women – that lemon life

Happy Women’s Day

Hola everyone.

First of all I want to say sorry for not posting anything on Monday. Actually I had a really important exam – I think it worked out just great – and basically spent all of my free time studying for it. So yeah, sorry again. But today I want to talk to you about something very important. I know I’m usually not the type for getting political, but as there are a lot of things happening now, changing for the worse, in my opinion, and I kind of just have to get it all off my mind and get some positivity out there.

But before I start – happy international women’s day for all of my fellow queens out there. You are all amazing and I hope you’re all doing well and feeling happy and enjoying life to its fullest. I think, days like this give us all the perfect opportunity to reflect on all the women out there who inspire us, give us strength. And for me it’s a reason to say thank you to all of these incredible women.

My mum

As you can probably imagine and also share with me, my mum is literally the most important woman and also person in my life. She doesn’t only give me strength, but also shows me day by day how I can be stronger, strong enough to believe in myself, my dreams and hopes and chase them. For her, nothing is impossible. And because of her, I also believe in that. Apart from that she knows what she wants and fights for that and she always stands to her opinions and what she believes in. I always tell her that when I grow up I want to be like her, be the mum she is to me, because in my opinion, she did everything right. And by that, she became my best friend. We go to concerts and festivals together, to the cinema, fly away on a girls trip every year. She’s just my favorite person and an amazing woman.

My grandma

As my mum is already such an amazing woman, it’s obvious that my grandma is one too. I look up to her all the time, because she always says what she’s thinking, she’s not afraid to be honest and tell her honest opinion. And at her age she’s still working every week, although she doesn’t have to do that, but she’s so vital that she can do that. And also she just wants to do it. That’s one of the things that always impress me – she still goes to work, stays up till late at night, cares for all of us and manages to always have a smile on her face. And that’s what I love about her. Also, she’s a goddess when it comes to cooking.

My friends

Who and where would I be without my friends? I don’t even know to be honest. I don’t know what I’d do without them in my life. All of them are such special persons to me and bring so much happiness to my life. But most importantly they are always there for me and, as silly as it sounds, they endure me, which is at some moments really hard I’m sure. With all of their different personalities, dreams, actions and thoughts, they are all awesome women in their own special way. And that’s why I love them and could never live without them.

All of the women out there, all of them

Honestly, I think every woman out there depends on all of the thousands of women out there who share her opinions, keep her back in their own way, in ways most of us will never know about. We all make each other so strong, keep us afloat, happy and fight for each other. That’s why I think days like the international women’s day are so important. They remind us all that we’re not alone. Noone of us would be where she is today without all of the strong women that came before us. All of the women’s rights would never be here without them. But that doesn’t mean that we can just stop fighting on. We are all so strong and if we unite, we can do things that seemed impossible. But together, nothing is impossible. And most importantly, never let an old man tell you what to do and what you can do and can’t do. You are a queen. Live it.

So guys, as you can see I had some things to say. I hope you are all doing alright, maybe sharing my ideas and thoughts. I hope I could encourage you to reflect on all of the amazing women in your life and maybe to thank them. I want to thank them, all of them. And as always I hope you enjoyed this post and please don’t hesitate to comment something. And until then, thanks for reading. x

Fashion Week – Day 1

Hola everyone.

Oh what a week it was. A week full of fashion, style, happiness, good looks and so much more. That’s right, it was fashion week.

And actually, so much happened throughout the past four days that I really had to plan how I’d give you guys all the infos. At the end I came to decision that I’ll just split it up on the days, so yeah, there will be three (with this one four) exclusively about the fashion week here in Berlin. Let’s start with day one.

So the first day was more like just really damn luck for me. Because the secretary at my internship place send me a mail that was actually meant for my boss but she thought it would be a better opportunity for me. It was an invitation for the yearly conference held by Zeitmagazin, a German magazine, and Vogue. You can probably guess what a big deal it was for me when I got the text. And even more when I got the mail that the people form the conference had reserved a ticket for me. Which is totally crazy, still. Mostly because so many exciting people were on the speakers list. For example, Christiane Arp, the chief-in-editor at the German Vogue. And you know what the Vogue means to me. It’s like the queen of the fashion magazines and like the biggest dream of mine.

Anyway, on the 16^th the time had finally had come. I made my way to the conference and was speechless the moment I got into the building. Beautiful people everywhere. Some of the coolest outfits I’ve ever seen. And they all looked to important. And the whole place was so gorgeous. To be honest, on the one side I loved it, but on the other side I was also intimidated as hell. I felt out of place. Thank god I had my camera with me, so I could hide behind my photography skills.

