moving – that lemon life

It’s happening

Hola everyone.

Guys, I don’t even know what to say. I have no idea how to articulate what I’m feeling right now, what’s going on in my head. So I’m just going to say it: yesterday, at about five o’clock, I got the offer from BIMM. I seriously got accepted at the university I have been dreaming about the past few months. I did it. Oh my god.

I can’t believe that this is really happening. I mean, it got so real all of a sudden. Of course I’ve always talked about moving to another country, dreamed about living in London, imagined how my life would be if I could turn my biggest loves into a career – music and loves. And now it’s all happening. This is so unbelievable. Before it was all talking and stuff, dreaming about unrealistic scenarios. I mean, I’ve always been a pretty optimistic person, but if anyone would have told me that this would ever happen to me, I would have laughed in their face and maybe take them to the doctors. And now it’s all becoming reality. I can’t even tell you how happy I am. I feel like the luckiest person on earth. They seriously chose me. ME. How the hell is this real life? How did I deserve all of this? Am I still dreaming? Because if I am, please don’t wake me up.

When I got the email yesterday I immediately started to cry. I couldn’t believe my eyes. There it was, the offer. The offer from the one university I wanted to study at so so so bad. I don’t think I’ve wanted anything career related as bad as this. And I have to say, I really worked my damn ass off for this. And now all this truly paid off. At least I know now why I studied so hard at school and tried to get the best grades. I guess I did it for this, something I didn’t even know I would need it for three years later. Being such a perfectionist isn’t as bad as I thought, I guess.

And now I’m sitting here, listening to the new The Wombats album – it’s freaking amazing, prepare for the full review guys – still not quite fully aware of the fact that I’ll be moving to the UK in September. Holy moly. I can’t even tell you how long I’ve been dreaming about being able to say this. No joke. And now it’s really happening. I’ll move to the UK, either Brighton or London – I still have to decide on that one, but I think it will end up being Brighton, as it’s a little bit cheaper than London – and then I’ll study music journalism at one of the coolest universities ever, one that brought us stars like George Ezra, Marina and The Diamonds, The Kooks and Tom Odell. And now I’m tearing up again.

I’m just really happy that everyone, all of my friends and my family, is supporting me in this decision. My mum is still kind of torn and I fully understand her. Because I am too. I have to stop myself from thinking about it too hard, because I can already feel the anxious and sad feelings creep up in me. Of course it’s hard for me too. Moving to a completely different country, all on my own, leaving everything I know behind. It’s basically the biggest step I’ve ever taken. But I know I can do it. And my little town in the middle of nowhere is still my home. Home is where the heart is. And my heart is wherever my loved ones are. And if you’re asking me, yes, it’s possible to have more than one home. And I can’t wait to call Britain my home.

So yeah, this is it guys. I guess this is all really happening. I still have to digest all of this in order to be able to realize it. Isn’t it crazy how the mind truly needs its time to process news like this one? And I think the moment I fully understand all of this will be one of the best and happiest ones in my whole life. My dream is seriously coming true. And it feels so good that I’m able to share all of this with you guys. Here’s to some exciting months and even more exciting and very english years. Also, I hope you’re all doing good and I wish you an amazing weekend. And thanks for reading. x

Berlin Update #1

Hola everyone.

Sooo, I basically just wanted to update you guys on how I’m doing in Berlin. It’s been five days so far and I can already say that I have made a lot of experiences.

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First of all I have to say that I really really REALLY love Berlin. It’s a really cool, really modern and chill city and I feel honored to live here for those three months. And I love the apartment I get to stay in for the three months, really. And with my good decoration skills I already turned this flat into a home – my home.

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Apart from my happiness of being here, I’m also sad about being away from home. It’s the first time I won’t be home on a weekend or will see my parents next week. And that is quite scary. And heartbreakingly sad of course. I had to say goodbye to my parents yesterday, which was really hard. And I mean, of course I miss them. Everyone. More than anyone can imagine. But I’m extremely happy that they stayed here in Berlin for this long, so the actual moving and adjusting to the new city thing was a lot less complicated and scary for me. And I could still spend some time with them, which was even more awesome.

