marketing and amendment stuff and that’s literally so amazing and exciting. And, yes, I know, I said that I first said that fashion journalism was my dream, then lifestyle journalism and now music journalism. But I’ve noticed something. If I want to get a good job that truly makes me happy, I just need to pick one that I can work with. I mean, I love fashion. I really do. But I noticed that I just don’t spend hours with it every day. It’s not my biggest hobbies. Other than music, which is basically my whole life. Apart from the not-playing-a-musical-instrument-part, I would say I live music. Seriously. I spend hours and hours on and with music. It’s a subject I can work with, which I know I’m good at. And then I found this college and it just made click. So yeah, I’m currently trying my best to get a spot at this amazing college. Wish me luck. Oh and if you’re interested, the college is the British and Irish Modern Music Institute.

And besides that, there hasn’t much happened. Oh, right. Two amazing bands – Coasts and The Hunna – announced a tour together for next year and I can already not wait to see them. They are both bands I got to know through Spotify – thanks Spotify – and I immediately fell for them. And now that they are seriously visiting Vienna, I’m quite shocked to be honest. I pretty much expected them to be two of those bands you always listen to but will never be able to see live as they are just far too unknown in your country. But seemingly I was quite wrong and I’m so glad about that. If you’re interested, here are are one of my favorites from them:

So guys, that’s pretty much it. It makes me really happy that I’m able to talk to you guys and that I get to share all of this with you. And I really really hope you enjoy it too. Oh and please don’t hesitate to leave your thoughts and comments down below. I’m really interest in what you’ve been up to. And yeah, until then I wish you all an amazing weekend and, as always, thanks for reading. x

Goals

Hola everyone.

First of all, I wanna say sorry for the certain lack of posts the past two weeks. Somehow I didn’t feel like posting twice a week, mainly because my head was basically stuffed with other things. So, please let me give you a little update.

Right now I’m sitting at home in my apartment in Vienna, listening to Tom Rosenthal and mainly thinking about my life. University in particular, as today was the first day of the new semester. We moved in here again last Friday and I’m feeling pretty happy to be back here again. Last week I wrote my first exam of this semester and next week I’m flying to Amsterdam with my friend for a short holiday trip and to see Martin Garrix at the Amsterdam Dance Event. And I can’t wait, seriously. God, I’m so excited.

But apart from all that, university has basically been my main concern right now. And that brings me to this one special topic I want to talk about today. Which is goals. And no, I don’t mean relationship, friendship or boyfriend goals. I mean the basic life goals we all have and struggle with. And I know how you’re all feeling, because the future is scaring the hell out of me right now and also, at the same time, putting the biggest grin on my face.

As some of you may know I’m planning to move to London to do my Master there. And this one stupid, little, idiotic thing called Brexit has basically put one huge stone in my way, which I’m trying to crawl over right now. So, in order to not have to pay like 20.000 € for university, I’m planning on finishing my Bachelor next summer. That would enable me to go to London next autumn, before the Brexit. Good plan so far, I know. But it will be hard. I know, I’m probably talking about daily hassles and small nothings here, but it seems like university doesn’t really want me to finish this early. But I will try my best anyway.

So, this is a huge goal of mine. To try my absolute best, work hard and finish my Bachelor next summer to be able to go to London without any more difficulties. And that really, really means a lot to me. It’s like one of my biggest dreams to live and study in London.

But you know, at some moments when I sit in front of my laptop and plan my semester and think about ways I could do more and better, I take a deep breath, relax and quickly think about all the goals in my life I have already achieved and all the dreams I made true. And I think that’s really something important to do. Because sometimes I talk to different people or look at young people with amazing careers and get the feeling that I’m basically a huge loser, but that’s not true. Not at all. Because I simply know that I have already achieved and done so many things I never thought I would do. And not even at this young age. I mean, I’m 21 years old, acing my Bachelor right now (yes, I do get good grades), already lived in Berlin on my own, wrote and published my own book and am working as a journalist since March this year. I mean, how crazy is that? And I’ve done, seen and achieved so much more. I really have to tell myself all those things over and over again every few times, just to remind myself to be proud of myself. And that’s so freaking important. To be proud of yourself and happy with who you are and what you’ve done and what you’re doing. You should all try it out, it will probably baffle you all, because you’ll notice something great – we are all amazing people, trying to do their best in this crazy thing we call our world. And that’s awesome.

I know, I have huge ass goals on my list and crazy plans for my life, but sometimes it’s really nice to look back at my own life path. Because it really makes me happy. I know I’m literally the biggest perfectionist who always pushes herself, but you know what? I try my freaking best everyday and it’s pretty perfect the way it is right now. And I’m great the way I am. I wouldn’t change a thing. And I really hope that you guys think the same of yourself, because you should and you owe it to yourself. Treat yourself. And stop comparing your life with others. You are you, they are them and everyone can be struggling sometimes. You’re all doing amazing, please never forget that.

