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About Ray

Hola everyone.

I know it’s late. Very late, to be honest. But I didn’t have any time to write today, it was horrible. And after work I had to go christmas presents shopping and then I had to make myself some food and now I’m here. Anyways, I just wanna apologize for being so late.

I know you all probably expect a post about my weekend with my mum, but I thought I’d postpone that to Friday and tell you about a certain part of our time. To be exact, the day we went to the cinema and watched one of the most special and beautiful movies I’ve ever seen. And as you can all see at the title, I’m talking about the masterpiece “About Ray”.

Let me first tell you what the movie is all about. About Ray is about a girl or boy, who feels like she’s / he’s born in the wrong body. Since she was just four years old, Ramona felt like something about her just didn’t feel right. Fast forward to Ray, now 16 years old and desperate to start the gender transition. But exactly that, his age, is the problem. It means that he needs his family to be okay with loosing their daughter/granddaughter. Not to mention that his grandma still thinks that Ray should just be gay.

I guess you guys can already sense the drama and all the emotions. And I can tell you, there A LOT of emotions. Beginning with Ray, who just wants a normal life, a normal family. Then his mother, who never thought that she would loose Ramona so fast. And Rays grandma Dodo and her girlfriend Honey, who even live all under one roof. Oh and let’s not forget his dad, who left when he was just a little baby and now has to sign one of the most important papers of Rays life.

If you’re asking yourself, yes, I cried. Many times. And I had to stop myself, for real. The movie gave me such an urge to fully cry, the loud, sobbing, heartbreaking type of cry. And I think mum did too.

Apart from the unique and amazing story, the movie is turned into something perfect by the fascinating camera work – it’s actually more like some kind of art, so damn amazing – and of course the breathtaking actors. Elle Fanning is so real in her role as Ray and Naomi Watts as the mother is just mind-blowing. Mum said that she could really feel how hard she tried to let her daughter go and welcome her son. It was kinda heartbreaking, to be honest. Because of both sides, Rays and his mums. Oh and probably too because I watched it with my mum and this movie is all about mothers and daughters/sons.

I asked my mum later on if she would accept it if I told her that I felt like I lived a lie and wanted to change my gender completely. She said yes. And I am thankful for that. Because it is for sure a hard thing to say, even if it’s just hypothetically.

All in all, the movie About Ray was everything I expected it to be and so much more. I loved every second of it, even when it broke my heart. I think that’s the kind of story and movie everyone should get to know and see. Because it’s such an important and recent topic. So guys, I can really just recommend this movie to all of you. If you have the chance, please go and watch it. Please. And if any of you have seen it, what do you think about it? Did you like it as much as me? Tell me. And until then, sorry again for being so late, I hope you still enjoyed this post and, as always, thanks for reading. x

Mum is here

Hola everyone.

Sooo, I just wanted to inform you guys that I don’t have anything to tell you… Okay, but seriously, of course I would have something, but actually I’m not really feeling it. Probably, and here comes the good news, because my mum is here. She just got here yesterday in the evening and will stay with me until Sunday, so we’ll spend the whole weekend together here in Berlin. I. Can’t. Wait.

I’m extremely happy that she’s here. And when she’s back at home, I’ll follow her shortly afterwards (five days after to be exact) and then it’s christmas already. Holy moly. Time just flies by. Crazy.

Anyways, I just wanted to tell you this guys and also that I’m of course going to take my camera with me the whole weekend so you can already look forward to some exciting pictures. And until then, I hope you enjoyed this very short post. Oh and if you want to talk, I’m here. And yes I indeed want to know what you’re all up to this weekend. Speaking of that, I hope you will all have great one. And as always, thanks for reading. x

I’m attending freaking fashion week

Hola everyone.

Oh my god. Yes, you did read that right. Yes, it’s true. Yes, it’s really happening. No, I can’t even begin to describe how happy I am. And I’m not sure if I ever will.

But let’s go back right to the beginning. So, it all when I was sitting at work and looked up some upcoming events and then I saw it. There it was. The date I had never expected to come up. Three glorious days full of fashion, lifestyle and stars. The Berlin Fashion Week.You can probably guess that I nearly had a heart attack, but that one didn’t even come any close to the one I nearly had later on

So, while staring at the date I was like “hey, why not just apply with my own blog”. So I did. And seriously, I wasn’t expecting much. Mostly because- like it said on the website – you have to cover fashion topics all over the year. And be like prominent in the fashion scene. And my blog isn’t like just a fashion blog, as most of you probably know. I mean, of course fashion is a huge topic in my life, probably one of the biggest ones, but still.

