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Conor and me

Hola everyone.

This one is special. Really special. I know I already talked about him, but this is the post he always deserved and always will. This my story with a guy called Conor Maynard aka a guy I’ve only met once and loved before and since.

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I think you all know who Conor is, at least I hope so. Because if you don’t, what the hell are you doing with your life? I kind of crashed into Conor about 4 years ago while I was on holiday in Cyprus with my parents. We stayed in a small house and I passed some time by watching TV. They had MTV and I loved it. I remember that was the time when Conor won the MTV award for best new artist and in every break, there was a small spot with him and his song Can’t Say No. And god, was I annoyed. But do you know what happens when you get to hear a song like 20 times a day for about 8 days? Exactly. First you get used to it, then you remember the words, then you hum it and finally you sing it loudly and dance to it. That’s what happened to me. I fell for the song.

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And when I got home, I kind of kept him in my heart. At that time, I had a huge heartbreak and I just needed something to make me happy. So one night I was sitting in front of my laptop, surfing through YouTube when I got to his site. He had those series of funny little videos which he called “The Conorcles”. Actually they were just little vlogs, but sooooo damn much better. To be honest, Conor is one of the funniest guys ever. He has this totally amazing humor which makes it possible for him to laugh about himself. And honestly, he’s also just really really crazy.

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I remember sitting in my room, watching, like, every single video and I laughed so loud that my mum came into my room to ask me what was so funny. Little did I know that I was laughing about a guy that would still be a part of my life 4 years later.

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After I found out that Conor was a guy who had the same sense of humor as me, was just as weird and crazy as me and was also intensely cute, I started listening to his songs more and more. And oh my god, he has the voice of an angle, I swear. Next to Ed Sheeran, he literally has the most beautiful voice on this planet. Seriously. I don’t even know how so much talent can be stuck in one single person. But as we can see, it is possible. And I fell for him. Oh how did I fall. Actually, Conor and his music and videos really helped me with my heartbreak, so I really want to thank him for that (thanks Conor). And then it just escalated. I told literally everyone about him. Showed his videos to my friends. Listened to his songs 24/7. Tweeted about him. And finally I called myself a Mayniac, which I still do, of course.

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And then June came. I remember it like it was yesterday. My mum and me had planned our second trip to New York. It should last for a week, starting at the 9th of June. It was April when I found out. I had just gotten home from school, when I checked my phone. I have this cool app called Bands In Town, that shows you every concerts in any city you want. And I had set it to show me all concerts in New York, because I really wanted to go to a concert there. And I had followed Conor there, so that meant whenever he had a concert in the city I had selected, I would get a notification.

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I think it was about 2 pm when I got the notification. I looked at my phone and there it was. It said that Conor had just announced a concert in New York. On the 9th of June. The day we would get there. You can’t even imagine how much I freaked out. I started to cry immediately. I couldn’t believe it. It was close to being so crazy that it just couldn’t be true. I mean, how high are the chances that Conor would have a concert in New York exactly in the week when I would be there? I know, impossibly low. But it was true. I checked it like 100 times. And then I called my mum, half crying, half breathing like I just had had an attack. I remember that mum wasn’t so happy at first. Because it would be really stressful, because there wouldn’t be a lot of time to get to the hotel and to the venue. At the end it was incredibly stressful. But at the time we got into the taxi to the venue, all the stress and pressure got washed away. I think I already cried back then.

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When we got there, we already saw a few people queuing up in line. I had actually bought Meet and Greet tickets, which was just the cherry on top of the huge ice cream bowl of craziness. The M&G thing also meant that I wouldn’t just be meeting Conor, but that I was also able to get into the venue before anyone else. But as you know me, I was too shy to go around the queue. But my mum isn’t shy. And wasn’t. So she literally just took my hand and walked right onto the street with me, passing every single person and getting right to the entrance. It was sooooo crazy, I couldn’t believe it. And then it all went down really quick. I ran into the venue, got my place in the second row and the two support acts came, sang and left.

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And then the moment came. Conor finally got onto the incredibly small stage – the concert was for like 500 people, maximum – and sang and danced his heart out. And so did I. I laughed, cried, danced, smiled, admired him, screamed, cheered and literally had the time of my life. And he was sooooo damn good, oh my god. I loved every single second of it and wished for it to never end. But unfortunately it had to end, but then the M&G part came and I got so damn nervous, you can’t even imagine.

