October 2016 – that lemon life

Hello Berlin

Hola everyone.

It’s happening guys. It’s really happening. And I can’t believe it. I’m seriously moving to Berlin for three months. Holy moly.

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I’m seriously having real troubles realizing that this is really happening. I mean, I know some of you guys already know about this if you’ve been following my blog. But I talked about wayyyyy long time ago. And now I’m boarding a plane in 13 hours. It’s currently half past 1 am and I’m sitting on the couch watching YouTube videos and trying to understand all of this crazy stuff.

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To be honest, I have both good and bad feelings about this. But I guess that’s normal, I bet on it. I mean, there aren’t a lot of things I’ve ever been this excited for. And this is such a big dream of mine and it’s coming true, which is more than crazy. I’ve been dreaming about and hoping that I could once get the chance to move to a cool city for some time. And I always knew that I wanted to do this. I always wanted to go on such a huge adventure. And now it’s happening. Which makes me so happy that I can’t even describe it. I’m so damn excited.

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But on the other side I’m also so freaking nervous. Like, moving to another city, in another country, on my own, completely alone, without having anyone I really know there… It’s more than crazy. And that makes me nervous. Because I’ve never really been alone in my life until now. There was always somebody there. And now I’m on my own. And besides that, leaving my family and my friends and my two pets aka babys is like the hardest thing ever. Especially leaving Peaches behind. Because I can keep in touch with my friends and family, I can talk to them, skype with them and they understand my situation. But how do I tell a cat that her mum isn’t going to be around until christmas? It’s impossible. I mean, I noticed that she can sense that there’s something going on, but who knows what she thinks. I’m just hoping that she won’t be too sad…

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So, those are my worries. I’m not scared of being alone, I can easily get used to that. It’s just the newness and everything unknown that’s making me nervous. But I’m 100 percent sure that it’s going to be one of the coolest months in my whole life. Seriously. And I’m so freaking excited to work at the TV company. It’s going to be so awesome. And interesting. I’m already so happy to be able to learn all these new things and see how working there is. It’s going to be so cool. I’m sure.

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I seriously can’t wait to learn all this new stuff and start this new chapter and meet new people and make all this new and exciting experiences. And of course I’ll keep in touch with my friends and family as much as I can. Skype and text and stuff. And they will also visit me in Berlin, which is supercool and already makes me happy. And me and mum are going to a Twenty One Pilots concert in Berlin, so my time already starts in the best way possible.

And of course I’ll keep all of you guys updated. Because you can probably all guess by now that my life in Berlin is going to be the main topic for the next three months. So yeah, that’s really happening and I’m just waiting for my brain to realize it. But still, the excitement is overwhelming. Oh and Happy Halloween guys. If any of you want to talk about this or anything else, I’m here. And now even happier to hear from you guys. And until then, I hope you enjoyed this post and life update and, as always, thanks for reading. x

Being a fangirl

Hola everyone.

Today I want to talk about a topic that really means a lot to me. And that possibly some of you can relate to. Which is being a fangirl or like I would say it, being completely obsessed with a band or a musician.

So, I recently talked my friend about this because I watched a three hour long live stream of Marin Garrix show at the Amsterdam Dance Event (ADE). And you can probably already tell by now that I completely freaked out. It was 4 am and I was jumping around in front of my TV, smiling from one ear to the other with Peaches and Molly sleeping behind me on the couch. They probably thought I was completely crazy. And I sometimes caught myself thinking that too, but you know, who cares? I had such a blast and it was so freaking amazing.

And here comes the important part. Of course I had to tell my friend all about that and I sent her about 150 messages that night because I was so excited and I just had to share my excitement. We talked about it the next day and I had the feeling that I was annoying. And then she told me that she kind of stopped being a fangirl. And I was shocked. Because she was once obsessed with bands and music like me. But somehow that changed.

She said things like dreaming and living in a real world and so on. And then I started thinking. Because I am a huge fangirl, but I never thought that I lived in a fake, dreamy world. I mean, dreaming makes the world so much better, but that doesn’t mean that you forget about the real world.

