Month: March 2016

Spotlight

Hola everyone.

Before I start, please note that this following post contains a lot of information about and from the movie “Spotlight” and could be seen as an anti-church post, so only continue at your own risk… Okay, I warned you.

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So, a few days ago my parents and me went to the cinema and watched the movie “Spotlight”, the Oscar movie of 2016. If you have read my Oscar post, you are probably already aware of the fact that I was a little obsessed with the movie, even though I hadn’t seen it until a few days ago. To be honest, I fell in love with it as soon as I had seen the trailer, which was like 4 months ago and I was just even more excited when it won the Oscar for best picture.

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I’m not sure if any of you know what the movie is all about, so I’ll just summarize it in short for you. The movie is based on the actual true story of the newspaper “The Boston Globe” and it’s department “Spotlight”, which is specialized on some sort of research detective-kind stories. And this exact department started an investigation into cases of widespread and systemic child sex abuse in Boston by numerous catholic priests. Which brings me to the movie, which is about the story how the journalists found out more and more about the abuses and about how a lot of people wanted them to stop and so on.

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In my opinion, the movie is breathtaking. And the topic is the same. From the first scene on I was caught up in this shocking story and I just wanted to see and know more and more. It was totally thrilling from the first second on until the last one. But I have to say, when the movie was over and I knew how cruel the so-called holy church can be and is, I couldn’t say a word. I was speechless. I remember my mum and me sitting there, our heads resting in our hands, noone of us saying one single word. I was so shocked.

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The truth is, nobody of our family is really religious. I mean, I believe in some kind of spirit. Let’s call it fate. And I believe in guardian angels. I somehow have the feeling that there is something or someone who looks after us and that all the things in our life happen because they have to happen. So there’s the fate again.

But I never believed in the church. A system that seems like some kind of widely accepted sect. These men who are seen as the connection to the holy spirit called god and which are loved and praised by most of the society.

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Personally, I never had a thing against priests or the pope or the church at all. I just never had the feeling that I needed to meet in an ice-cold building to be religious. But this movie changed me, although I’m sure that this is not the goal or the purpose of the movie. It just hit me so hard that it changed me and my opinion about the system church.

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According to the true statistics in the movie (I checked them), 6 percent of all priests all around the world get sexually involved with minors. Can you imagine how many priests that are? I googled it, in 2012, there were a total of 414.313 priests. That means that according to the statistics, about 24.858,78 priests all around the world could be sexually involved with minors. I don’t know what to tell you. Now that I see the number, I’m even more shocked than before. And the worst thing is that the church tries it’s hardest to conceal it and keep it from the society – at least it was that case in the Boston cases.

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So yeah, I don’t know what to think anymore. All I know is that I’m not very keen on visiting the church in the next few years. Or maybe ever again. I’m happy that there are journalists out there who won’t let anyone stop them from uncovering scandals like that one and that there are movies out there, that bring the story to parts and people from all over the world. This is truly something everyone should know about, seriously. Oh and just to mention, the actors in the movie are fantastic, I especially loved Mark Ruffalo, he’s amazing.

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If any of you have seen the movie or want to talk about anything, I’m here, always. And until then, as always, thanks for reading. x

Hola 20s

Hola everyone.

Tomorrow’s a really special day. It’s my birthdaaaaay. My 20th birthday, to be exact.

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And god am I excited. Actually I’m also a little bit afraid, because suddenly there will be a 2 instead a 1 and it kinda seems like the start of a whole new chapter of my life for me and I’m not sure if I’m actually ready for that. But I guess I don’t make the decision here.

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I’m pretty sure that my 20s will be as great as my 10s (???), and yeah, they were reallyyyy amazing. I’m already looking forward to all the amazing adventures and experiences coming up. Actually, my parents and me are currently on our way to Milan to celebrate my birthday and get away from the cold and I’m reallyyyy excited (although this long drive is a pain in the ass, literally). We even took Molly with us. I already can’t wait to go shopping and to wander around in the city and take pictures whenever I can. I really can’t wait. And of course, I will post all the highlights of the trip next week and tell you all the amazing things about Milan.

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But until then, as always, thanks for reading and I guess happy birthday to me. x

My life mottos

Hola everyone.

As you probably all know, I’m a dreamer and an really optimistic person. Which means that I’m always trying to be as happy as I can and to enjoy my life as much as I can.