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Actually, I had prepared a little gift for Conor – I had written a letter and had bought him a cool bracelet which fitted the other ones he always wore and still does to this day (they are friendship bracelets). I remember that he smiled at me when I gave it to him and that he said “Oh I’m going to cry”, which is something I love so much. And my mum took pics, so this moment is literally captured on my phone. And oh my god. I remember when we took a pic together, he put his hand on my hip and I just put it on his back but my hand was half on his denim jacket and half on his shirt, which was kinda awkward, so I just slipped my hand completely under his jacket. I still laugh about it to this day. I think it’s so funny, I don’t even know why, it just is. Then I thanked him and got out of the concert area and sat down on a bench. I was shaking so much and my heart was beating like crazy. I think I sat there for like 10 minutes until my mum asked me to go and I was so not ready. Because I knew that Conor was like 2 meters away from me. I didn’t want to leave him. Thank god there was a small window in the door, so before we finally got out, I looked through it and took on last glance at him and said goodbye for the last time.

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So that’s how I met Conor. It was like one of the best moments in my whole life and I’m so happy that I could be a part of this small, intimidate show. It was really special.

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A few months later, Conor announced that he’d be publishing his own book and that he wanted to put a few pics with his fans into it. So he started a contest in which you just had to post your pic with him on a website and they’d chose the pics randomly. I bet you can already guess what I did. Of course I posted it a lot of times, because I really wanted to be in this book. Or at least have him see it. And of course I also preordered the book, no matter if I was in it or not.

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I was in class when my mum sent me the picture. I can still see me staring at the phone, eyes wide open, with my teacher getting right into class. I was so excited, I threw my phone on the table. I was shaking like crazy. On the picture my mum had sent me was the pic of me and Conor. In his book. Right on the first page. I thought she was joking. I couldn’t believe that this was real and to be honest, I still can’t believe it. It’s just too crazy. And of course I showed it to everyone. Because like, this is REALLY special. Like really really special. I’m in Conors book (oh wow, I still haven’t realized it).

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So far, there had been two really special things that happened with Conor – the concert and his book. And then my 18th birthday happened. I remember tweeting him that it was my birthday and that I’d literally go crazy if he tweeted me. But when I went to bed there still hadn’t happened anything. But it was okay for me. Because I mean, he’s Conor. The next day my class and I went to a trip to Madrid and my friend picked me up to drive to school. And when I turned on my phone, I got a notification from Twitter. It said that Conor Maynard followed me (!!!). And I was like “yes of course, suuuure”. Because I thought it was some fake account. So I just clicked the link to see who the fake guy was. And then I saw the blue verification sign next to his name. And I went crazy. Conor had followed me. He was following me. I couldn’t believe it. To this day I think that this was his special birthday present for me. And I couldn’t be more thankful for everything he did and does.

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I still remember texting my mum that Conor followed me and her replying with “what does he want from you???” and I grinned like an idiot. I was sooooo freaking happy, oh my god. Actually, I still am, because – thank god – Conor is still following me. Which enables me to text him whenever I want, which is like SO DAMN COOL. And of course I’m texting him sometimes, for example when he releases a new cover or something. He still hasn’t replied, but I’m sure that he at least saw it and had a small reason to smile and that’s all I could wish for.

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And now it’s 2016 and I’m still here. And I always will. Because Conor really means a lot to me. He’s more to me than an angelic, freaking amazing, unbelievable talented singer. He’s a guy who’s part of my life since 4 years now and I’m not planning on changing that and I hope he isn’t either. It really means a lot to me that I’m sharing this special story or let’s say relationship with him. I wouldn’t want to miss any of it. Never ever.

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Oh and actually, after a wait of two years, Conor finally released some new music. His new album “Covers” is out today, which includes all his latest albums, two new ones and another original. I especially love his cover of “Don’t Let Me Down” by The Chainsmokers and of course his original called “This Is My Version” (I think this song is about his breakup with his long-term girlfriend Victoria, so it’s a little bit sad – okay it’s really sad – but so freaking amazing). So please, whatever you are doing right now, STOP IT. And go listen to Conors album. You won’t regret it, I swear. Conor deserves all of his fame and appreciation and a lot more. Because he really has a huge talent and he is an amazing person. And I’m just really thankful that I got to know him and have him in my life, even if he’s not physically next to me.