Since starting to be a fangirl I’ve always been confronted with this typical idea that people had of fangirls and moreover of me because I was and am one. According to them, fangirls are young, dreamy girls that scream about everything a band or a musician does and want to marry them. They live in a fake world that they have to grow out of. Until then they are just some weird girls being obsessed over people they’ll never meet.

This idea might fit for 12 year old girls, maybe not even then. And I want to use this post to spread a new idea of what a fangirl truly is. Because I am a fangirl and I’m nothing of the above. I noticed that when I talked to my friend. And I wrote a list of my favorite bands and musicians:

Conor Maynard
Fall Out Boy
Two Door Cinema Club
Panic! At The Disco
The 1975
Twenty One Pilots
Martin Garrix
Ed Sheeran

Apart from Conor and Martijn, there are no guys out there I can fall in love with. Maybe Ed too, his voice is just too angelic. But the point I want to get to is that when I started being a fangirl I was this little crazy girl who dreamt about marrying some guy (okay, it was Justin, hey hey) but I grew up and I am still this crazy girl, but today I am crazy about the music. I still stalk the bands online. I still fly over to concerts in different countries. I still go to concerts wayyyy to early just to get a good view. I still scream when I see them. I still cry when the bands finally get on stage and I get to see them. I still have them as my lock screen on my phone, depending on which one I love most right now. I still buy the albums. And I still think about them all the time. They are my world. Always were, always will be.

So nothing changed. Except that I grew up. You know, whenever people notice how crazy you are about some certain bands or musicians, they look at you like you’ve just completely lost your mind. But that’s not how it is. I’m a fan. And I’m a girl. So I am a FAN-GIRL. I’m not 12, I don’t dream about stupid unreal scenarios and I’m not crazy. I just show how much I love music and the people who bring it into my life. And that’s it. That’s what being a fangirl nowadays means.

So, there you go. I know, this is kind of a rant about the general view of fangirls, but I just had to get it out there. Even my mum is a fangirl still and Coldplay, the band we flew over to Copenhagen just to see them, is the reason for this. And I hope I’ll once fly to concerts with my children when I’m older. And I really really really hope that my children will fall as hard in love with music as I did. Because it brought so much happiness into my life that I can’t even describe it. Seriously.

As this is a really important part of my life, I’d be really happy to receive some messages from you guys. So feel free to talk to me, I’m here. I really hope that you enjoyed this post, it really means a lot to me. And as always, thank you so much for reading. x

Movies of the future

Hola everyone.

As all of you know I’m a huuuuuge fan of movies. They are my hobby, to be honest. And one part of this special hobby is checking for new trailers every week. And then I make a list i my head of movies I’m excited to see in the next few month or the next year.

Unfortunately movies in my country come out pretty late. For example Finding Dory was in the cinemas in the USA in summer and it’s now playing in my country. So yes, pretty pretty late. So it might be that when you’re from the USA, that I’m excited to watch a movie you’ve already seen. Quite a crazy thought too, isn’t it?

Anyways, I was thinking it would be cool to tell you my list of movies I’m excited to watch in the future. Enjoy.

Pretty much any Marvel movie that’s coming
Fantastic Beats and Where To Find Them (and any other Harry Potter related movie)
The Edge Of Seventeen (it’s a funny and sarcastic movie about being a teenager, so perfect for me)
Rules Don’t Apply (I love Lily Collins so this one is a must for me)
The Bye Bye Man (another pretty thrilling looking horror movie. I. Can’t. Wait.)
Passengers (I have a special place in my heart for good Sci-Fi movies and this one is one of those)
Beauty and The Beast (c’mon, it’s a Disney movie, of course I have to watch it)
A Cure For Wellness (I watched this trailer a few days ago, I have no idea what the movie is about but it looks fascinating so I’d really to see this one; and it features Dane DeHaan so that’s a plus)
Transformers – The Last Knight (I’m completely in love with Transformers, so I just HAVE to see this movie)
Pirates Of The Caribbean: Dead Men Tell No Tales (I seriously can’t wait to see this movie, seriously)
The Founder (this movie is about how McDonalds got popular and was founded, so this is reallyyyy interesting for me)
The Space Between Us (I know this movie since a few months and I can’t wait to watch, for real. I think the story is so fascinating and interesting and I really like the actors, so yeah, I’m excited)
Any upcoming horror movie
About Ray (this movie is really special and discusses the topic of gender variance and how it feels to live in the wrong body, I really want to watch it)

So, there you go. Those are the movies I’m mostly looking forward to. It could be that I forgot some, but hey, the list is already long enough, right? Oh, please feel free to chat with me, maybe some of you are looking forward to the same movies as me. And until then, I really hope you enjoyed this post and my list and, as always, thanks for reading. x

Huge haul

Hola everyone.