So yeah guys, that’s my little update and post about all the thoughts that have been swirling around my head for a long time and something I find is really important. I hope you enjoyed it and that it maybe made you think a little. Please don’t hesitate to leave your thoughts down below. And until then I wish you all an amazing week and, as always, thanks for reading. x

Welcome Back

Hola everyone.

I am baaaaaaaack. Whoop whoop. God, I can’t even begin tell you how much I missed being on here, writing stuff, telling you guys about life and other things and of course you guys in general. And soooo much happened, seriously. I know I told you that I’d tell you about the concerts I’ve been to the past days, but I have so much stuff to tell you so I thought I’d give you all a basic update before I go in deeper. So, let’s get right to it.

First of all, uni is finally over. Yesterday I had my last lessons and my parents and me moved out of my apartment, so here I am, home again. And right now sitting outside in my garden, enjoying the sun and listening to some 20s and 30s music while writing this. Life is good. But actually the last days at uni were pretty cool too. I had lessons we call a “Tutorium” here. You could say it’s a course were you are just in small groups of like 30 people and get to discuss and practice your work. And this one was about feminist views and overall women and it was really really interesting. Our tutor was super cool and she even had her teeny-tiny baby and her husband with her and guys, I can tell you, a baby makes everything so much better. It was so cute to see them together as a family. I think pretty much everyone of us fell completely in love with the small baby boy.

And as much as I can tell, I think the exams went pretty well too. I mean I still don’t really have the results, but I had a good feeling after walking out of them. But god, I was so relieved when they were finally over. It’s such a huge pain in the ass to have to study every single day for over a month and having this small creature jumping around in your head 24/7 telling you to go and study because otherwise you will fail and your life will turn a huge breakdown. Not to mention the pressure of having to get good grades, because if you don’t you will never be able to make it into your dream college and everything you have ever dreamed of will vanish before your very own eyes. Sounds pretty dramatic, doesn’t it? And now imagine having such thoughts swirl around in your head every day because you’re just a little bit masochistic and love pressuring yourself. Okay, I just noticed how crazy I must be sounding so I guess I’ll just stop right here.

Anyways, I think the exams went good and that everything turned out just the way I wanted it and now that uni is over I can finally look forward to this upcoming summer and to all of the things I have planned. I want to start working on my second book – I will tell you more about that in the next weeks, don’t worry – and I have the permission to transform our right now really boring looking office into a creative room full of color and amazing designs (my personal interior design mission), which I can’t wait to do. And of course I’m so looking forward to our planned vacations. In three weeks I think my parents and I will fly to Manchester and travel to Liverpool and Blackpool – actually my parents are flying there to go and watch a golf tournament, so I basically just told them that I would attach myself to them and then stroll around the city while they will be watching a ball roll into a hole (notice my excitement about golf). And in August mum and me will be traveling to Paris, one trip I’ve been looking forward to since we decided on flying there and seriously, I CAN’T WAIT. I have the slight feeling that I will overly fall in love with Paris and never want to leave it again. Sounds pretty much like me, doesn’t it? So yeah, happy days are coming.

What else happened? Oh yeah, as mentioned before, I went to two concerts – Paramore and The 1975 – which I will be telling you about on Friday. Just to give you a little foretaste, Paramore blew me away. Seriously. One of the best concerts I’ve ever attended. But more on Friday. Oh and Fall Out Boy brought out a new single called “Champion” which isn’t just completely amazing, but also basically helped me through all the study sessions and times when I just wanted to burn all of my books and laugh like a crazy evil woman while doing so. So, if you ever loose faith in yourself, I can just recommend that you give this one a listen, it really helps.

Musicwise, two of my favorite bands released their new albums – the german band Kraftklub and Imagine Dragons. Both albums are absolutely stunning and turned me into a much bigger fan than I was before, so props to them. I can’t wait to see them live. Oh and oh my god, Ed released the new tour dates for his stadium tour next year and guess what? He’s really coming here, to my city, to Vienna. Edward freaking Christopher freaking Sheeran, the musical love of my life, is seriously having a show here. The tickets are going on sale this Saturday and I’m already at the edge of my seat and also nerves. Please guys pray for me that I will get tickets. Because if I don’t I will certainly go and have a crazy sort of breakdown and nobody wants that, right?

Hmmmmmm, what else? I think that’s pretty much it. I guess. So, as you can see, quite a lot happened and I’m more than excited to be back. I really really missed you and this blog. It is true, you notice how much you love something/someone the time it’s away. And I really hope you are as happy as I am and that you enjoyed this post. Here’s to more. Oh and I hope you’re all doing well and I wish you an amazing week. And, as always, don’t hesitate to talk to me and thanks for reading. x