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I really hope that you enjoyed this post as much as I enjoyed writing it. I think you noticed how important Conor and this memories are to me. If any of you want to talk to me about Conor or anything else, I’m here. Oh and here’s the link to his new album – spotify.com. And here’s the link to the official video for his new song: youtube.com. I really hope you enjoy Conors music as much as me and, as always, thanks for reading.

Girls talk (kinda?)

Hola everyone.

So, I guess today will be some kind of different topic and I’ll try to be 100 % honest with you because honestly, we’re all the same so.

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You can probably imagine that I have no idea how it feels to be a boy, but I certainly know how it feels to be a girl growing up in this crazy world. And I can tell you, there are a lot of struggles.

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Let’s start with my favorite topic (sarcasm), the week of hell. Or strawberry week or whatever you want to call it, because for me, as already mentioned, it’s the week of hell and I hate it. To death. Forever and always. Let’s be honest, why do girls have to go through that? It makes no sense at all. It hurts like hell. Makes you feel completely uncomfortable. For me, it makes you feel and look awful, at least from your perspective. And like for real, you’re bleeding!!??! If we cut our finger and bleed for like 20 seconds it’s huge, but when girls are on their period it’s no big deal at all. That’s so unfair. I mean, hell no, it’s not funny at all to have cramps like hell for 5 days or more. I would go without it anytime, seriously. I mean, I have to say that I’m currently at the beginning of my week of hell so I’m a little bit overemotional and complicated and I feel like crap and, for me, look like crap (my boss asked me if I’m sick), so yeah, it’s probably not the best time to complain about things, but I’m in the mood for it, so don’t judge.

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So yeah, periods are shitty and pure nonsense. Next. The struggle of looking bomb every second of your life. And before any of you come at me, I know things are changing right now, thank god, but still. People think that girls and women have to be pretty. We just have to. And I don’t get it. Sometimes I want to dress up and look good, of course. But then I’m doing it for myself and not for anybody else. But sometimes I also don’t want to care about my looks AT ALL. Today it’s a lot easier for me to walk around without any makeup (at home) and in some chill out clothes. But when I was younger I always thought that I had to look good, all the time. I remember my mum asking me why I was wearing makeup at home. And I didn’t even know. I just felt weird without it. And today I don’t even want to put on makeup when I know that I’ll just be home the whole day. Because putting it on and off is just a huge pain in the ass, let’s be real.

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But of course, there are always two sides. Sometimes girl want to be pretty, look pretty, feel pretty. For themselves. But sometimes they don’t. And that’s okay too, isn’t it? I think so. And I hate the pressure that comes from our society. And I HATE posts like “Go swimming at the first date to see the true face.” Like hell no, you don’t even deserve this date. You deserve nothing. Douche.

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I know, this is already a pretty long post and I could rant on and on, but I don’t want this to be too much for you, so I’ll just cut down on the next few things. There are other things that kinda piss me off. The fact that there are still gender specific topics and jobs and expectations. Girls can be pretty AND intelligent. Girls can work as much as men and yes, they should earn the same amount of money (can somebody please fix that finally???). And girls can be into the same things as men. That doesn’t make them manly or something. We are girls. And we can wear whatever we want, do whatever we want and we should feel free to live free. As much as every other human should feel like.

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So yeah, that’s my rant. Actually, I wanted this to be a funny post thingy, but I think it just turnt into some kind of feminism rant, which is pretty cool too. Please notice that any of the things that I just said can be switched for men too and also for the whole LGBT community. I think that we are all humans, we are all the same and we should all be equally valuable, no matter what we do, who we love, which body we have or where we live. We are all beautiful. Let’s embrace this beauty. Oh and can somebody please stop this girls having a period thing? Because I certainly didn’t sign up for this. Thanks.

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I hope you enjoyed this post and if any of you want to talk about anything and everything, feel free to hit me up. And until then, thanks for reading. x

EDM heaven

Hola everyone.

