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My life mottos

Hola everyone.

As you probably all know, I’m a dreamer and an really optimistic person. Which means that I’m always trying to be as happy as I can and to enjoy my life as much as I can.

Over the past years I’ve developed my own mottos or “rules” to live by in order to make sure that I won’t let anything put me down. Which brings me to the reason for having written this post. So, there you go. Here are some of my most important mottos in life:

Always be yourself

If you have had the chance and moreover wanted to read some of my other posts, you will probably know that I’m of the opinion, that none should ever change, for nobody and nothing. When I was younger I always had the feeling that I had to change in order to be popular or to be liked or accepted by my classmates and friends. And of course, I wasn’t really happy about that. So when I grew older and got more confident, I just stopped trying to be like all the others and started being me, completely. And I loved it.

Today I’m more confident than probably ever in my life and I’ve grown a strong personality which I’m really really proud of. I like who I am and if anyone doesn’t, I don’t care because I won’t stop being myself. Ever. And this makes me very happy.

Live life to its fullest

This is pretty much the most important “rule”, seriously. I think it all started when me and my parents were on a holiday in Paris at Disneyland (I know, how cool is that?), but on the last day I got terribly sick so we just walked around in the park and tried all the small not-as-much-fun-as-the-big-ones rides and I can tell you, until this every day I still regret not going on another big rollercoaster. And I hate it so much.

I hate the feeling of regretting not having done something, it’s the worst, seriously. So, after Paris, I promised myself to never let that happen to me again. Whenever I have the chance to do something incredible that I really wish to do or that has been my dream for years, I just do it. I think it’s better to regret having done something than to regret not having done it, because you just earn a experience. And that’s exactly what matters.

Included in this “rule” is the thought that something bad can always happen, always. So it’s important to enjoy life every single day as much as possible. My mum has pretty much the same opinion, that’s probably the reason for all the adventures we go on together. Whenever she thinks about doing something, like a holiday or a festival or a concert or anything like that, she (most of the times) tells me that we (probably) only live once and that we can’t take money with us so why not just do it? (please note that this doesn’t mean spending all the money on something and then being poor, please don’t do that)

All in all I can just tell you that trying to experience as much as possible and to not missing an amazing chance for a great adventure has shaped me to be person I am today and has turned my life into the most unreal and biggest dream I could never think of or even imagine, actually.

Don’t stop dreaming

I love dreaming. And I love thinking about all the great things I want to do in my life and the goals I want to achieve. And yes, for some people some of my dreams and wishes and goals may sound a little bit unrealistic and simply impossible to realize. But honestly, I don’t care, not even one bit.

I always had the opinion that everything is possible if you just work hard enough for it and try your best and never stop believing. And until today, I haven’t been let down. Of course, sometimes things didn’t quite work out the way I wanted, but I still tried and in the end I was happy. And today I’m proud that I never listened to the people who gave me the feeling that I couldn’t do something or that I was a little bit crazy for even thinking about it. Because today I have a life which is a fantastic adventure every single day of my life while other people never risked something and never believed in them and their dreams and have a pretty boring and lame life, at least in my eyes.

The reason for this motto are probably my parents. They never told me that I couldn’t do something or that I was crazy for thinking about it or that something was impossible from the beginning. And I can’t thank them enough for doing that. For always telling me how proud they are of me. And for always supporting me in everything I did and do. If I ever get the chance to have children, I want raise my children the same way my parents did and be the same mum for them like me mum is for me today, because I will never stop being thankful and telling them and the world how happy they make me and how amazing my life is because of them.

So, I think that’s it so far. Those are the three most important mottos I live my life after and I couldn’t be happier, truly. I hope that all of you are as happy as I am and that my “rules” can maybe help you get even more happier. If any of you have the same opinions and mottos as me and want to talk, I’m here. And until the, as always, thanks for reading. x

Never have I ever…

Hola everyone.

Never have I ever had a date… I haven’t.

There it is. I have never had a date with a boy before, never. And yeah, for a nearly 20 year old girl like me that’s pretty strange, at least when it comes to what most of the people in my surroundings think.

To be honest, I’ve stopped thinking that it’s weird, but I went through some tough times because I thought that it was strange. That I was strange. And that it was all my fault. I thought that I wasn’t pretty enough or not cool enough or whatever damn thing you need to be in order to get a boy to like you. And I can tell you, it’s really not a nice feeling to always think that you’re not good enough for anyone. It makes you question yourself all the time. It makes you think that whatever you’re wearing or the way you have your hair or the amount of makeup you use is just wrong. In that moment, everything about yourself is just plainly wrong and all you wish for is to be like all the other girls who either have dates or already a boyfriend.

