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The body story

Hola everyone.

Todays post will get a little bit long, excuse me for that, because I want to talk about something really important, which are the two topics health and body image over all, mostly body positivity. Two weeks ago I watched a video of the YouTuber Arden Rose about her body acceptance journey, in which she talked about her story with her body and the body image in this world – I’ll leave link down below – and she just inspired me. And I started to think about my story with my own body and I got so “emotional” and stuck up in my own thoughts and I just thought that I had to share it with you guys. Especially because I think it’s a really important to talk about, so here we go.

My story

So, let’s start with pure honesty. I know, you’re probably expecting a sad story how I starved myself or something like that, but actually, like years ago I literally didn’t care about my body, like at all. I mean, not the way I do now. I mean, I have always been this shy person, that nobody really noticed – which is something I’m actually starting to get rid of now – so there was never a real reason there for me to think about my appearance. Certainly, I wanted to look “good”, but I mean, I was really really small, didn’t know what to wear, ate what everybody else did and just had a lot of other things to care about.

Actually, the thing that people didn’t really look at me kind of always kept me like super down and I don’t know, maybe even sad. Because I wanted people to notice me. I mean, I’m a cheery, crazy, shrill person who loves talking and going places and that aspect of invisibility just stopped me from being that kind of person. And yeah, I was like 14, so.

I think my whole body image, health sight, who-am-I thing started when I got into high school and social media became a part of my life. First of all, I was older then and let’s say wiser and I met people online, that I could identify with. People, who had the same thoughts as me, who liked the same things as me and people, who actually noticed me. And then I got onto tumblr and my whole how-do-I-look world started to build up. I noticed my love for fashion, started to buy magazines, googled styles and trends and just went shopping and actually paid attention to how I looked, what I bought, what I was wearing and how I felt in it.

To be honest, when I was like 16 or something like that, I don’t know what I was thinking but I literally looked like I had just dipped myself into rainbow paint. I wore like 20 different bracelets and shrill shirts with screaming bright colors. And I still remember this talk I had with my friend when we were waiting for the bus to arrive to go home from school. I just had adjusted all of my (probably) 100 bracelets and she looked at me and asked me if I really thought that I looked good and I still remember saying yes and the look on her face. This look that tells you that someone thinks you look horrible, like they would start laughing at you if you weren’t friends. Can you believe that this was like 5 years ago and I still remember it like it happened two weeks ago? There you can see how hurtful teenage girls can be. Shame on you. And yes, it bothered me so much that I slowly stopped wearing the bracelets and my shrill clothes, so yeah.

But there was also a good thing that happened after this talk. I swore myself that I never wanted to have someone look at me like that again. So I grew up, went a little more shopping, especially on holidays, googled some more, watched some more YouTube videos and stayed longer on tumblr than I probably should have and finally found my own style. And oh damn, did I get confident. The older I got, the more confidence I grew to that point that I actually thought that I looked pretty damn good, like hella on fire good.

And another thing that helped me was that I started to love my hair. I mean, you know from all of my pics that I have curly hair, naturally curly hair. And oh god, how I hated it. I never knew what to do with it or how to handle it and all the other girls had straight hair and I wanted to look like everybody else so I straightened it too. God was I stupid. Thank god that I know much better today, again thanks to YouTube. Today I love my hair to death, I embrace it as much as I can. I can’t even remember the last time I straightened it, to be honest. My hair was always a big thing for me and today it’s an aspect that gives me a lot of confidence and makes me stand out of the crowd and I just love it.

So today, I am more confident than ever. I really love my body and I think everyone should do that, because your body is an actual temple, so you should take good care of it. And I think that as long as you feel good in it, every kind of body looks awesome. I mean, I’m pretty slim, let’s call it that. That’s something I got from my mum, who’s like stick thin. But I was never that kind of girl who worked out. I mean, I tried it for some time, but let’s be honest, there are a lot of better things to do in your free time. I love going for a walk with Molly and for like two years or something like that I had this daily routine of doing some kind of belly workout so I would get a flat stomach, which actually really did work out. And I mean, yes, I am thin. And yes, you can see my collarbones, but that doesn’t mean that I’m like unhealthy or something. That’s just the body I have. And I loved doing my workouts because I slowly got some abs and I looked at myself and felt so proud, I still feel that way today, although I only work out like once a week for a few minutes. I think it really depends on yourself and how you feel like. Your own opinion and your feelings matter and not what other people say or think. Other peoples opinions are literal trash, let’s be honest. Only yours matter, okay?