The day has finally come. I know I promised to post this already weeks ago but somehow I never got the time to finally do it, but know I did. Hallelujah.

So as you know I was in England for a week with my mum in August – Brighton and Reading – and then I visited my friend Mati in Croatia. And of course I had to go shopping, how couldn’t I? The shopping list started with some clothing pieces and went on and on until it ended with books and some special accessories. So I would like to show my precious purchases to all of you guys. Enjoy.

Clothes

Okay, actually it’s more like just tops, precisely one t-shirt – the most important piece of the whole haul – and four sweaters. But hey, autumn has already arrived and winter is coming and I have to be prepared.

Right now I’m completely obsessed with the sweaters they sell at Pull and Bear. They are just so comfy and big. The perfect size for being a nice oversize sweater I want to stay in forever. And it fits perfectly and looks just perfect. And besides that they all have some cool embroidered messages on them which make them even more amazing. The first one I bought was in Brighton. I just had to. Mostly because of it’s writing that says “Nobody cares if you don’t go to the party”, which is just so damn relatable and true. I’ve always been that one person that doesn’t go to parties, even though all the others did and called me boring. Because I simply didn’t care t all. That’s why the sweater is a perfect match for me. It emphasizes my lifestyle and the person I am.

The second one I bought was in Zagreb. It’s exactly the same one as the first one, just in a green color and with the Harry Potter related writing saying “I’m busy making a potion”. And let’s be honest, everything that’s Harry Potter related is just pure awesomeness. On the same day I also bought my really special rainbow sweater. I j´saw that one at Pull and Bear and just wanted it to be mine. Not just because it looks freaking amazing, but also because it’s my way of telling the world that I support the LGBT+ community. Most people will just look at me wearing it and see a cool rainbow sweater, but for me it’s my kind of support. And I love that.

The last sweater I bought is some kind of flattery poof black crop top volant type of thing. I bought it at Zara in Reading. Actually I just wanted to try it on and see how it looks but then I stayed it in the whole time when my mum was trying on other things. And that pretty much meant that I would keep it. That’s my thing. If I try something on and keep it on until I have to leave the changing rooms, it’s practically mine. There’s no other way out. And that was the case with this top.

And now the most important piece. My precious. You know that I love Fall Out Boy. And I finally got to see them live at Reading festival. And you know that I love band merch. I always buy one t-shirt whenever I’m attending a concert. And you probably guessed it by now – of course I had to buy a FOB t-shirt. And it’s seriously one of the most valuable pieces of clothing in my whole wardrobe. Because it has such a huge meaning for me. And besides that it just looks freaking cool. I mean, look it at. They band is cool, the shirt is cool, everything about this is unbelievably cool and amazing and perfect. And I love it. With all of my heart.

Other stuff

Now that we all know that clothes are not the real thing on their own, of course I had to buy some other stuff. The first thing on my list were books. I’ve been obsessed with reading good books lately, so I flew over to England with my list of books I wanted to buy and thankfully I did get all of them.

I bought:

This Modern Love by Will Darbyshire
When We Collided by Emery Lord
Everything Everything by Nicola Yoon
The Potion Diaries by Amy Alward
Harry Potter And The Cursed Child by J. K. Rowling

I read the Harry Potter one right after we bought it, I just had to. And by the way, it’s amazing. And currently I’m reading When We Collided which is also really really awesome. I can highly recommend it. And all the others too, of course.

Besides that we also bought some other things. When mum and me were strolling around in town in Brighton we walked past a painting pottery cafe which I recognized from one of Marzias blogs (Pewdiepies girlfriend). So of course we had to walk in and the next day we went back to actually paint some pottery. I chose to paint a heart, write Brighton on it and paint some flowers and other stuff on it so it would look nice. And I have to say I really enjoyed it, I loved it to be honest. It was so relaxing and it reminded me of how much I love art and painting. And on the last day which was also the next one I got my finished heart back, which was supercool and so nice of them because I told them that we would leave on this day so they finished it extra fast for me. The heart is now hanging on my wall and I look at it and it places a smile of my face every time.