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Over the past years I’ve developed my own mottos or “rules” to live by in order to make sure that I won’t let anything put me down. Which brings me to the reason for having written this post. So, there you go. Here are some of my most important mottos in life:

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Always be yourself 

If you have had the chance and moreover wanted to read some of my other posts, you will probably know that I’m of the opinion, that none should ever change, for nobody and nothing. When I was younger I always had the feeling that I had to change in order to be popular or to be liked or accepted by my classmates and friends. And of course, I wasn’t really happy about that. So when I grew older and got more confident, I just stopped trying to be like all the others and started being me, completely. And I loved it.

Today I’m more confident than probably ever in my life and I’ve grown a strong personality which I’m really really proud of. I like who I am and if anyone doesn’t, I don’t care because I won’t stop being myself. Ever. And this makes me very happy.

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Live life to its fullest

This is pretty much the most important “rule”, seriously. I think it all started when me and my parents were on a holiday in Paris at Disneyland (I know, how cool is that?), but on the last day I got terribly sick so we just walked around in the park and tried all the small not-as-much-fun-as-the-big-ones rides and I can tell you, until this every day I still regret not going on another big rollercoaster. And I hate it so much.

I hate the feeling of regretting not having done something, it’s the worst, seriously. So, after Paris, I promised myself to never let that happen to me again. Whenever I have the chance to do something incredible that I really wish to do or that has been my dream for years, I just do it. I think it’s better to regret having done something than to regret not having done it, because you just earn a experience. And that’s exactly what matters.

Included in this “rule” is the thought that something bad can always happen, always. So it’s important to enjoy life every single day as much as possible. My mum has pretty much the same opinion, that’s probably the reason for all the adventures we go on together. Whenever she thinks about doing something, like a holiday or a festival or a concert or anything like that, she (most of the times) tells me that we (probably) only live once and that we can’t take money with us so why not just do it? (please note that this doesn’t mean spending all the money on something and then being poor, please don’t do that)

All in all I can just tell you that trying to experience as much as possible and to not missing an amazing chance for a great adventure has shaped me to be person I am today and has turned my life into the most unreal and biggest dream I could never think of or even imagine, actually.

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Don’t stop dreaming

I love dreaming. And I love thinking about all the great things I want to do in my life and the goals I want to achieve. And yes, for some people some of my dreams and wishes and goals may sound a little bit unrealistic and simply impossible to realize. But honestly, I don’t care, not even one bit.

I always had the opinion that everything is possible if you just work hard enough for it and try your best and never stop believing. And until today, I haven’t been let down. Of course, sometimes things didn’t quite work out the way I wanted, but I still tried and in the end I was happy. And today I’m proud that I never listened to the people who gave me the feeling that I couldn’t do something or that I was a little bit crazy for even thinking about it. Because today I have a life which is a fantastic adventure every single day of my life while other people never risked something and never believed in them and their dreams and have a pretty boring and lame life, at least in my eyes.

The reason for this motto are probably my parents. They never told me that I couldn’t do something or that I was crazy for thinking about it or that something was impossible from the beginning. And I can’t thank them enough for doing that. For always telling me how proud they are of me. And for always supporting me in everything I did and do. If I ever get the chance to have children, I want raise my children the same way my parents did and be the same mum for them like me mum is for me today, because I will never stop being thankful and telling them and the world how happy they make me and how amazing my life is because of them.

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So, I think that’s it so far. Those are the three most important mottos I live my life after and I couldn’t be happier, truly. I hope that all of you are as happy as I am and that my “rules” can maybe help you get even more happier. If any of you have the same opinions and mottos as me and want to talk, I’m here. And until the, as always, thanks for reading. x

My babies

Hola everyone.

I just got home from my week at college – I stay in my dorm over the week and come home every weekend – and literally had the best welcome ever by my two babies Molly and Peaches. To be honest, I wasn’t quite sure of what to blog about today, so I asked my mum for help and she suggested telling you guys about our two pets. First I thought it might be a lil bit too corny, but she’s right, because I love them so much and they truly deserve a post that is solely dedicated to them. So, here we go.

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Molly

Molly is the oldie, when it comes to being part of this family. We got her when she was just a little cut puppy, small enough to fit in the palm of my hand. And god, was and is she cute. Usually, chihuahuas are said to be loud and bitter and also a little bit bitchy, but Molly is the complete opposite. She was always a really calm dog and full of love. I can tell you, I fell in love with her the second I saw her.

Today she’s 10 and still the same dog she was when we got her. Still calm, loving and a total cutie. She always freaks out and jumps around happily whenever someone of the family comes home, she even does that with the cat, whereas you’d think they don’t like each other, but they actually do.