But I still applied. And then I waited. And after five days I slowly got concerned. But somehow it was okay, because there was still some hope left inside me. And last week, on Friday, before getting on the bus to fly home, I saw it. The email basically screamed at me. And then I wanted to scream. I couldn’t believe my eyes. There it was. My personal ticket and invitation for the fashion week in Berlin. I had such a huge urge to cry, seriously. I was soooooo damn happy. Oh my god. And I still can’t believe it.

This is like the biggest dream ever. This is exactly what I want to do when I grow up. I want to do that for work. I want this to be my job. And this is like my first step into it. And I couldn’t be any happier. I’m already worried about what I’ll wear, seriously. If any of you have an idea what I could wear, please tell me. Really.

So yeah, that’s the biggest news of probably the whole month (besides christmas). Oh and if you’re curious, the two days at home were amazing. I loved being at home again. Anyway, I’m superduperexcited right now and I don’t really know what to do with my life anymore and with all my excitement and happiness, but yeah. I hope you enjoyed this post and as always, thanks for reading. x

I’m going home

Hola everyone.

Yes, it’s true. I am going home. Finally. But before you freak out, no, I’m not quitting my Berlin adventure. There’s no giving up, no matter how much I’d like to be at home and snuggle on my couch with my family and my pets until forever.

Actually I’m just flying home for two days, over the weekend. But even the two days are more than enough. I really just want to be at home. Hug my mum. Cuddle with Peaches until we both fall asleep on the couch with a nonsense movie playing on TV. Go for a walk with Molly. Laugh with my dad. Sleep in my own bed. Just basically live at home, even if it’s just for a really short period of time.

Apart from my homesickness, I’m honestly really happy here in Berlin. I finally could arrange all the technical and organizational stuff and now I can fully concentrate on all the things I want to do and see here. It was really annoying to always have something negative on my mind and now it’s finally gone.

And according to my day counter I installed on my phone, I only have 54 days left. I started at 91 and now we’re already at 54, so nearly halfway through, which is totally crazy. And christmas is just around the corner. Unbelievable.

Oh yeah, speaking of christmas. Two days ago I bought myself my very first christmas gift. From me to me. My ticket for VidCon in Amsterdam next year. I am freaking out. And now, I’m not exaggerating. I am for real going crazy. Because as probably most of you know I’m such a huge fan of Youtube and Youtuber and the lineup is already so good. I mean, Oli White, Jack Maynard, Grace Helbig. And I’m prayiiiing that Markiplier, Connor Franta, Conor (my Concon), Will and maybe even Joe and Caspar will be added to the lineup too. I need to see them, seriously. And honestly, I’d die if Pewds would be there, seriously.

Anyways, I’m really really REALLY happy that I bought the ticket and excited for all the upcoming creators that will be added to the lineup. And I couldn’t be happier to finally go home today. I can’t wait.

So yeah, that was another little update from me. I hope you liked it and please, if you want to chat, just hit me up. And until then, as always, thanks for reading. x

Art.

Hola everyone

So last week, as some of you guys already know, my friend Leni visited me for a few days, which was one really cute and second an amazing chance for me to take my camera with me because we went for a frew strolls around the city.

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And one of those strolls took us to the national gallery and as you can probably tell, I just had to take some pictures in there. And I have to say, I freaking love them. I mean, I loved the museum, of course, too. It actually featured some paintings of Monet, who I love because of the pastels and dreaminess. But I also loved the pictures I took. They are just so artsy and calm and exciting at the same time and I just really really love them.

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To be honest, I’ve had my camera for 1 months now, since last christmas, and I’m really proud of my progress when it comes to photography. When I look at my most recent pictures and some I took right after I got, I can clearly see the difference and progress I made. And that makes me really really happy. Photography and my camera have become such an important part of my life, one that I never knew I would never be able to live without anymore before.

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Anyways, that’s me babbling about photography. Let’s get to the important part of this post. As always, you’ll find my pics down below, and if any of you want to chat about anything and everything, I’m here. And until then, as usual, I hope you enjoyed my pics and this post and thanks for reading. x

I got myself a M&G

Hola everyone.

So, actually, this is kind of a funny story. And it’s probably one of the proudest moments of my life, because as you know, I’m a shy little bird, just learning to get out of its nest.

Anyways, that’s a whole other story. The thing I really want to tell you about is the concert I went to with my friend Leni this week. She had visited me for 6 days and the concert was like the perfect ending of amazing 6 days. Actually, it was her idea, because she wanted to see him – oh, by the way, it was a Tom Odell concert – and I thought “hey, why not?”. So we got our tickets and headed off to the venue.