The last thing that really helped me a lot of building up my body image and my self-consciousness is food. My mum is nutritionist and works with people and their diets every single day, so there was no way of me getting around the importance of food. Oh, and furthermore she’s been a vegetarian since she was 16 and now calls herself a vegan (if you cut out on the chocolate and cheese, there and then), so yeah, I think you get the idea of what I mean. There was this time when I actually checked the calories of every single item I ate and I used to count all of it to see how much I had eaten in one day. I mean, I don’t think or remember that stopping me from eating what I wanted to eat, but I still had calories and fat in my head every day. And thank god that time passed.

You probably already know what I’m going to say now. Yes, I don’t eat any meat, not at all. It kind of happened in slow motion. Mum always wanted me to be vegetarian. But as the stubborn person I am, I told her that I’d do what I want and eat what I want. Which means that I basically myself changed my eating habits. I can’t remember the last time I ate meat or drank milk. I mean, I’m not a vegetarian. I eat fish, cheese, chocolate and so on. But I’m talking about small dimensions and portions here, I eat it, but not much. And I care about my food. I pay attention to what I’m buying and eating, if it’s organic or not, if it contains any artificial substances that could be bad for my health, and if its production harms the environment or not. I mean, nowadays we all know how much we and our eating habits damage our beautiful mother earth. And we only have one, so I don’t get why we do that. Like in moments people tell me that they can’t live without eating meat every day. Did you even ever think about how much pain these animals go trough? We aren’t meant to eat cows, pigs or whatever. We never were and never will. And still we think that we can do whatever we want. We don’t, just to make that clear. And all of you guys, young people like me, are those who have to take care of our planet and take it back into recovery. We are responsible. And it’s scientifically proven that changing to a plant-based diet is literally just good for you and your body, it’s healthy. So why not live without the meat every day?Changing my diet really helped me, at least I think so. And I think it would help you guys too. Just try it, for two weeks or so and then check out the results (oh and please tell me about them, I’m really curious).

So, what’s important?

Getting that body image I have now took me a long time. First I didn’t care about it at all and then I got older and everything changed. I started to dress the way I wanted to, began to workout and worked on my eating habits. And today I really like myself and my body. And I’m healthy, I don’t even remember the last time I was ill (thank god). I mean, I don’t look like some kind of Victorias Secret model, but I like they way I look. And I love the way I dress. Whenever I wear something I really like, I get a huge confidence boost and I’m thankful for that. Of course I have my flaws, everyone does. But I think it’s important to even love your flaws. Because nobody is perfect, but everyone is beautiful.

I know this post got really lengthy, but it was really important for me to talk about this. I want you guys to know that you are all beautiful, please don’t let anyone tell you something else. They are wrong, trust me. And please take care of yourself. Stay healthy, exercise some more, eat food that makes you feel good, don’t hate on your body, you only have this one, and please don’t compare yourself to other people.

I want to end this post with a quote of Oscar Wilde I found in Copenhagen on a postcard:

“Be yourself. Everybody else is taken.”

Please feel free to have a healthy discussion in the comment section if you want to and if any of you want to talk to me about anything and everything, I’m here, always. And until then, I hope you liked this post, and thanks for reading. x

Arden’s video: link

Copenhagen Haul

Hola everyone.

I know, I don’t have anything to explain, you already read the title. Welcome to another haul (yeeeeey). Actually, I’m pretty excited – probably even more than you guys – because I can talk some more about some of my favorite topics. Shopping, books and fashion.

