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My weekend with mum and Merry Christmas

Hola everyone.

Christmas is just around the corner. Can you believe it? Because I certainly can’t, to be honest. The days just went by so quickly, it’s crazy. And as I told you last week, I still have one thing to do – tell you about my weekend with mum here in Berlin when she visited me.

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First of all I have to say that it was really really amazing. I loved spending time with her, it was like a small holiday. So what did we do? On the first evening we just spent some quality time at home. Actually I picked her up from the airport when she got here in the evening. And then we just got home in my apartment and chatted. The next day, after work, we went to have dinner in a vietnamese restaurant, which was freaking amazing. And then we visited my favorite place in the city, a huge book – and a lot of other stuff – store. Until midnight and I’m not even kidding. And yes, people seriously still buy books on a Friday night.

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On Saturday we went a little shopping and then went to the cinema to see the oh so beautiful movie “About Ray”, which I already told you about in my last post. What a great movie, holy moly. And then we just strolled around in town, visited a supercute cat café and again went for dinner – Mexican this time. Oh and then we walked to a really nice christmas market where I drank probably the best punch (the christmasy beverage, not what you are thinking) I’ve ever had.

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And then the last day had already come. So we tried to make the most of it and went for a little brunch and then visited the famous flea market at the mauerpark. If any of you guys ever get the chance to go to Berlin, please please please visit this market. It’s like most Berlin thing you’ll see. For real. And then it was already time to bring my mum back to the airport.

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So yeah, that was our weekend. Doesn’t sound like much, but it was really packed and really awesome. I loved every single moment.

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Guys, I’d still like to talk about some other stuff. I know you’ve all probably heard about the terrorist attack here in Berlin. And yes, I’m alright. Actually before my dad had called me, I didn’t even know anything about it. After all those nice days with mum that really brought me back to earth, right to the ground. I was extremely shocked. I mean, terror isn’t something new, not this year (2016, we really need to talk). But being in like the same city, just a few miles away from the place of the attack is different. Too different for me to process it completely. I’m extremely sad for all the people who were affected by the attack and can just hope that next year will be better. I mean, we are all humans, we live on such a beautiful planet, why can’t we all just live in peace?

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But christmas is coming, so let’s concentrate on the nice things, right? Anyways, I just wanted to thank you guys for being here and for reading my blog. You make me so happy, every single day of my life. I started this blog because I wanted to try it. I was curious. And I liked the idea of sharing the things I love and happiness with the world, with all of you. And I’ve loved it ever since. More and more every day. And let me tell you, 2017 is going to be a good year, a big one. I have a lot of things planned, a lot of them are just about to happen, so stay tuned. I hope you’re as excited as me. And until then, I wish you all the most amazing christmas and a beautiful time with your loved ones. Oh and if you want to, I’d be really excited to hear what you are all doing this christmas. I’m actually flying home today and I’m soooo excited, oh my god. So, I’ll “see” you all next week. Happy holidays and merry christmas. And as always, thanks for reading. x  hohoho

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Ps: Snow is actually falling on my blog, how freaking cute is that? Oh my god

About Ray

Hola everyone.

I know it’s late. Very late, to be honest. But I didn’t have any time to write today, it was horrible. And after work I had to go christmas presents shopping and then I had to make myself some food and now I’m here. Anyways, I just wanna apologize for being so late.

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I know you all probably expect a post about my weekend with my mum, but I thought I’d postpone that to Friday and tell you about a certain part of our time. To be exact, the day we went to the cinema and watched one of the most special and beautiful movies I’ve ever seen. And as you can all see at the title, I’m talking about the masterpiece “About Ray”.

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Let me first tell you what the movie is all about. About Ray is about a girl or boy, who feels like she’s / he’s born in the wrong body. Since she was just four years old, Ramona felt like something about her just didn’t feel right. Fast forward to Ray, now 16 years old and desperate to start the gender transition. But exactly that, his age, is the problem. It means that he needs his family to be okay with loosing their daughter/granddaughter. Not to mention that his grandma still thinks that Ray should just be gay.

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I guess you guys can already sense the drama and all the emotions. And I can tell you, there A LOT of emotions. Beginning with Ray, who just wants a normal life, a normal family. Then his mother, who never thought that she would loose Ramona so fast. And Rays grandma Dodo and her girlfriend Honey, who even live all under one roof. Oh and let’s not forget his dad, who left when he was just a little baby and now has to sign one of the most important papers of Rays life.

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If you’re asking yourself, yes, I cried. Many times. And I had to stop myself, for real. The movie gave me such an urge to fully cry, the loud, sobbing, heartbreaking type of cry. And I think mum did too.

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Apart from the unique and amazing story, the movie is turned into something perfect by the fascinating camera work – it’s actually more like some kind of art, so damn amazing – and of course the breathtaking actors. Elle Fanning is so real in her role as Ray and Naomi Watts as the mother is just mind-blowing. Mum said that she could really feel how hard she tried to let her daughter go and welcome her son. It was kinda heartbreaking, to be honest. Because of both sides, Rays and his mums. Oh and probably too because I watched it with my mum and this movie is all about mothers and daughters/sons.

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I asked my mum later on if she would accept it if I told her that I felt like I lived a lie and wanted to change my gender completely. She said yes. And I am thankful for that. Because it is for sure a hard thing to say, even if it’s just hypothetically.

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All in all, the movie About Ray was everything I expected it to be and so much more. I loved every second of it, even when it broke my heart. I think that’s the kind of story and movie everyone should get to know and see. Because it’s such an important and recent topic. So guys, I can really just recommend this movie to all of you. If you have the chance, please go and watch it. Please. And if any of you have seen it, what do you think about it? Did you like it as much as me? Tell me. And until then, sorry again for being so late, I hope you still enjoyed this post and, as always, thanks for reading. x

Mum is here

Hola everyone.