I know, I’m late, I’m very sorry. Buuuut I have a good excuse which is also the topic of this post – I went to a festival yesterday (and yes, I got home late and felt like crap when I woke up at like 2 pm, but good and happy crap).

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It’s called Lake Festival and is a festival for EDM music. But as you guys already know, my reason for going was one: having fun with my friend and two: seeing Martin Garrix again. Let’s be honest, Martin is literally the king of EDM, and at least for me, he’s the best and cutest DJ out there. And the aspect that he’s a superhot cutie is just another bonus. Actually I’ve known him for three years now and got the chance to see him close Sziget Festival last year. And I just fell for him completely and needed to see him again. I just had to. So this festival came just right.

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I have to say, the festival on itself wasn’t like super duper amazing. It was pretty small, with only 3 stages. And of course I’m just comparing it to Sziget, which is like a complete other universe. But it was fun anyway, just really different. The only thing that I didn’t really like was the crowd. Especially with Martin, it didn’t really seem like they showed a lot of dedication. At least not as much as at Sziget. There wasn’t a real dynamic feeling. But let’s be honest, I didn’t care about that at all. Because I was there and Martin was there and I just had my little party with him. And he, as the cutie he is, still told us that the crowd was amazing and that he loved us (what a cutiiiiieeeee).

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I only felt bad for my friend, because apparently, EDM isn’t the right thing for her and onto that, the people standing beside her where total douchebags and asocial pricks. I’m just glad that she just ignored them, which is always the right thing to do.

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Anyway, Martin was amazing as always. I really liked that this set was completely different than the one at Sziget. And I mean, I wouldn’t have cared if it was the same, because I love everything he does. He just slays. And oh my god, he was so damn cute – I know, I say that a lot, but it’s just so damn true. And he played a lot of new songs, which are literally breathtaking. They’re more like rap, strong beat ones and I loooved. Actually, the last song he played is his new single which he released today and it was the highlight, seriously (it’s called “In The Name Of Love” – here’s the link: youtube.com). I mean, I started to cry. I was so overwhelmed. And he showed the heart sign and I did it too and I felt so free and alive and just appreciated the moment and lived it to it’s fullest and yeah. I’m just so happy. Really. What an amazing night.

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Apart from Martin, the other DJ who performed were Oliver Heldens, Lost Frequencies, DVBBS (way to hard techno style for me, no thanks), Alan Walker, some guys I never heard of and didn’t really enjoy and R3hab. But to be honest, Martin just topped them altogether. As I said, he’s the king. And I’m really proud of that. Because he’s 20 and achieved all of that. He flies from city to city everyday. I mean, today he’s in Chicago, then in Las vegas and I bet that he has another show on Sunday. Someday he has three shows a day. And he still loves it so much, that he keeps a smile on his face for the whole time. And I love that. That he’s there for his fans, that he shows appreciation and that he loves what he’s doing. He really deserves all of that. And I’m happy that I can follow his path, even just as a quite observer and loving fan. I really am.

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So yeah, that’s pretty much everything I have to say. The festival was amazing, martin was even more amazing and I can’t wait to see him again some time. Really. I hope that you enjoyed this post and if any of you want to chat about something, just hit me up, I’m here. And until then, as always, thanks for reading. x

Let’s go shopping

Hola everyone.

Today we’re going to be talking about something that everybody likes (at least I hope so). That’s right, we’re talking about shopping. Good old shopping for clothing and other stuff, that we mostly don’t need but just have to buy it, because look at it. So, let’s go.

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Forever 21

I literally LIVE in this shop. I think I’ve never loved a store this much. Seriously. I remember walking into it for the first time. I was on a school trip and just went in there for fun and I just KNEW from the very first second on. It was love at first sight. Today like 80% to 90% of my wardrobe are from F21. And I’m not planning on changing that. It just has everything. Basic clothing, some grungy things, some boho parts, the coolest jewelry ever and it plays the best god damn music. I just love it. And most of all their tshirts. Amazing.

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Brandy Melville

I again discovered this one on a school trip in Madrid. I went for a lil shopping trip alone and came across this cool boho looking store and just had to get in there. A few months later it all blew up and got like really really big. I have to say, I’m a lil bit disappointed in what it became. Because all the girls who shop there are either 14 or so damn thin that it scares me. Like, girls please EAT. But besides that, their clothes are still freaking amazing. And I looooove the fabrics they use. Sometimes it can get a lil bit pricey, but if you find a good piece, it’s always worth it.