And then the conference started and god, it was so interesting. There were so many experts talking about one passion everyone in the room shared – fashion. One thing that I still have on my mind is probably the point about fast fashion and how today we just buy things and don’t really think about where they come from or if we REALLY want them anymore. And, like, it’s true. Like I learned there, according to studies 70 percent of all the girls on Instagram would be ashamed if they would be seen with the same outfit twice on the website. Like, how crazy is that? Don’t we all have something more important to worry about than wear the same outfit? I mean, lucky you if you don’t, but I think you get what I mean. Clothes are there to be loved. And yes, to be worn more than once. I know I also have a lot more clothes than I need, but not wanting to be seen with an outfit twice is a whole different level.

Livia Firth – yes, Colin Firth is her husband – said something at the conference that completely struck me. When she was young and she would see a dress or shoes or whatever she really wanted she had to save up for it and then buy it. In that way, she still remembers how much she loved that exact piece and where and when she bought it and how she stills wears the piece until today. And I think that’s what fashion is about. Seeing something, loving it with all you heart and wearing it until it falls apart. Of course that’s one extreme and the Instagram thing is another, but I think it’s important that we try to meet the middle of that. To buy clothes not just because the look is trending right now or because some else is wearing it too, but because we love them. I can actually take this as one of my late new year resolutions. To buy clothes I know I will wear and love.

Apart from that the conference was all about the future of fashion, the changes happening right now and about the aspect that fashion is everywhere. Fashion isn’t just clothing, it’s in the car we own, the furniture we have and the lifestyle we have. Fashion never ends.

I went out of the conference with so much new info and opened eyes. I had learned so much in those six hours and I took nothing of it for granted. Honestly, until today I still can’t believe I was there. So many cool people, so many interesting speakers, one even showed his cat over Skype (that was the funniest part of the conference, so cute) and for five minutes the whole room turned into a huge club when singer Alma made a little appearance and sang her new song “Colour my hair”. So overall, it was a freaking awesome afternoon and one I will never ever again, for sure. And I got an amaziiiiing tote bag that I will keep forever, I love it so much.

So yeah, there you go. That was the first day of fashion week. Already started up great and yeeees, there is so much more to come. Be prepared. Oh and don’t forget to check out the pictures, they are right down there. If any of you have questions or anything else, don’t hesitate to contact me. Oh and I’m really sorry for posting so late. And until then I hope you enjoyed this post and my pictures and, as always, thanks for reading. x

About Ray

Hola everyone.

I know it’s late. Very late, to be honest. But I didn’t have any time to write today, it was horrible. And after work I had to go christmas presents shopping and then I had to make myself some food and now I’m here. Anyways, I just wanna apologize for being so late.

I know you all probably expect a post about my weekend with my mum, but I thought I’d postpone that to Friday and tell you about a certain part of our time. To be exact, the day we went to the cinema and watched one of the most special and beautiful movies I’ve ever seen. And as you can all see at the title, I’m talking about the masterpiece “About Ray”.

Let me first tell you what the movie is all about. About Ray is about a girl or boy, who feels like she’s / he’s born in the wrong body. Since she was just four years old, Ramona felt like something about her just didn’t feel right. Fast forward to Ray, now 16 years old and desperate to start the gender transition. But exactly that, his age, is the problem. It means that he needs his family to be okay with loosing their daughter/granddaughter. Not to mention that his grandma still thinks that Ray should just be gay.

I guess you guys can already sense the drama and all the emotions. And I can tell you, there A LOT of emotions. Beginning with Ray, who just wants a normal life, a normal family. Then his mother, who never thought that she would loose Ramona so fast. And Rays grandma Dodo and her girlfriend Honey, who even live all under one roof. Oh and let’s not forget his dad, who left when he was just a little baby and now has to sign one of the most important papers of Rays life.

If you’re asking yourself, yes, I cried. Many times. And I had to stop myself, for real. The movie gave me such an urge to fully cry, the loud, sobbing, heartbreaking type of cry. And I think mum did too.

Apart from the unique and amazing story, the movie is turned into something perfect by the fascinating camera work – it’s actually more like some kind of art, so damn amazing – and of course the breathtaking actors. Elle Fanning is so real in her role as Ray and Naomi Watts as the mother is just mind-blowing. Mum said that she could really feel how hard she tried to let her daughter go and welcome her son. It was kinda heartbreaking, to be honest. Because of both sides, Rays and his mums. Oh and probably too because I watched it with my mum and this movie is all about mothers and daughters/sons.