Sooo, I just wanted to inform you guys that I don’t have anything to tell you… Okay, but seriously, of course I would have something, but actually I’m not really feeling it. Probably, and here comes the good news, because my mum is here. She just got here yesterday in the evening and will stay with me until Sunday, so we’ll spend the whole weekend together here in Berlin. I. Can’t. Wait.

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I’m extremely happy that she’s here. And when she’s back at home, I’ll follow her shortly afterwards (five days after to be exact) and then it’s christmas already. Holy moly. Time just flies by. Crazy.

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Anyways, I just wanted to tell you this guys and also that I’m of course going to take my camera with me the whole weekend so you can already look forward to some exciting pictures. And until then, I hope you enjoyed this very short post. Oh and if you want to talk, I’m here. And yes I indeed want to know what you’re all up to this weekend. Speaking of that, I hope you will all have great one. And as always, thanks for reading. x

I’m going home

Hola everyone.

Yes, it’s true. I am going home. Finally. But before you freak out, no, I’m not quitting my Berlin adventure. There’s no giving up, no matter how much I’d like to be at home and snuggle on my couch with my family and my pets until forever.

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Actually I’m just flying home for two days, over the weekend. But even the two days are more than enough. I really just want to be at home. Hug my mum. Cuddle with Peaches until we both fall asleep on the couch with a nonsense movie playing on TV. Go for a walk with Molly. Laugh with my dad. Sleep in my own bed. Just basically live at home, even if it’s just for a really short period of time.

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Apart from my homesickness, I’m honestly really happy here in Berlin. I finally could arrange all the technical and organizational stuff and now I can fully concentrate on all the things I want to do and see here. It was really annoying to always have something negative on my mind and now it’s finally gone.

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And according to my day counter I installed on my phone, I only have 54 days left. I started at 91 and now we’re already at 54, so nearly halfway through, which is totally crazy. And christmas is just around the corner. Unbelievable.

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Oh yeah, speaking of christmas. Two days ago I bought myself my very first christmas gift. From me to me. My ticket for VidCon in Amsterdam next year. I am freaking out. And now, I’m not exaggerating. I am for real going crazy. Because as probably most of you know I’m such a huge fan of Youtube and Youtuber and the lineup is already so good. I mean, Oli White, Jack Maynard, Grace Helbig. And I’m prayiiiing that Markiplier, Connor Franta, Conor (my Concon), Will and maybe even Joe and Caspar will be added to the lineup too. I need to see them, seriously. And honestly, I’d die if Pewds would be there, seriously.

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Anyways, I’m really really REALLY happy that I bought the ticket and excited for all the upcoming creators that will be added to the lineup. And I couldn’t be happier to finally go home today. I can’t wait.

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So yeah, that was another little update from me. I hope you liked it and please, if you want to chat, just hit me up. And until then, as always, thanks for reading. x

Berlin – Black and White

Hola everyone.

So I know, this is usually the moment I do my little update about my life in Berlin, but actually there is nothing much to say.

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Basically I’m just adjusting to the city and the life here, getting used to it, doing stuff, seeing things and enjoying it as much as I can. And a part of that is walking around with my camera. Unfortunately winter is coming which means the sun is already saying goodbye when I’m just getting out of bed on weekends. So yeah, pretty stupid. And yes, I really sleep that long and yes, I love it.

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But I thought, how could I take nice pics without bothering what time it is. And then I remembered how fascinating black and white pics are and I just made a whole project out of it – my view of Berlin at night in black and white (that rhymed).

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So, down there you can find all of my fave pics I took – of course there are more – and I really really hope you like them as much as I do. I had a lot of fun taking them.

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And as usual, if any of you want to talk, I’m here. And until then I hope you enjoyed this post and my pics and, as always, thanks for reading. x

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Growing Up

Hola everyone.

So today I want to talk about something I am now confrontef with every single day. And I will for the next two months and later on for the rest of my life. Today I want to talk about how I feel about having to grow up and being an actual grown up.

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Now that I’m living alone in Berlin, with no actual grown up members of my family that even live in the same country, I am completely depended on myself. And holy moly, I can tell you, I never imagined that it could be this tough. As far as I remember, until now, I always had my parents around who would do all the grown up stuff for me. And of course that made life a lot easier. And now that I am in Berlin on my own, I have to do all of this stuff myself, which brings me to the point that I noticed how much the current situation taught me about life as a grown up:

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  • Go for a walk once in a while, even if you’re alone
  • Telecom companies are straight from hell
  • Google is your best friend
  • Cooking for yourself all the time takes longer than you think
  • While being alone, you really get to know a lot about yourself
  • Doing things on your own like going to the cinema isn’t weird, but actually is normal
  • Life without your own washing machine makes everything a lot more complicated
  • The same without a dishwasher and a microwave
  • Late night shops are the best thing ever
  • YouTube, a good movie or tv show can save the day,
  • If you don’t like your current situation, change something about it
  • You’re never too old to need your parents
  • You can do whatever you want, just be happy
  • Animals and plants make everything so much better
  • WhatsApp is a gift from heaven
  • I still sometimes feel like I’m 12 and that’s okay (actually, it’s awesome)
  • Book stores are the perfect place to take a break from the world
  • Love life

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So yeah, this is how I feel about living the life of a grown up here in Berlin. And maybe you feel the same. Anyway, I am still pretty happy that I can get back to being a child without this huge pack of responsibilities when I get back home in February. I don’t really feel ready for being and doing this here for the rest of my life, I still need some off-let’s be a child -time.

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I am pretty sure that most of you know pretty well what I am talking about, so whenever you want to talk, I am here. And until then, I hope you enjoyed this post, and as always, thanks for reading. x