I really can’t wait to spend even more years together with Molly, because she was always there for me and listened to me when I needed her and I will never stop loving her like crazy. I would never want to have another dog than her.

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Peaches

Peaches is literally the baby of the family. We got her two years ago, which feel like 10 to be honest, out of a big urge of wanting to have a cat that my mum and me shared. And today I can’t even imagine my life without her, as me and her have a really special connection, I really feel liker her mother when we are together and when she follows me around the house. Every week, my mum tells me that Peaches is always depressed when I’m away and keeps looking for me, so that pretty much confirms our bond.

I don’t even know where to start describing her. Sometimes she’s completely nuts and runs around like an insane chicken and then suddenly she’s all cutiepatootie again and wants to cuddle. Watching her feels like watching a completely crazy movie that is actually really interesting. But besides that, her cutest character trait is that, because we took her with us when she was still very young, she still sucks on her toes (and sometimes my stuffed toy cat) like a baby. And she does that until she falls asleep. It’s extremely cute, I can tell you. To be honest, I don’t think that we could have gotten any cat that fits more perfectly into our family then her. She’s the baby and she will always be.

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So yeah, there they are, my two babies. I could never live without them anymore and I can’t wait to cuddle with them again in a few minutes. If any of you have pets too and want to share some love or pics or anything with me or just wan to talk, I’m here. And until then, as always, thanks for reading. x

Never have I ever…

Hola everyone.

Never have I ever had a date… I haven’t.

There it is. I have never had a date with a boy before, never. And yeah, for a nearly 20 year old girl like me that’s pretty strange, at least when it comes to what most of the people in my surroundings think.

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To be honest, I’ve stopped thinking that it’s weird, but I went through some tough times because I thought that it was strange. That I was strange. And that it was all my fault. I thought that I wasn’t pretty enough or not cool enough or whatever damn thing you need to be in order to get a boy to like you. And I can tell you, it’s really not a nice feeling to always think that you’re not good enough for anyone. It makes you question yourself all the time. It makes you think that whatever you’re wearing or the way you have your hair or the amount of makeup you use is just wrong. In that moment, everything about yourself is just plainly wrong and all you wish for is to be like all the other girls who either have dates or already a boyfriend.

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I’ve never felt more like an outsider than in those years in which the feeling or, to be honest, the strong urge to finally get a boy to like me destroyed me completely. I was sad all the time, cried because I felt alone and unloved and I hated nothing more than the pitiful looks I got from my friends and classmates and the same damn question “Laura, when are you finally going to have a boyfriend?”. I DON’T KNOW?! Oh and let’s not forget the even more stupid answer to that “You need to go out more”. NO I DON’T!?

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When I look back at those times, I just realize how stupid I was. I really believed them and thought that going out, drinking alcohol, looking 5 years older, wearing short skirts that could be taken as a longer shirt, putting on faaaaar too much makeup and that wearing a bra that felt like a freaking corset that’s way too tight and small would help me get a boyfriend. I’m just happy that I only stuck to the makeup and bra part, because I hated all the other things too much to try them, not even for a guy.

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And today, about 5 years later, I’m still date- and boyfriendless and I’m still alive, who would have thought that? Not me, for sure, because the most accurate thing a girl, who just wants to be like all the other girls and have a boyfriend, can think, is, that she will surely die without a boy in her life. God, what was I thinking? Seriously.

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If I could talk to younger me now, I would tell myself that everything’s going to be fine, just fine, even without a immature boy in her life. And NO, it’s not her fault, it never was. Because if a boy really likes her and wants to be with her, he will like every part about her, no matter if she likes to go out and party or would chose to watch a good movie over that any time. And if he isn’t able to or doesn’t want to do that, then he can go and “you-know-what” himself and go and find another girl to lower herself for him, because this girl here won’t do that for sure. Oh, and of course he doesn’t deserve her, not one single bit.

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So yeah, here I am, without an upcoming date or a huge crush on a boy who basically owns my head. And I can say that I’m truly happy about that. I’m pretty much on the edge of becoming an adult right now, just got into the second semester in college and my life is changing so fast and chances are upcoming every second I blink and I just wouldn’t be able to have a relationship right now. Of course, sometimes I’m lonely. Sometimes I dream about being in a cute relationship with my soulmate. But as the romantic I am, I know that there’s someone out there for me, who’s just waiting to complete me. And until we find each other, I’m more than damn happy to live this amazing life, which just keeps getting better and better and making me happier and thankfuller every day that I can’t even describe it anymore.