I’ve never felt more like an outsider than in those years in which the feeling or, to be honest, the strong urge to finally get a boy to like me destroyed me completely. I was sad all the time, cried because I felt alone and unloved and I hated nothing more than the pitiful looks I got from my friends and classmates and the same damn question “Laura, when are you finally going to have a boyfriend?”. I DON’T KNOW?! Oh and let’s not forget the even more stupid answer to that “You need to go out more”. NO I DON’T!?

When I look back at those times, I just realize how stupid I was. I really believed them and thought that going out, drinking alcohol, looking 5 years older, wearing short skirts that could be taken as a longer shirt, putting on faaaaar too much makeup and that wearing a bra that felt like a freaking corset that’s way too tight and small would help me get a boyfriend. I’m just happy that I only stuck to the makeup and bra part, because I hated all the other things too much to try them, not even for a guy.

And today, about 5 years later, I’m still date- and boyfriendless and I’m still alive, who would have thought that? Not me, for sure, because the most accurate thing a girl, who just wants to be like all the other girls and have a boyfriend, can think, is, that she will surely die without a boy in her life. God, what was I thinking? Seriously.

If I could talk to younger me now, I would tell myself that everything’s going to be fine, just fine, even without a immature boy in her life. And NO, it’s not her fault, it never was. Because if a boy really likes her and wants to be with her, he will like every part about her, no matter if she likes to go out and party or would chose to watch a good movie over that any time. And if he isn’t able to or doesn’t want to do that, then he can go and “you-know-what” himself and go and find another girl to lower herself for him, because this girl here won’t do that for sure. Oh, and of course he doesn’t deserve her, not one single bit.

So yeah, here I am, without an upcoming date or a huge crush on a boy who basically owns my head. And I can say that I’m truly happy about that. I’m pretty much on the edge of becoming an adult right now, just got into the second semester in college and my life is changing so fast and chances are upcoming every second I blink and I just wouldn’t be able to have a relationship right now. Of course, sometimes I’m lonely. Sometimes I dream about being in a cute relationship with my soulmate. But as the romantic I am, I know that there’s someone out there for me, who’s just waiting to complete me. And until we find each other, I’m more than damn happy to live this amazing life, which just keeps getting better and better and making me happier and thankfuller every day that I can’t even describe it anymore.

Thanks for reading. x

Ps: If any of you are in the same “position” as me, feel free to talk to me. I’m here. Always. And please just know that there’s nothing wrong about not having a boyfriend yet. You will find THE ONE and you will be happier than ever and you will not be able to cope with all the love. But until then, just try to love yourself and gift the love to those people, who’ve always been in your life and who love you more than anything. They deserve it. Oh, and don’t forget to enjoy life. This is your moment. Make something of it.

xoxo, Gossip Girl

Hola everyone.

As you probably know I’m currently going to college. And in order to be able to do that I had to move and now I “live” in a dorm, which means no TV or anything. So, as you might guess already, I depend on my laptop. I can watch movies and TV shows over Sky Go and Amazon Prime, but no common TV programs. So, in order to not die of complete boredom I had to find a new show to watch. And I found it – Gossip Girl.

I knew the show before, because like who doesn’t know it? But I didn’t know much about it, I just had the idea that it was a pretty superficial teenie drama series with nothing much that was valuable. But I love fashion, so out of boredom I just gave it a chance and clicked play. I think it was already January when I started.

And guess what? I just finished the complete show yesterday – 6 seasons, 121 episodes in less than two months. I binge watched it every single day since I started and now I basically don’t know what to do with my life, seriously.

I never thought that I would get so caught up in the show, I really didn’t. And now I completely love it. At the beginning I didn’t exactly enjoy it THAT much, I thought the whole bitchy superficial attitudes were dumb and I just watched it because I had nothing else. But then the characters started to develop and more and more complex small stories began to build up and I liked it more and more. That’s also the point why I fell in love with. At the beginning all of the characters seemed so unreal to me, but then the whole show came to life and the characters with it.

Personally, Blair and Chuck are my favorite characters. Their love story was the main reason why I continued to watch the series, I wanted to know if they will ever be able to be together or not. God, how much I cried because of them… And slowly Blair became my spirit animal – she’s strong, she fights for her love and her dreams, she believes in herself and she likes the person she is and let’s none stop her from doing that. Besides that, I’m pretty much completely in love with her Elie Saab wedding dress – I’ll leave a link to the picture down below. Overall, nearly every single outfit in the show is breathtaking. I know, someone like me could never afford one single dress they are wearing but would be a life without dreams?

