Tag: stuff about me

Hola 20s

Hola everyone.

Tomorrow’s a really special day. It’s my birthdaaaaay. My 20th birthday, to be exact.

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And god am I excited. Actually I’m also a little bit afraid, because suddenly there will be a 2 instead a 1 and it kinda seems like the start of a whole new chapter of my life for me and I’m not sure if I’m actually ready for that. But I guess I don’t make the decision here.

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I’m pretty sure that my 20s will be as great as my 10s (???), and yeah, they were reallyyyy amazing. I’m already looking forward to all the amazing adventures and experiences coming up. Actually, my parents and me are currently on our way to Milan to celebrate my birthday and get away from the cold and I’m reallyyyy excited (although this long drive is a pain in the ass, literally). We even took Molly with us. I already can’t wait to go shopping and to wander around in the city and take pictures whenever I can. I really can’t wait. And of course, I will post all the highlights of the trip next week and tell you all the amazing things about Milan.

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But until then, as always, thanks for reading and I guess happy birthday to me. x

My life mottos

Hola everyone.

As you probably all know, I’m a dreamer and an really optimistic person. Which means that I’m always trying to be as happy as I can and to enjoy my life as much as I can.

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Over the past years I’ve developed my own mottos or “rules” to live by in order to make sure that I won’t let anything put me down. Which brings me to the reason for having written this post. So, there you go. Here are some of my most important mottos in life:

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Always be yourself 

If you have had the chance and moreover wanted to read some of my other posts, you will probably know that I’m of the opinion, that none should ever change, for nobody and nothing. When I was younger I always had the feeling that I had to change in order to be popular or to be liked or accepted by my classmates and friends. And of course, I wasn’t really happy about that. So when I grew older and got more confident, I just stopped trying to be like all the others and started being me, completely. And I loved it.

Today I’m more confident than probably ever in my life and I’ve grown a strong personality which I’m really really proud of. I like who I am and if anyone doesn’t, I don’t care because I won’t stop being myself. Ever. And this makes me very happy.

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Live life to its fullest

This is pretty much the most important “rule”, seriously. I think it all started when me and my parents were on a holiday in Paris at Disneyland (I know, how cool is that?), but on the last day I got terribly sick so we just walked around in the park and tried all the small not-as-much-fun-as-the-big-ones rides and I can tell you, until this every day I still regret not going on another big rollercoaster. And I hate it so much.

I hate the feeling of regretting not having done something, it’s the worst, seriously. So, after Paris, I promised myself to never let that happen to me again. Whenever I have the chance to do something incredible that I really wish to do or that has been my dream for years, I just do it. I think it’s better to regret having done something than to regret not having done it, because you just earn a experience. And that’s exactly what matters.

Included in this “rule” is the thought that something bad can always happen, always. So it’s important to enjoy life every single day as much as possible. My mum has pretty much the same opinion, that’s probably the reason for all the adventures we go on together. Whenever she thinks about doing something, like a holiday or a festival or a concert or anything like that, she (most of the times) tells me that we (probably) only live once and that we can’t take money with us so why not just do it? (please note that this doesn’t mean spending all the money on something and then being poor, please don’t do that)

All in all I can just tell you that trying to experience as much as possible and to not missing an amazing chance for a great adventure has shaped me to be person I am today and has turned my life into the most unreal and biggest dream I could never think of or even imagine, actually.

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Don’t stop dreaming

I love dreaming. And I love thinking about all the great things I want to do in my life and the goals I want to achieve. And yes, for some people some of my dreams and wishes and goals may sound a little bit unrealistic and simply impossible to realize. But honestly, I don’t care, not even one bit.

I always had the opinion that everything is possible if you just work hard enough for it and try your best and never stop believing. And until today, I haven’t been let down. Of course, sometimes things didn’t quite work out the way I wanted, but I still tried and in the end I was happy. And today I’m proud that I never listened to the people who gave me the feeling that I couldn’t do something or that I was a little bit crazy for even thinking about it. Because today I have a life which is a fantastic adventure every single day of my life while other people never risked something and never believed in them and their dreams and have a pretty boring and lame life, at least in my eyes.

The reason for this motto are probably my parents. They never told me that I couldn’t do something or that I was crazy for thinking about it or that something was impossible from the beginning. And I can’t thank them enough for doing that. For always telling me how proud they are of me. And for always supporting me in everything I did and do. If I ever get the chance to have children, I want raise my children the same way my parents did and be the same mum for them like me mum is for me today, because I will never stop being thankful and telling them and the world how happy they make me and how amazing my life is because of them.