I mean, I don’t really have to tell you that my mum and me went shopping in Copenhagen, that’s pretty obvious, lets be honest. The weeks before our trip I stopped myself every time I wanted to go shopping (do you even know how hard that is???). Because I knew I had to save all my shopping desires up for Copenhagen, which I gladly did. So I flew to Copenhagen with my plan of buying some pretty cool things, most important dungarees. Dungarees is a trend I tried to avoid or let’s say ignore, but you know me, I can’t ignore cool trends like that. Especially not if my beloved fashion YouTuber Zoella just absolutely nails wearing it. So, I had to get a pair of those. And apart from that I wanted to get an off the shoulder shirt because I simply love them and a cute tea cup from Urban Outfitters. So, that was my plan.

So, the first thing I bought was actually the book called “Beautiful Broken Things” by Sara Barnard, which I really wanted to buy, because it was on my book list. And I always have to stroll through book shops in the cities I travel to and finding the book was just another bonus.

On the third day my mum and me had our big shopping day. A good day, because I actually got everything I wanted to. Dungarees, off the shoulder tops and a cute cup. All of my clothes are from the H&M, a shop I usually don’t really go to because it’s pretty lame in my city. But surprisingly H&M stores are always so much better in other countries, it’s nearly unfair. And yes, I love everything I got and the dungarees just plainly slay. I love them.

Oh and I got my cup as planned at Urban Outfitters and I love it sooooo freaking much. I love the color and it looks so vintage and just awesome. Oh and it feels really nice too.

The last thing I got were two cactuses. It looks like cactuses are THE trend in Copenhagen or Denmark overall, so I just had to get some. I found them at a market close to our hotel and they looked so small and cute and tiny and beautiful and I wanted them. So I bought two and hoped that they would survive the flight, which they did, thank god. They actually are called my two little dwarfs and I absolutely love them.

So yeah, that’s everything I bought. I absolutely loved Copenhagen and I’m so happy that I went there with my mum and that I got all those beautiful things. I hope you love them as much as I do and enjoy my as always artsy pictures. If any of you went to Copenhagen or shopping or want to talk about anything else, I’m here. And until then. as always, thanks for reading. x

Copenhagen

Hola everyone.

I promised you guys a huge, colorful, picture-ful post about Copenhagen and I keep my promises so here we go.

First of all I have to say that the city is just wonderful. It’s so damn photogenic and picturesque and beautiful and screams tumblr all over. I just loved strolling through the streets and looking at all the nice, quirky and colorful houses. I think that’s actually the best thing about it – every single house is painted in a different color and it just turns the whole city into a huge rainbow.

Apart from that it’s just so comforting. Probably because there is no traffic at all, if you keep away from the main streets. Because people use bikes more than cars or at least as much as cars. And it’s so relaxing to walk through the streets without the traffic noises bothering you all the time. And whenever you get away from all the typical tourist and sightseeing districts, there’s seriously none walking around in town. So it really doesn’t feel like you’re in such a big city, but you are, which makes it incredibly interesting and funny. And besides that all the buildings look so new. I mean, usually cities look old, at least in the centre. They just look worn-down and shabby. But Copenhagen is so different. The whole city looks completely new and modern, which is so fascinating. I even googled its “birth year”, which is 1167, so it’s reallyyyyyy old. But you won’t notice that when you walk around in town. It’s just so cool. Oh and my most favorite part of the city was this one small road with cute little colorful houses at both sides, it felt like I just stepped into a movie set. Just so damn beautiful.

Oh and the food. Oh my god, the food. I don’t even know where to start. I seriously have never eaten such a good bread, to be honest. It’s sooooooo damn good, I was really shocked when I had my first sandwich. And the pickled herring, holy moly. I’m usually not such a big fan of pickled fish, but this fish I had for breakfast at our hotel – which was really nice by the way and had the best location ever – just has to be an exception. If any of you ever get to go to Copenhagen or Denmark or any nordic country at all, please go and have some pickled herring, I swear you will love it to death, like me. And also just every single time we had dinner or ate anything else, it was wonderful and tasty every time. So Copenhagen is a really great city with really tasty food.