Thanks for reading. x

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Ps: If any of you are in the same “position” as me, feel free to talk to me. I’m here. Always. And please just know that there’s nothing wrong about not having a boyfriend yet. You will find THE ONE and you will be happier than ever and you will not be able to cope with all the love. But until then, just try to love yourself and gift the love to those people, who’ve always been in your life and who love you more than anything. They deserve it. Oh, and don’t forget to enjoy life. This is your moment. Make something of it.

My favorite YouTubers

Hola everyone.

I probably already mentioned it a few posts ago, but why not talk about it again? So, I love YouTube. Who doesn’t? The first months when I got from home from university and didn’t have any movie to watch, I looked onto YouTube and searched for some good YouTubers to binge. And I found them.

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Today I watch them pretty much every day, always depending on who just uploaded a new video. As you can probably guess by know, I want to dedicate this post to my favorite YouTubers, who have slowly become more than just people sitting in front of their cameras to me.

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Joe Sugg aka ThatcherJoe

Joe was the first YouTuber I watched on a regular basis, because I fell in love with his videos from the first second on. I’m a huge fan of his editing style and how natural he seems in his videos. Every video is full of humor and funny stupidity and to be honest, it seems he’d do literally everything just to make his “sugglets” happy – as you can see in his Dare Sugg videos. Furthermore, I love how diverse he is, as he has his regular channel where he posts a video every sunday – the so-called SuggSunday – and a gaming channel and also a vlogging channel, while he still strongly denies that he’s a daily vlogger.

My most favorite videos from him are probably the collabs, in which he either films the videos with one of his friends or his sister Zoe and they are always the funniest ones. Just to mention it, Joe’s clique is for sure the coolest one, as aaaaaall of his friends are YouTubers and Conor – my Conor – is of of his best mates, so I probably don’t have to say that I’m more than jealous.

And last but not least, I think Joe has a great personality and would be the best boyfriend ever, as he calls himself a total gentleman. Oh, and he’s really hot, don’t even start arguing with me about that.

Joe’s channel: youtube.com

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Will Darbyshire aka WillDarbyshireFilm

To be honest, Will is someone really special. If I had to describe his channel and videos, I would probably say that they’re the oasis full of beauty and creativity of YouTube. He’s completely different from all the other YouTubers I watch, because his videos consist either of him talking about deep personal stuff or it’s a video only made of the breathtaking pictures he takes when he’s traveling the world.

Even though I’ve only known Will for one or two months now, I immediately put him to my faves, because his videos really trigger something special in me – hope, creativity and all of that stuff. And when it comes to photography, Will is my biggest inspiration and idol. His videos and pictures are pure art in my eyes and my goal is to get close to his talent. Oh and in my opinion, I think if someone ever wanted to create a male version of me, Will would probably be the result, so that’s pretty cool.

Will’s channel: youtube.com

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Felix Kjellberg aka PewDiePie

Last but not least, here’s my third fave, PewDiePie. Who would’ve guessed it? I don’t even know where to start. Probably at the aspect that I’m a fan of the biggest YouTuber on this pretty planet and I can’t really articulate why.

The first thing that’s a little bit weird, is that I’m not even a gamer myself. I just love watching Pewds acting like a complete dork in front of the camera while playing one of the strangest games ever. So yeah, I think the fact that he makes me laugh every second is the most prominent reason for watching his videos. Apart of that I love how personal he is and how he interacts with his “bros”. He talks directly to his fans, asks question and seriously waits in his videos so that everyone has time to answer it for themselves in front of the laptop. Oh and he flirts with them with his endless winks and I can just say, even though he’s got a girlfriend, it’s really cute. It really gives you the feeling that he’s not just some kind of internet star who’s completely unreachable and unattainable. I really appreciate that, truly.

All in all, Pewds is crazy dork who likes to play even more crazy games and who’s biggest goal is to make his bros happy and to keep them as close as possible. And even though it might seem stupid to spent hours watching him playing games, I wouldn’t want to miss it, as he really puts a smile on my face every time.

Felix’s channel: youtube.com

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So yeah, there they are. My three favorite YouTubers. Of course I watch more than those three, for example Jack Maynard, Caspar Lee, Markiplier, Zoella, Marcus Butler and of Conor, but he posts his covers on his channel, so I left him out in this category, he would have been on the first place if not.

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If any of you also love YouTube as much as me and want to talk about some of your or my or our favorite YouTubers, I’m here and looking forward to hearing from you. And as always, thanks for reading. x