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We got there a little late because why should we stress ourselves and just in time for the support act to come to its end. The band was called Jane’s Party and I have to admit, I was pretty amazed by their set. They are a young up and coming indie pop rock band and it was really nice to hear some kind of indie rock before Tom would take the stage with his piano.
So, they played their set and then we had to wait for Tom, of course. And in that time we went over to the merch stand and I noticed the black markers who were lying on the table. And I was like “hey, maybe they’re going to come out and do a little signing session”. Because the support act doing things like that is so common here, I’ve been to three concerts and it alwaaays happened. So I was already pretty excited, even though until this very evening I had never heard of the band.

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Then we got back to the space we had decided to be ours, but soon Leni told me that the drummer of the band had just gone to the merch stand. And I was like “oh my, I have to get an autograph”. Sadly, Leni was too nervous and shy – which I am usually too – so I went over to him all by myself. And the funny thing is, when I got there he told me that I could get a CD for any price I wanted. I had actually just given Leni my last cash, so I just had 5 euros left. And he seriously took them. And then he signed my ticket and gave me two – not one – TWO CDs. And I couldn’t believe it. I went back to Leni with the biggest grin ever, I thought that was soooo cool. I was seriously amazed.

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And then Tom came and played his show and although his music isn’t really what I usually listen too, I really enjoyed the show. The band was amazing, he was fantastic and there was a whole lot of energy in the room and it just overwhelmed me so much that I just had to love the show. Which I did, for real.

And then the show ended and Leni and I sat down to wait until the other people had left and we could leave the venue more easily. And then I saw that the other band mates of Jane’s Party had come out and I just had to get their autographs too. So we sat there and waited for the people to leave. While staring at the hot lead singer of the band, who made us both pretty nervous, because he seriously looks like a young DiCaprio and I’m not even kidding.

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So when there were finally less people chatting with them, we walked up to them. At this time, Leni had just overcome her shyness and also wanted to meet them. We first talked to the guitarist called Tom who was soooo damn nice. He actually asked us for our names and dedicted the CD to us. And I was thinking “I don’t want this to be like get a sign and just say thanks and leave”. I wanted to get to know them, be nice and just a normal human being doing conversations so I randomly started chatting to him. And it was so cool. And I was soooo damn proud of myself for that. Because as I said, usually I’m even too shy to talk to somebody new on the phone, so until now talking to bands was like completely out of my mind. But at that moment I just did it and it was awesome. We talked about the tour and everything and he was sooo nice.

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Then we waited for the next one – the hot one called Devon or DiCaprio 2.0. – as suddenly another band mate came up to us and asked us if we he should sign our CDs. And of course we said yes. Then he went away but came back again after like a second to ask us if we wanted to take a picture because he – and I quote – “couldn’t just let him (DiCaprio 2.0.) get to take all the pictures”. And I thought that was so funny and so TRUE.

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And then again there was this moment of total awkward silence and I was like, I don’t want to just stand here, saying nothing. So I again just started a conversation and I think he was actually happy that we talked to him. We talked about their tour and that they should come to our country and he told us which cities and countries he would like to visit. And he again asked for our names and told us how happy he was to meet us. It was so personal and nice and I was so happy.

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And then we waited for the last two members to sign our CDs. Unfortunately we couldn’t talk to DiCaprio 2.0. I actually think that the whole signing part was just some kind of marketing thing for them, but it was great seeing them anyway. And yes, he looked even better up close.

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And suddenly we noticed that we were like two of the last few people to be in the venue and it was so cool. And when we got out, we walked past Jeff (the one we took a pic with) and he again said goodbye to us and I think that that’s extreeeeemly cute. Because that showed that he was geniouly happy to have talked to us. And yes, I went out of the venue with the biggest smile on my face.

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To be honest, I’m still shocked that this really happened. I mean, I never thought that I would be able to overcome my shyness and for real talk to a band. A real and freaking amazing band. The both signed CDs are now right on my shelf at home and two of the coolest pieces in my flat. Apart from the signed tickets. I couldn’t be any happier about how this whole thing went and I know that I’ll never forget this evening.

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For the last part I want to tell you something guys. Please, if you EVER get the chance to meet a band – even if the band is like super small and unknown – go up to them and talk to them. Really. You won’t regret it. And the band will love you for showing interest. Seriously. That’s something I was always scared of but know am aware that it’s one of the greatest things ever. So, just do it (insert Shia LaBeouf voice).

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So, there you go guys. This is the story of how I got myself a free Meet & Greet. If any of you want to know more about the concert or the band or the meetup, I’m here. And until then I hope you enjoyed this post and, as always, thanks for reading. x