Hmmmm, what else? Oh yeah, my strangest experience of the holiday. Actually, it was all my fault. Like every time before a holiday, I googled things you should do in the city I’m going to, so I googled special tourist things of Copenhagen and came across the autonom part of the city called “Christiania”. And I read about it a little and then decided that it would be cool to see how all those alternative and hippie-like people live. Oh god, was I wrong. Guys, I have never been so scared in my life, seriously. I held my breath the whole time we were there, I was so freaked out. It happened that Christiania wasn’t the colorful hippie town I thought it would be or was, no no. Christiania is actually the place people go to if they want to buy drugs. In an illegal legal way. That was the first time I have ever seen weed and smelled it (god it stinks so much). And there was this one street where all the people sold their “products” and they were all masked and I was so scared for my life, holy moly. I had such a huge urge to run away (which isn’t allowed there, you’re not allowed to run or take pictures – I still don’t get the running thing). I mean, you know me guys. I don’t smoke, I don’t drink and I don’t do drugs, so you can probably imagine how comfortable the situation was for me. Actually, my mum thought it was pretty interesting, so I guess she’s tougher than me when it comes to such things, but I sure as hell won’t go back there every again in my life (maybe just to show my future kids how scary drugs are).

And the last thing I have to mention is the concert – no, I didn’t forget about it. I already told you guys how excited I was to see Coldplay for the first time and how happy I was and still am for my mum that she finally got to see her favorite band of all time. And it was sooooo wonderful, seriously. I loved it, from the first second on to the last note. And yes, I cried. First nearly when they came on stage because I was so happy for my mum and then when they played “Fix You”, which is pretty much one of the saddest and most emotional songs out there. But of course I wasn’t sad, I cried happy tears. And oh my god, the stage was sooooooo damn beautiful. At the beginning we all got some kind of wristbands which automatically lit up in different colors and it was so dreamy. Like watching the sun go down for two hours straight. Oh and they were all so nice, I think Chris thanked us for like 3 to 5 times for spring our Wednesday with them, like it was just another evening for us fans. But I thought it was totally cute that he said that. So overall, it was an amazing experience and I’m so happy that I got to see them because it was their last show in Europe for a long time (their words), which makes it even more special than it already was.

So yeah, what a wonderful vacation, trip or concert adventure it was. I loved every single second of if and personally I can’t wait to go back to Copenhagen – it is now in my list of countries/cities I want to live in when I get older. And I really hope that my mum feels the same. Oh and of course I hope that you liked my little big post about Copenhagen and the pics I took (I actually love them, it was so nice to have my camera back in my hands after the exam break). And if any of you have ever been to Copenhagen or any other supercool city and want to chat with me, I’m here. And until then, as always, thanks for reading. x

I’m back

Hola everyone.

Helloooooooooo. I’m baaaaack. And this time I’m back to stay (at least I hope so). Oh my god, you can’t imagine how much I missed talking to you guys and just literally writing. It feels like I just got home again and slipped into my coziest blanket on the couch. I’m home. And I feel so relieved.

And yes, uni is over. FINALLY. I thought summer break would never come. Do you know how annoying and torturing it is, to scroll through Facebook and other social medias and just see how all the other people on this planet are enjoying their summer holidays and chilling their life and you’re just sitting in your dark room, hammering facts into your head you’ll probably forget two days after the exam. It’s horrible. Seriously. I was so frustrated, that I wanted to burn something down. Relax, I didn’t – or did I…?

What about the exams, you ask? To be honest, they were pretty amazing. I mean, I studied a lot, that’s like one of my characteristics. But the thing is, this time the topics were so much more interesting for me. The last semester, I literally just memorized everything so I could just remember it at the test and that was it. It just wasn’t interesting AT ALL. But this time it was different and I think that made a big difference. Anyway, I smashed the exams and am finally free, which feels like pure heaven.

There are so many things I want to tell you. All the things that happened and all the things that are going to happen. But I’ll keep most of it for the future (which means the next weeks) and just tell you the most important things.

Today I’m meeting up with friend to watch The Conjuring 2, which I know that you know that I’m hyper excited to finally see, I seriously can’t wait. Oh and to chat, because we both had exams the last month and didn’t have much time to talk so we have a lot of stories to tell each other, which is always super amazing.

