Thoughts

Hola everyone.

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Looks like it’s Monday again, huh? I can’t believe it’s already a new week and that I’ll be officially starting uni tomorrow. But on the other hand I’m also so happy that it’s finally beginning, I actually can’t wait any longer.

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As you guys know from my previous posts, moving to Brighton and living here, without my family and my friends, wasn’t and isn’t the easiest thing. I mean, I know that I’m not alone and I’ve already met some amazing people and I’m head over heels in love with Brighton, I really am, but I still can’t help but miss home sometimes. All the people I love and my pets and just my home all over, the place I know and care about. I do always try to look at the bright side, of course, but this weekend I kind of got swallowed up by a dark hole. Honestly, I just wanted to go home. And it wasn’t because I wasn’t happy or anything, I just literally wanted to go home. You know, I’m used to coming home on the weekends, it has always been like that. But now that I’m here I can’t do that anymore and it just hit me.

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I of course talked to my mum and other people and went for a walk to calm my mind. But I also remembered that what I’m doing is actually a pretty huge thing and certainly not an easy one. For nobody. So, it’s okay to not be okay, especially now. And I want you guys to know that. The important aspect of it is though, that you get out of this dark hole again too, because noone should stay in there for too long. I did get out again and I’m now feeling a lot better. Life is a rollercoaster, right?

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But I didn’t write this post just to tell you guys my thoughts. I actually wanted to show you guys some pictures I took this weekend. Like I said, while feeling not so well, I went for a walk and took my camera with me. At first I tried to take my usual, colorful pictures, but that just didn’t feel right. So I went down to the beach and started taking photographs in black and white. And somehow I managed to transport my inner thoughts and emotions into these pictures and turn them into something beautiful. When I look at them I can actually sense how I felt while taking them. My mum said that they have some kind of gloomy vibes, which I think fits perfectly. To be honest, I really like the pictures and for me they don’t just represent my ability to translate my emotions into art but also a new step into a new creative, photographic area, which I’m very happy about.

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So yeah, that’s basically what I wanted to talk to and show you guys. As always, I hope you enjoyed reading about my thoughts and looking at the pictures. Please don’t hesitate to tell me your opinions, I’d love to hear them. And if you have any questions, please leave them down below. Oh and if any of you are stuck in that hole and need some help getting out, please know that you can always talk to me or somebody else you trust and love. Talking always helps, guys, it really does. And yeah, I hope you’re all doing good and I wish you a nice week. And, of course, thanks for reading. x