And my least favorite characters? To be honest, the longer I watched, the more I started to hate Serena. Like really hate. She just annoyed the hell out of me. At the beginning she seemed like the nice girl, but then I noticed who true the things were everyone else was saying about her. She basically got everything she wanted, she was fake at some point, she never had to take responsibility for anything she did and even when she hurt the people around her, they just all forgave her everything although she hardly ever forgave them. I don’t know, her attitude just annoyed me. And according to what I saw on the internet, Blair and Chuck are everyone’s favorite – if you search for Gossip Girl on Tumblr, they are the ones appearing.

But if I ignore that one fact, I have to say that I liked every single character, even Serena. Because they turned the show into the one it is now. I think, the more seasons I watched, the better did the show get. I especially loved the last three seasons as the stories got more and more complex. And I love the ending, when they finally reveal who Gossip Girl truly is.

After all, I’m really really happy that I started the show. I had a certain prejudice, but I have to admit that I was totally wrong. I think, if you like fashion, complex love stories, friends basically ruining each others lives and then rescuing them again and of course New York City, then the show is perfect for you. I can only recommend it, really. And in honor of the series, I’m gonna end this post the same as the show…

You know you love me. xoxo, Gossip Girl

Thanks for reading. x

Blair’s dress: polyvore.com

The room tag

Hola everyone.

As I was thinking about a new post, I realized that some time passed since I last held my camera in my hands. So I thought why not show you around my room a lil bit?

I have to tell you, I’m totally in love with my room. I worked hard to get it to look the way it looks now. And I’m really proud of it. It’s full of pictures, postcards from my trips around the world, concert tickets and other memories and highlights of my life. And of course, my cat sharing the room with me is just a plus to that.

Enjoy the little tour and if you want to, I’d be happy to hear your opinion about my room, I’m very curious. Thanks for reading. x

Who am I?

Hola everyone.

I’m an introvert. More specifically, I’m an INFJ, which means I’m Introverted, iNtuitive, Feeling and Judging, according to the Carl G. Jung’s and Briggs Myers’ theory of psychological types and test I took to find out, which personality type I belong to.

So what does that mean exactly?

INFJs are described as complex characters, who often tend to be idealists. Furthermore, they are doers as well as dreamers, which I can totally support, as I probably spend like half of the day dreaming about things and building up different scenarios in my head. It’s also said, that INFJs are deeply concerned about their relationships with the people in their lives and the world in total, but as true introverts, they often just have a few friends, but those are the ones, they really trust completely and the ones, they want to keep forever (so true).

Onto that, INFJs are said to be highly empathic and to have the clearest insights of all the other personality types into the motivations of others, for good and evil. At this point, I have to say, that I’m shocked how true this all is. I often feel what people want or how they feel, I don’t even have to ask them what is going on inside of them, because I already know.

The thing, that completes the personality type description for me and gives me the confirmation that I am really an INFJ, is that for people of that personality type self-expression comes more easily on paper, which ends up in good writing skills. And this is so damn true. I remember that when my mum and me argued, I always went to my room and wrote her a letter in which I expressed all the feelings I had. They often were like two pages long. I was 12 when that started. And today, I text my mum after an argument – I can’t say she likes to read them all, but I just have to write it down.

Another thing that comforted me in all the past decisions I have made, is the part when the typical hobbies and the most fitting jobs are presented. I love writing, listening to music, taking pictures and reading books and those are the exact hobbies which are in the personality description. This leads us to the jobs, where positions like teacher and photographer and writer and jobs in the public media are written down and it couldn’t be more accurate, seriously. A few years ago, I wanted to become an English teacher, but that changed after some time and today I want to become a journalist and maybe an author, if it all works out like I want it to. And onto that, I’ve fallen so deeply in love with photography and taking pictures and holding my camera in my hands, that I’m dreaming about selling my pictures one day. It’s so incredible for me how perfect this all is.

All in all I couldn’t be happier to have taken that test, as it fits like a perfect pair of jeans. Before I took the test, I didn’t really think that the result would be that accurate. After all, I have to thank Will Darbyshire, who talked about the test in one of his videos and made me curious about it.

I think it’s fascinating that today we can take tests to find out how our personality works and also how the people around us work on the inside. The test really helped me to understand myself more. I know that I’m an introvert, that I would always chose watching a good movie over going to a party, that I can express myself better in pictures and written texts and that I’m highly sensitive to the world around me, but now I know, how all these things work together and why I am the person I am. And to be honest, I’m really happy that I am the way I am today and I’m glad that my parents and friends and all the past experiences and events have brought me to where I am today and have shaped my personality to how it is now.