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So, I’m slowly getting used to being here and on my own. But I still haven’t been able to realize it all, so yeah, I’ll just wait for that to sink in.

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The good thing is that my friends will be visiting me here in Berlin, so I won’t be alone as much as I thought. And apart from that I have wifi and everything here so I can call and text my family and friends whenever I want and that makes everything a lot easier for me. And being here really shows me how much I love being at home, the place I belong to, spending time with the people and pets who I love the most. But it also shows that I am able to go on such a big adventure on my own and be drawn away from everything I know.

Overall, being here in Berlin has already tought me a lot about myself and what I want to do in the future and how. And although I’m away from home, I can’t describe how happy I am that I seriously get to do all of this, it’s soooo damn crazy, for real. A dream come true. So I’m hoping that it will get better and better and better and once be a part of my life I’ll look back to with a smile on my face.

And that’s all I can tell you guys. So, as you can see, I’m doing quite well here in Berlin. Oh and I’m sorry for not posting anything on Friday, I just had a packed week and didn’t get the chance to write. I’m really sorry. Anyway, I hope you enjoyed this post and if any of you want to chat, I’m here. And until then, as always, thanks for reading. x

Hello Berlin

Hola everyone.

It’s happening guys. It’s really happening. And I can’t believe it. I’m seriously moving to Berlin for three months. Holy moly.

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I’m seriously having real troubles realizing that this is really happening. I mean, I know some of you guys already know about this if you’ve been following my blog. But I talked about wayyyyy long time ago. And now I’m boarding a plane in 13 hours. It’s currently half past 1 am and I’m sitting on the couch watching YouTube videos and trying to understand all of this crazy stuff.

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To be honest, I have both good and bad feelings about this. But I guess that’s normal, I bet on it. I mean, there aren’t a lot of things I’ve ever been this excited for. And this is such a big dream of mine and it’s coming true, which is more than crazy. I’ve been dreaming about and hoping that I could once get the chance to move to a cool city for some time. And I always knew that I wanted to do this. I always wanted to go on such a huge adventure. And now it’s happening. Which makes me so happy that I can’t even describe it. I’m so damn excited.

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But on the other side I’m also so freaking nervous. Like, moving to another city, in another country, on my own, completely alone, without having anyone I really know there… It’s more than crazy. And that makes me nervous. Because I’ve never really been alone in my life until now. There was always somebody there. And now I’m on my own. And besides that, leaving my family and my friends and my two pets aka babys is like the hardest thing ever. Especially leaving Peaches behind. Because I can keep in touch with my friends and family, I can talk to them, skype with them and they understand my situation. But how do I tell a cat that her mum isn’t going to be around until christmas? It’s impossible. I mean, I noticed that she can sense that there’s something going on, but who knows what she thinks. I’m just hoping that she won’t be too sad…

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So, those are my worries. I’m not scared of being alone, I can easily get used to that. It’s just the newness and everything unknown that’s making me nervous. But I’m 100 percent sure that it’s going to be one of the coolest months in my whole life. Seriously. And I’m so freaking excited to work at the TV company. It’s going to be so awesome. And interesting. I’m already so happy to be able to learn all these new things and see how working there is. It’s going to be so cool. I’m sure.

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I seriously can’t wait to learn all this new stuff and start this new chapter and meet new people and make all this new and exciting experiences. And of course I’ll keep in touch with my friends and family as much as I can. Skype and text and stuff. And they will also visit me in Berlin, which is supercool and already makes me happy. And me and mum are going to a Twenty One Pilots concert in Berlin, so my time already starts in the best way possible.

And of course I’ll keep all of you guys updated. Because you can probably all guess by now that my life in Berlin is going to be the main topic for the next three months. So yeah, that’s really happening and I’m just waiting for my brain to realize it. But still, the excitement is overwhelming. Oh and Happy Halloween guys. If any of you want to talk about this or anything else, I’m here. And now even happier to hear from you guys. And until then, I hope you enjoyed this post and life update and, as always, thanks for reading. x