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So, I think that’s it so far. Those are the three most important mottos I live my life after and I couldn’t be happier, truly. I hope that all of you are as happy as I am and that my “rules” can maybe help you get even more happier. If any of you have the same opinions and mottos as me and want to talk, I’m here. And until the, as always, thanks for reading. x

Never have I ever…

Hola everyone.

Never have I ever had a date… I haven’t.

There it is. I have never had a date with a boy before, never. And yeah, for a nearly 20 year old girl like me that’s pretty strange, at least when it comes to what most of the people in my surroundings think.

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To be honest, I’ve stopped thinking that it’s weird, but I went through some tough times because I thought that it was strange. That I was strange. And that it was all my fault. I thought that I wasn’t pretty enough or not cool enough or whatever damn thing you need to be in order to get a boy to like you. And I can tell you, it’s really not a nice feeling to always think that you’re not good enough for anyone. It makes you question yourself all the time. It makes you think that whatever you’re wearing or the way you have your hair or the amount of makeup you use is just wrong. In that moment, everything about yourself is just plainly wrong and all you wish for is to be like all the other girls who either have dates or already a boyfriend.

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I’ve never felt more like an outsider than in those years in which the feeling or, to be honest, the strong urge to finally get a boy to like me destroyed me completely. I was sad all the time, cried because I felt alone and unloved and I hated nothing more than the pitiful looks I got from my friends and classmates and the same damn question “Laura, when are you finally going to have a boyfriend?”. I DON’T KNOW?! Oh and let’s not forget the even more stupid answer to that “You need to go out more”. NO I DON’T!?

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When I look back at those times, I just realize how stupid I was. I really believed them and thought that going out, drinking alcohol, looking 5 years older, wearing short skirts that could be taken as a longer shirt, putting on faaaaar too much makeup and that wearing a bra that felt like a freaking corset that’s way too tight and small would help me get a boyfriend. I’m just happy that I only stuck to the makeup and bra part, because I hated all the other things too much to try them, not even for a guy.

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And today, about 5 years later, I’m still date- and boyfriendless and I’m still alive, who would have thought that? Not me, for sure, because the most accurate thing a girl, who just wants to be like all the other girls and have a boyfriend, can think, is, that she will surely die without a boy in her life. God, what was I thinking? Seriously.

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If I could talk to younger me now, I would tell myself that everything’s going to be fine, just fine, even without a immature boy in her life. And NO, it’s not her fault, it never was. Because if a boy really likes her and wants to be with her, he will like every part about her, no matter if she likes to go out and party or would chose to watch a good movie over that any time. And if he isn’t able to or doesn’t want to do that, then he can go and “you-know-what” himself and go and find another girl to lower herself for him, because this girl here won’t do that for sure. Oh, and of course he doesn’t deserve her, not one single bit.

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So yeah, here I am, without an upcoming date or a huge crush on a boy who basically owns my head. And I can say that I’m truly happy about that. I’m pretty much on the edge of becoming an adult right now, just got into the second semester in college and my life is changing so fast and chances are upcoming every second I blink and I just wouldn’t be able to have a relationship right now. Of course, sometimes I’m lonely. Sometimes I dream about being in a cute relationship with my soulmate. But as the romantic I am, I know that there’s someone out there for me, who’s just waiting to complete me. And until we find each other, I’m more than damn happy to live this amazing life, which just keeps getting better and better and making me happier and thankfuller every day that I can’t even describe it anymore.

Thanks for reading. x

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Ps: If any of you are in the same “position” as me, feel free to talk to me. I’m here. Always. And please just know that there’s nothing wrong about not having a boyfriend yet. You will find THE ONE and you will be happier than ever and you will not be able to cope with all the love. But until then, just try to love yourself and gift the love to those people, who’ve always been in your life and who love you more than anything. They deserve it. Oh, and don’t forget to enjoy life. This is your moment. Make something of it.

The room tag

Hola everyone.

As I was thinking about a new post, I realized that some time passed since I last held my camera in my hands. So I thought why not show you around my room a lil bit?

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I have to tell you, I’m totally in love with my room. I worked hard to get it to look the way it looks now. And I’m really proud of it. It’s full of pictures, postcards from my trips around the world, concert tickets and other memories and highlights of my life. And of course, my cat sharing the room with me is just a plus to that.

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Enjoy the little tour and if you want to, I’d be happy to hear your opinion about my room, I’m very curious. Thanks for reading. x

 

 

Who am I?

Hola everyone.

I’m an introvert. More specifically, I’m an INFJ, which means I’m Introverted, iNtuitive, Feeling and Judging, according to the Carl G. Jung’s and Briggs Myers’ theory of psychological types and test I took to find out, which personality type I belong to.

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So what does that mean exactly?