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H&M

To be honest, usually I’m not such a huge fan of this shop. Mostly because those in my country are pretty lame. They suck, seriously. But whenever I’m travelling to another city, I just love their clothes. Like, it’s completely crazy. For example at my Copenhagen haul. I bought pretty much everything at H&M. And I know that I would have never found such cool things at home. So, H&M is cool, except at home.

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Asos

That’s a shop I found through Zoella. I usually don’t shop online, because I want to try the clothes on and see how they fit me before I spend money on them. But all the things at Asos are so freaking pretty. I actually have like 15 different pieces in my list of saved items, the thing is that I’m never buying them (please don’t question this, I don’t even know myself). Maybe it’s the money or the waiting game as soon as you click buy, which drives me insane. But I’m sure that one day I’ll have the courage to click that button and until then I’ll just fall for their clothes more and more and more.

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Urban Outfitters

What can I say about Urban? I’m not such a big fan of their clothing, but I could die for their homeware, oh my god. I literally love every piece they have and would buy it all if it wasn’t so expensive. Actually, I bought a mug in Copenhagen and I freaking love it. It’s amazing. And they just have this cool image, like you just think that Urban is cool, it doesn’t matter if you’ve ever been there, you just think that.

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Zara

This is a store my mum actually loved before me, at a time when I was more into colorful, playful clothing. But today I actually really like it – thanks again to Zoe. Two months ago I think I bought a simple, basic striped v-neck shirt there and I love it so much. It’s basic, of course, but it still slays. Oh and a few weeks ago I bought a pair of black jeans. I always wanted jeans like the guys from 5sos – if you don’t know it, their legs are like super thin sticks stuck in superskinny black jeans and I’m really jealous. And I wanted the same jeans. So I went in there and found the perfect pair and they are actually so skinny that they look like I just sprayed black paint onto my legs and the bonus is that they are super comfy. It’s fantastic. And the make your legs and every outfit look bomb. I love it.

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Dr. Martens

Let’s not talk around it. The shoes just slay and I’m in love with them. I bought a dark maroon colored pair in Washington last year and I’m melting away every time I look at them. There’s no way you cannot love their shoes.

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Pretty much every homeware store on this planet

Oh my god, I love homeware. And decoration. And furniture. And and and. That’s the interior decorator side of me speaking right now. I think if I wasn’t so into journalism and fashion, I would surely want to earn money by decorating and furnishing the flats and houses of other people, because I freaking love it. Whenever I see a cute room or building I can always already image how I would turn it into the perfect apartment. And I could and actually do waste hours of hours in homeware and furniture shops, just strolling through the lanes, checking out what they have in store. Oh and yes, I decorated my room exactly the way I wanted it. I still remember my mum and me spending days in shops looking for the coolest furniture. And since then I’m spending my time decorating my room with pics, postcards and other cute pieces.

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So, there you go. Those are my favorite clothing shops including furniture and decoration, which I just had to include. I hope you enjoyed it. Oh and if any of you are into the same shops as me or want to talk, I’d be happy to hear from you. And until then, as always, thanks for reading. x

Music of the month

Hola everyone.

I know, I don’t need to explain anything or tell you about my love for music again and again and again and again and ….

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Buuut, I actually have some news, that pretty much create my list of my favorite songs right now. First of all it’s fixed that my mum and me are flying to London next month to attend the Reading Festival and see pretty much all of my favorite bands. And I can’t even tell you how happy I am, I could cry – okay, I actually already did really cry, but hey, this trip really means the world to me. And I can’t wait to see Brighton. All I do is watch vlogs of youtubers that live in Brighton so I can see what it looks like – it looks amazing by the way. Even the book I’m reading right now, “Beautiful Broke Things” which I bought in Copenhagen, is taking place in Brighton. It’s crazy and I’m so damn happy. Oh and the other thing is the festival I’m attending next week to see Martin Garrix, which I’m super excited for. Seriously. It’s going to be a blast.