And when we were at Reading festival I also bought some badges for my bags and other things. That’s like another one of my traditions, I started it when we attended Sziget festival last year. And now even my mum has a badge on her bag. Our stuff is like a display for all the experiences we’ve made. Oh and we also bought three sings, one for mums office, one for our whole family and one for my room. Going shopping in Brighton is really amazing and fascinating, because there are so many vintage shops and little shops that sell stuff you’d never get in conventional stores. And I really love that.

So, there you go. Those are the things I bought in the past two months, some in the UK, some in Croatia. But all of them are amazing and totally lovely. If any of you want to chat about shopping or anything else, I’m here. And until then, I hope you enjoy this post and, as always, thanks for reading. x

Awesome new music

Hola everyone.

The day has come. The time is here. Two Door Cinema Club AND Kings of Leon have both released their new albums after waiting for what felt like ages. And of course I need to talk about them. With you. Now.

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You probably guessed it. And yes, I have indeed already bought both albums. And of course right when they got released, I just had to. And I can tell you, they are both breathtakingly amazing. But first things first, let’s go through album by album.

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Gameshow by Two Door Cinema Club

If you are a fan of this band, you probably had to go through a tough time, waiting for them to release new music, missing them when they were on their break. And now they are FINALLY back. Thank god. The album itself is a masterpiece, but certainly not for the “old” TDCC fans. Because this album certainly is a change. Less guitars, more beats. Less drums, more syhntic sounds. The whole album feels like a ride back to disco music from the 80s or 90s. But it kind of really fits.

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Honestly, I was a little bit disappointed at first but the more you listen to the songs, the more you get into them. And I can actually see them on stage, turning the disco songs into cool indie pop with their still so well beloved guitars.

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Overall the album is a huge change, but a good one. There are songs that are more on the funky side but also some for people who would rather stick to the guitar indie pop, like their song Gameshow. I think that every single indie fan should reallyyyy give this album a listen, you won’t regret. And I can just tell you, I’ve been listening to the album every day since it came out and it makes me more and more excited for their upcoming tour and the day I’ll get to hear all the amazing new songs live.

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In short:

Album overall: amazing new funky sound but definitely a change – in a good way of course
My favorite songs: Gameshow and Sucker (this one really gives you a cool Halloween spook vibe)

WALLS by Kings of Leon

Let’s be honest, KOL have always been an amazing band. But this album right there is a whole other thing. Like I said to my friend, the album is a revelation. Every single song is better than the other one, which just adds to its awesomeness.

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Actually, I think that is album is also a huge change for this band. It has more of a indie and relaxed vibe to it. So it’s perfect it you just want to chill and listen to some really freaking awesome music. Personally, I like the change from rock to more indie, but I guess that some people might not. But hey, you can never satify everyone.

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Overall, I think the album is really really amazing and also their best one so far. There are more upbeat songs and also some that are more laid back. But every single one is great and Caleb’s voice is the highlight, for real. So I can just highly recommend it to all of you.

In short:

The album overall: also a new sound but a really amazing one, full of awesome lyrics, beats and sounds
My favorite songs: Waste A Moment, All Around The World, Find Me

So guys, there you go. Two amazing albums, two great chances to here some new music and my overall opinion. Honestly, I love both bands with all of my heart and I can’t wait to hear and see them live again. And I can just recommend them to all of you. If any of you have already listened to the album or want to chat about anything else, I’m here. And until then, I hope you enjoyed this post and, as always, thanks for reading. x

Autumn is here

Hola everyone.

Today was one of this beautiful autumn days – the sun was shining the whole day, but it was still cold as hell. And of course I had to make the most of it and went for a little stroll in my garden together with Peaches and my camera, right when the sun was setting. And the day and our garden actually gifted me with one of the nicest settings ever. But I’ll let the pictures speak for themselves. Enjoy. Also check out Peaches. She’s such a model.

Oh and of course, as always, I hope you enjoyed this post and my pictures and thanks for reading. x