If any of you want to take the test, I’ll leave the link at the end of the post, have fun with it. And if any of you want to watch Will’s video or want to find out who he is or simply want to watch some of the most inspiring videos on the internet, I’ll also leave the link to his channel down below.

If someone wants to talk to me about the personality types or has the same personality as me, I would be more than happy to talk to you and exchange thoughts and experiences. I’m here. And if some of you actually take the test, I would be very glad to hear about the results, as I’m really interested in the the test and in getting to know you all better. But until then, thanks for reading. x

The test: humanmetrics.com

Will’s channel: youtube.com

My concert list

Hola everyone.

As you know, I’m a fan of lists. And I love writing experiences down and keeping memories, so it will probably not surprise you that I always write it down whenever I go to a concert. So I thought why not dedicate one post to all the artists I’ve already seen live. And yes, I’m not joking, I’ve seen them all. Enjoy.

Justin Bieber (I cried when I bought the tickets in 2013 and I’m planning on seeing him again this year)
Conor Maynard (it included a Meet and Greet and I still can’t get over the fact that I hugged him; I can’t wait to see him again)
Olly Murs (2x; actually one of the cutest artists on stage, he just knows how to play with his crowd)
Avicii (2x; seriously the biggest parties I’ve ever been to and one of the best DJs out there)
Postal Service (saw them at the Barclays Center in New York)
Clean Bandit (saw them at the the Jingle Bell Ball in London in 2014)
Union J (George Shelley is literally the human version of a cute teddy bear; we wore the same outfit at the concert – Coincidence? I don’t think so…)
Take That (I’ve never seen men dance that much while singing)
Maroon 5 (saw them at 8 o’clock in the morning in the middle of New York when they were at the Today Show and played a gig there)
The Vamps (the highlight of the Jingle Bell Ball; and just to mention, they are breathtakingly amazing live)
Jess Glynne (she was part of the Clean Bandit set)
Ella Henderson (I didn’t even really know her, but I remember she made me cry with one song)
OneRepublic (2x; they totally slayed both times; I love when Ryan wears a hat)
The 1975 (they were the support act for Two Door Cinema Club and I remember that I didn’t even like their music back then – funny story, because now I love them)
Dog Is Dead (the other support act of Two Door Cinema Club; I think I told the lead singer they were amazing after the show)
Ed Sheeran (what should I tell you? I’d do EVERYTHING to re-live it right now and if I had the chance to go to his concert every day for the rest of my life, I would totally do it)
Robbie Williams (he had the coolest stage I’ve ever seen in my life and he totally rocked it)
Two Door Cinema Club (the reason for my concert addiction – thanks guys)
The Script (always dreamed about seeing them live and completed the wish in 2014)
Nick Tangorra (the cute support act of Conor)
5 Seconds of Summer (flew to Berlin with my friend just to see them)
Saint Raymond (the amazing support act of Ed; I love them ever since)
McBusted (I think I knew exactly two songs, but I still loved their show)
Hey Violet (the punk support act of 5SOS)
One Direction (one of those concerts I will always remember)
Ryan Keen (the other support act of Ed)
Awolnation (saw them at the Sziget festival last year)
Marina and The Diamonds (she’s the queen, literally)
Kasabian (the oldies who totally rocked Sziget)
Major Lazer (their song “Lean On” is the official Sziget hymn for my mum and me)
Kings of Leon (Caleb’s voice is freaking amazing live)
Alesso (the one show mum and me actually sneaked in at Sziget; it was totally worth it)
Turrentine Jones (an English band which actually follows me on twitter)
Kraftklub (didn’t really know them before the gig but loved them even more afterwards)
Rudimental (my mum got completely obsessed with their music after we had seen them)
Limp Bizkit (totally not my type of music; I literally just saw them to keep my front row place for Martin)
Martin Garrix (yep, I survived Limp Bizikt for him and it was soon worth it; he ended Sziget with the best show anyone could ever imagine)
R5 (Ross’s dance moves made the show 100 times better)
DJ Ryland (the small brother of the R5 family; he did a really great job getting us all excited for R5)
Twenty Øne Piløts (I saw them exactly 9 days ago and miss them like crazy; I even fell more in love with their music after I saw them, while I didn’t even think that was possible)

I can only imagine what you are all thinking now, and I know, I don’t even believe it myself. My concert addiction started in 2013, so I saw all of these people in the last three years, which literally takes my breath away. I don’t even know how that’s possible, but somehow it is.

I’m really really really happy and also lucky that I got all these chances to see them live and I hope that it will continue this way, as concerts are the one thing that I never want to lose in my life.

If any of you are the same as me or if you just want to talk to me about concerts, I’m here and more than looking forward to talking to you. Thanks for reading. x