I asked my mum later on if she would accept it if I told her that I felt like I lived a lie and wanted to change my gender completely. She said yes. And I am thankful for that. Because it is for sure a hard thing to say, even if it’s just hypothetically.

All in all, the movie About Ray was everything I expected it to be and so much more. I loved every second of it, even when it broke my heart. I think that’s the kind of story and movie everyone should get to know and see. Because it’s such an important and recent topic. So guys, I can really just recommend this movie to all of you. If you have the chance, please go and watch it. Please. And if any of you have seen it, what do you think about it? Did you like it as much as me? Tell me. And until then, sorry again for being so late, I hope you still enjoyed this post and, as always, thanks for reading. x

Girls talk (kinda?)

Hola everyone.

So, I guess today will be some kind of different topic and I’ll try to be 100 % honest with you because honestly, we’re all the same so.

You can probably imagine that I have no idea how it feels to be a boy, but I certainly know how it feels to be a girl growing up in this crazy world. And I can tell you, there are a lot of struggles.

Let’s start with my favorite topic (sarcasm), the week of hell. Or strawberry week or whatever you want to call it, because for me, as already mentioned, it’s the week of hell and I hate it. To death. Forever and always. Let’s be honest, why do girls have to go through that? It makes no sense at all. It hurts like hell. Makes you feel completely uncomfortable. For me, it makes you feel and look awful, at least from your perspective. And like for real, you’re bleeding!!??! If we cut our finger and bleed for like 20 seconds it’s huge, but when girls are on their period it’s no big deal at all. That’s so unfair. I mean, hell no, it’s not funny at all to have cramps like hell for 5 days or more. I would go without it anytime, seriously. I mean, I have to say that I’m currently at the beginning of my week of hell so I’m a little bit overemotional and complicated and I feel like crap and, for me, look like crap (my boss asked me if I’m sick), so yeah, it’s probably not the best time to complain about things, but I’m in the mood for it, so don’t judge.

So yeah, periods are shitty and pure nonsense. Next. The struggle of looking bomb every second of your life. And before any of you come at me, I know things are changing right now, thank god, but still. People think that girls and women have to be pretty. We just have to. And I don’t get it. Sometimes I want to dress up and look good, of course. But then I’m doing it for myself and not for anybody else. But sometimes I also don’t want to care about my looks AT ALL. Today it’s a lot easier for me to walk around without any makeup (at home) and in some chill out clothes. But when I was younger I always thought that I had to look good, all the time. I remember my mum asking me why I was wearing makeup at home. And I didn’t even know. I just felt weird without it. And today I don’t even want to put on makeup when I know that I’ll just be home the whole day. Because putting it on and off is just a huge pain in the ass, let’s be real.

But of course, there are always two sides. Sometimes girl want to be pretty, look pretty, feel pretty. For themselves. But sometimes they don’t. And that’s okay too, isn’t it? I think so. And I hate the pressure that comes from our society. And I HATE posts like “Go swimming at the first date to see the true face.” Like hell no, you don’t even deserve this date. You deserve nothing. Douche.

I know, this is already a pretty long post and I could rant on and on, but I don’t want this to be too much for you, so I’ll just cut down on the next few things. There are other things that kinda piss me off. The fact that there are still gender specific topics and jobs and expectations. Girls can be pretty AND intelligent. Girls can work as much as men and yes, they should earn the same amount of money (can somebody please fix that finally???). And girls can be into the same things as men. That doesn’t make them manly or something. We are girls. And we can wear whatever we want, do whatever we want and we should feel free to live free. As much as every other human should feel like.

So yeah, that’s my rant. Actually, I wanted this to be a funny post thingy, but I think it just turnt into some kind of feminism rant, which is pretty cool too. Please notice that any of the things that I just said can be switched for men too and also for the whole LGBT community. I think that we are all humans, we are all the same and we should all be equally valuable, no matter what we do, who we love, which body we have or where we live. We are all beautiful. Let’s embrace this beauty. Oh and can somebody please stop this girls having a period thing? Because I certainly didn’t sign up for this. Thanks.

I hope you enjoyed this post and if any of you want to talk about anything and everything, feel free to hit me up. And until then, thanks for reading. x