Oh and today in two days I’ll be already walking down the streets of Copenhagen with my mum. And before you freak out, of course I’ll tell you everything about it and you guessed right, my camera will be with me, as always, and I’ll try show you the beauty of Copenhagen when I get back. Oh and we’re going to see Coldplay there and my mum is literally so damn excited for the concert, because she wanted to see the band for years and on Wednesday her dream will finally come true. Which I’m very very very happy for her, because usually I’m the one who’s drawing her to concert and the one who’s nearly fainting when the acts finally enter the stage and this time it’s the exact opposite. I can’t wait to see her get all fangirly and scream out the lyrics. It will be just wonderful. And besides, Coldplay are like a dream live so I can’t wait to see them too.

Ummm, I guess that’s it by now. I would have material to go on forever and I wish I could, but I think it’s best to split it up. Oh, just one more thing. As I’m such a good student (hehe), I got myself a gift right afterwards. And you know me, of course it had to be something that has something to do with live music. Actually, I bought festival tickets for a electro music festival and guess what? I’ll see Martin – yes, the Martin Garrix, the most amazing DJ – again. And I’m sooooo excited, I really can’t describe it. What a dream-come-true.

So yeah, here’s my update. I really can’t tell you how happy I am to be back again. I just noticed now how much I actually missed it. And you can be sure, I won’t leave for a looooong time (I hope that makes you as happy as me). Oh and if you have any stores or news for me, I’d be superhappy to hear them. And until then, as always, thanks for reading and welcoming me back. x

Flower power and taking a break

Hola everyone.

This post is part of super colorful and happy and woopiedoopie but it also contains a little bit of a downside. Okay, first the negative news to get over with it. I’m currently in my last month of this semester at college, which means that I have work to do 24/7. And it’s kind of a bit stressful for me right now and I’m not really sure where I should start first and I noticed that my blog just turns into one more task for me and it’s kind of just too much for me right now. I have the feeling that I really have to 100 % concentrate on my exams and college, so I decided to take a break for a month. And I know, believe me, it breaks my heart, but I just have to focus on college. That means I’ll be back exactly in one month again, hopefully with a great ending of the semester, good grades and a lot of exciting and thrilling stories and adventures to tell you all about and amazing pictures to share with you. And please believe me, I’m really sorry.

Okay, now that we are all sad, let’s lift the mood again, shall we? Last week I kind of walked around in my college city and it was such a beautiful day so I took my camera with me and took some pics. And they turned out totally wonderful, mostly because there are thousands and thousands of roses blooming everywhere right now. I actually felt like in some kind of fairy tale. So, here’s a little bit of fairy tale feeling for you.

I hope you enjoyed this post and the pictures and forgive me for taking a break and understand my situation. I already can’t wait to be back online. See you all in one month. Thanks for reading. x

VIS – the review

Hola everyone.

As promised, here’s a little review of my days at the film festival “Vienna Independent Shorts”.

First of all I need to say that I’m a huge fan of art and I also have a certain sense for art and things like that. At least I thought so until I sat down in the cinema and everything I believed in vanished in front of my eyes. To be honest, there were really really good movies, but there were also bad ones.

That kind of movies where you sit there and either ask yourself how somebody could call that a movie or art or you just think that you could do that at least ten times better. I even got a headache while watching one (it was kind of just flashing lights for 10 minutes straight).

But for real, there were fantastic movies too. Some were funny, some were like reallyyyyyy deep and others were just thrilling and got me to want to see more and more and more. So yeah, there were good and bad ones.

Overall the week was a really cool experience I wouldn’t want to miss. The weather was nice, I saw a lot of cool people (there were mostly hipsters and alternative ones, what a surprise) and had a lot of fun with my friends. So yeah, I really enjoyed it.

I still hope that I once will be able to visit Cannes or one of the really really big film festivals. Because they just look like you step into a whole different world full of movies, stars and bling bling.

If any of you ever got to visit a film festival like me, I’d be really happy to chat, and also, I’m super interested in stories like that. And until then, I hope you enjoyed this post and, as always, thanks for reading. x