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So, those are the two things that make up my music list. Enjoy:

  • The Jungle Giants – You’ve got something
  • Martin Garrix – Oops
  • Nothing But Thieves – Itch
  • Two Door Cinema Club – Are We Ready? (Wreck)
  • Twenty One Pilots – Heathens
  • The Jungle Giants – She’s A Riot
  • Fall Out Boy – America’s Suitehearts
  • Oliver Heldens ft. Becky Hill – Overdrive (Gecko)
  • Leighton Meester – Heartstrings (just because she’s a total queen)
  • The Wombats – Techno Fan

 

If any of you like the same music as me or want to talk about anything else, I’m here. And until then, I hope you enjoyed this post and thanks for reading. x

The body story

Hola everyone.

Todays post will get a little bit long, excuse me for that, because I want to talk about something really important, which are the two topics health and body image over all, mostly body positivity. Two weeks ago I watched a video of the YouTuber Arden Rose about her body acceptance journey, in which she talked about her story with her body and the body image in this world – I’ll leave link down below – and she just inspired me. And I started to think about my story with my own body and I got so “emotional” and stuck up in my own thoughts and I just thought that I had to share it with you guys. Especially because I think it’s a really important to talk about, so here we go.

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My story

So, let’s start with pure honesty. I know, you’re probably expecting a sad story how I starved myself or something like that, but actually, like years ago I literally didn’t care about my body, like at all. I mean, not the way I do now. I mean, I have always been this shy person, that nobody really noticed –  which is something I’m actually starting to get rid of now – so there was never a real reason there for me to think about my appearance. Certainly, I wanted to look “good”, but I mean, I was really really small, didn’t know what to wear, ate what everybody else did and just had a lot of other things to care about.

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Actually, the thing that people didn’t really look at me kind of always kept me like super down and I don’t know, maybe even sad. Because I wanted people to notice me. I mean, I’m a cheery, crazy, shrill person who loves talking and going places and that aspect of invisibility just stopped me from being that kind of person. And yeah, I was like 14, so.

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I think my whole body image, health sight, who-am-I thing started when I got into high school and social media became a part of my life. First of all, I was older then and let’s say wiser and I met people online, that I could identify with. People, who had the same thoughts as me, who liked the same things as me and people, who actually noticed me. And then I got onto tumblr and my whole how-do-I-look world started to build up. I noticed my love for fashion, started to buy magazines, googled styles and trends and just went shopping and actually paid attention to how I looked, what I bought, what I was wearing and how I felt in it.

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To be honest, when I was like 16 or something like that, I don’t know what I was thinking but I literally looked like I had just dipped myself into rainbow paint. I wore like 20 different bracelets and shrill shirts with screaming bright colors. And I still remember this talk I had with my friend when we were waiting for the bus to arrive to go home from school. I just had adjusted all of my (probably) 100 bracelets and she looked at me and asked me if I really thought that I looked good and I still remember saying yes and the look on her face. This look that tells you that someone thinks you look horrible, like they would start laughing at you if you weren’t friends. Can you believe that this was like 5 years ago and I still remember it like it happened two weeks ago? There you can see how hurtful teenage girls can be. Shame on you. And yes, it bothered me so much that I slowly stopped wearing the bracelets and my shrill clothes, so yeah.

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But there was also a good thing that happened after this talk. I swore myself that I never wanted to have someone look at me like that again. So I grew up, went a little more shopping, especially on holidays, googled some more, watched some more YouTube videos and stayed longer on tumblr than I probably should have and finally found my own style. And oh damn, did I get confident. The older I got, the more confidence I grew to that point that I actually thought that I looked pretty damn good, like hella on fire good.

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And another thing that helped me was that I started to love my hair. I mean, you know from all of my pics that I have curly hair, naturally curly hair. And oh god, how I hated it. I never knew what to do with it or how to handle it and all the other girls had straight hair and I wanted to look like everybody else so I straightened it too. God was I stupid. Thank god that I know much better today, again thanks to YouTube. Today I love my hair to death, I embrace it as much as I can. I can’t even remember the last time I straightened it, to be honest. My hair was always a big thing for me and today it’s an aspect that gives me a lot of confidence and makes me stand out of the crowd and I just love it.