INFJs are described as complex characters, who often tend to be idealists. Furthermore, they are doers as well as dreamers, which I can totally support, as I probably spend like half of the day dreaming about things and building up different scenarios in my head. It’s also said, that INFJs are deeply concerned about their relationships with the people in their lives and the world in total, but as true introverts, they often just have a few friends, but those are the ones, they really trust completely and the ones, they want to keep forever (so true).

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Onto that, INFJs are said to be highly empathic and to have the clearest insights of all the other personality types into the motivations of others, for good and evil. At this point, I have to say, that I’m shocked how true this all is. I often feel what people want or how they feel, I don’t even have to ask them what is going on inside of them, because I already know.

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The thing, that completes the personality type description for me and gives me the confirmation that I am really an INFJ, is that for people of that personality type self-expression comes more easily on paper, which ends up in good writing skills. And this is so damn true. I remember that when my mum and me argued, I always went to my room and wrote her a letter in which I expressed all the feelings I had. They often were like two pages long. I was 12 when that started. And today, I text my mum after an argument – I can’t say she likes to read them all, but I just have to write it down.

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Another thing that comforted me in all the past decisions I have made, is the part when the typical hobbies and the most fitting jobs are presented. I love writing, listening to music, taking pictures and reading books and those are the exact hobbies which are in the personality description. This leads us to the jobs, where positions like teacher and photographer and writer and jobs in the public media are written down and it couldn’t be more accurate, seriously. A few years ago, I wanted to become an English teacher, but that changed after some time and today I want to become a journalist and maybe an author, if it all works out like I want it to. And onto that, I’ve fallen so deeply in love with photography and taking pictures and holding my camera in my hands, that I’m dreaming about selling my pictures one day. It’s so incredible for me how perfect this all is.

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All in all I couldn’t be happier to have taken that test, as it fits like a perfect pair of jeans. Before I took the test, I didn’t really think that the result would be that accurate. After all, I have to thank Will Darbyshire, who talked about the test in one of his videos and made me curious about it.

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I think it’s fascinating that today we can take tests to find out how our personality works and also how the people around us work on the inside. The test really helped me to understand myself more. I know that I’m an introvert, that I would always chose watching a good movie over going to a party, that I can express myself better in pictures and written texts and that I’m highly sensitive to the world around me, but now I know, how all these things work together and why I am the person I am. And to be honest, I’m really happy that I am the way I am today and I’m glad that my parents and friends and all the past experiences and events have brought me to where I am today and have shaped my personality to how it is now.

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If any of you want to take the test, I’ll leave the link at the end of the post, have fun with it. And if any of you want to watch Will’s video or want to find out who he is or simply want to watch some of the most inspiring videos on the internet, I’ll also leave the link to his channel down below.

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If someone wants to talk to me about the personality types or has the same personality as me, I would be more than happy to talk to you and exchange thoughts and experiences. I’m here. And if some of you actually take the test, I would be very glad to hear about the results, as I’m really interested in the the test and in getting to know you all better. But until then, thanks for reading. x

The test: humanmetrics.com

Will’s channel: youtube.com

Get to know me

Hola everyone.

As I have only posted a welcome post and some pics I took in my garden, I thought you’d maybe like to get to know me better, so here we goooooo:

  • I’m currently on the edge of crossing the 20-years-old-line
  • I’m from a small small town in the middle of nowhere, I like to call it Narnia
  • My native language is actually German, but I’m over the top in love with English, that’s why I try to keep as much English as I can in my life
  • I have two pets – a dog (chihuahua) and a cat
  • I actually have the feeling that my cat is my child (at least I like to tell that to everyone)
  • I consider myself as a geek/nerd (yep, school and college matters to me)
  • I’m currently in my first year of college studying journalism and communication science
  • If I could choose to live in any city of the world, I’d choose London (such a fascinating city)
  • You could call the local cinema my second home
  • I consider myself as a massive movie enthusiast
  • I probably spend wayyyy more time on YouTube than I should
  • I can’t live without music (yes, I know, everyone says that, but you’ll see in my later posts, I really mean it)
  • Yep, I’m a massive fangirl
  • I love traveling, especially with my mum and to cities
  • I’ve always been fascinated by photography (got a camera for christmas this year, hell yeah)
  • I’d always choose a horror movie over a romantic comedy thingy
  • Hogwarts is my dream school
  • I love fashion and going shopping (ofc), especially at the fabulous shop Forever 21
  • I’m a natural curl gurl
  • I’m highly addicted to going to concerts since 2013
  • I consider myself a loyal, friendly, optimistic person with a good sense of humour with a little sprinkle of sarcasm and weirdness here and there
  • I love the smell of books

 

… okay, I think that’s it. I hope I seem at least a little bit interesting. And again, if anyone of you wants to talk about sth with me or has any questions, I’m here. Thanks for reading. x