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So today, I am more confident than ever. I really love my body and I think everyone should do that, because your body is an actual temple, so you should take good care of it. And I think that as long as you feel good in it, every kind of body looks awesome. I mean, I’m pretty slim, let’s call it that. That’s something I got from my mum, who’s like stick thin. But I was never that kind of girl who worked out. I mean, I tried it for some time, but let’s be honest, there are a lot of better things to do in your free time. I love going for a walk with Molly and for like two years or something like that I had this daily routine of doing some kind of belly workout so I would get a flat stomach, which actually really did work out. And I mean, yes, I am thin. And yes, you can see my collarbones, but that doesn’t mean that I’m like unhealthy or something. That’s just the body I have. And I loved doing my workouts because I slowly got some abs and I looked at myself and felt so proud, I still feel that way today, although I only work out like once a week for a few minutes. I think it really depends on yourself and how you feel like. Your own opinion and your feelings matter and not what other people say or think. Other peoples opinions are literal trash, let’s be honest. Only yours matter, okay?

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The last thing that really helped me a lot of building up my body image and my self-consciousness is food. My mum is nutritionist and works with people and their diets every single day, so there was no way of me getting around the importance of food. Oh, and furthermore she’s been a vegetarian since she was 16 and now calls herself a vegan (if you cut out on the chocolate and cheese, there and then), so yeah, I think you get the idea of what I mean. There was this time when I actually checked the calories of every single item I ate and I used to count all of it to see how much I had eaten in one day. I mean, I don’t think or remember that stopping me from eating what I wanted to eat, but I still had calories and fat in my head every day. And thank god that time passed.

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You probably already know what I’m going to say now. Yes, I don’t eat any meat, not at all. It kind of happened in slow motion. Mum always wanted me to be vegetarian. But as the stubborn person I am, I told her that I’d do what I want and eat what I want. Which means that I basically myself changed my eating habits. I can’t remember the last time I ate meat or drank milk. I mean, I’m not a vegetarian. I eat fish, cheese, chocolate and so on. But I’m talking about small dimensions and portions here, I eat it, but not much. And I care about my food. I pay attention to what I’m buying and eating, if it’s organic or not, if it contains any artificial substances that could be bad for my health, and if its production harms the environment or not. I mean, nowadays we all know how much we and our eating habits damage our beautiful mother earth. And we only have one, so I don’t get why we do that. Like in moments people tell me that they can’t live without eating meat every day. Did you even ever think about how much pain these animals go trough? We aren’t meant to eat cows, pigs or whatever. We never were and never will. And still we think that we can do whatever we want. We don’t, just to make that clear. And all of you guys, young people like me, are those who have to take care of our planet and take it back into recovery. We are responsible. And it’s scientifically proven that changing to a plant-based diet is literally just good for you and your body, it’s healthy. So why not live without the meat every day?Changing my diet really helped me, at least I think so. And I think it would help you guys too. Just try it, for two weeks or so and then check out the results (oh and please tell me about them, I’m really curious).

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So, what’s important?

Getting that body image I have now took me a long time. First I didn’t care about it at all and then I got older and everything changed. I started to dress the way I wanted to, began to workout and worked on my eating habits. And today I really like myself and my body. And I’m healthy, I don’t even remember the last time I was ill (thank god). I mean, I don’t look like some kind of Victorias Secret model, but I like they way I look. And I love the way I dress. Whenever I wear something I really like, I get a huge confidence boost and I’m thankful for that. Of course I have my flaws, everyone does. But I think it’s important to even love your flaws. Because nobody is perfect, but everyone is beautiful.

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I know this post got really lengthy, but it was really important for me to talk about this. I want you guys to know that you are all beautiful, please don’t let anyone tell you something else. They are wrong, trust me. And please take care of yourself. Stay healthy, exercise some more, eat food that makes you feel good, don’t hate on your body, you only have this one, and please don’t compare yourself to other people.

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I want to end this post with a quote of Oscar Wilde I found in Copenhagen on a postcard:

“Be yourself. Everybody else is taken.”

Please feel free to have a healthy discussion in the comment section if you want to and if any of you want to talk to me about anything and everything, I’m here, always. And until then, I hope you liked this post, and thanks for reading. x

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Arden’s video: link