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I’m attending freaking fashion week

Hola everyone.

Oh my god. Yes, you did read that right. Yes, it’s true. Yes, it’s really happening. No, I can’t even begin to describe how happy I am. And I’m not sure if I ever will.

But let’s go back right to the beginning. So, it all when I was sitting at work and looked up some upcoming events and then I saw it. There it was. The date I had never expected to come up. Three glorious days full of fashion, lifestyle and stars. The Berlin Fashion Week.You can probably guess that I nearly had a heart attack, but that one didn’t even come any close to the one I nearly had later on

So, while staring at the date I was like “hey, why not just apply with my own blog”. So I did. And seriously, I wasn’t expecting much. Mostly because- like it said on the website – you have to cover fashion topics all over the year. And be like prominent in the fashion scene. And my blog isn’t like just a fashion blog, as most of you probably know. I mean, of course fashion is a huge topic in my life, probably one of the biggest ones, but still.

But I still applied. And then I waited. And after five days I slowly got concerned. But somehow it was okay, because there was still some hope left inside me. And last week, on Friday, before getting on the bus to fly home, I saw it. The email basically screamed at me. And then I wanted to scream. I couldn’t believe my eyes. There it was. My personal ticket and invitation for the fashion week in Berlin. I had such a huge urge to cry, seriously. I was soooooo damn happy. Oh my god. And I still can’t believe it.

This is like the biggest dream ever. This is exactly what I want to do when I grow up. I want to do that for work. I want this to be my job. And this is like my first step into it. And I couldn’t be any happier. I’m already worried about what I’ll wear, seriously. If any of you have an idea what I could wear, please tell me. Really.

So yeah, that’s the biggest news of probably the whole month (besides christmas). Oh and if you’re curious, the two days at home were amazing. I loved being at home again. Anyway, I’m superduperexcited right now and I don’t really know what to do with my life anymore and with all my excitement and happiness, but yeah. I hope you enjoyed this post and as always, thanks for reading. x

Hello Berlin

Hola everyone.

It’s happening guys. It’s really happening. And I can’t believe it. I’m seriously moving to Berlin for three months. Holy moly.

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I’m seriously having real troubles realizing that this is really happening. I mean, I know some of you guys already know about this if you’ve been following my blog. But I talked about wayyyyy long time ago. And now I’m boarding a plane in 13 hours. It’s currently half past 1 am and I’m sitting on the couch watching YouTube videos and trying to understand all of this crazy stuff.

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To be honest, I have both good and bad feelings about this. But I guess that’s normal, I bet on it. I mean, there aren’t a lot of things I’ve ever been this excited for. And this is such a big dream of mine and it’s coming true, which is more than crazy. I’ve been dreaming about and hoping that I could once get the chance to move to a cool city for some time. And I always knew that I wanted to do this. I always wanted to go on such a huge adventure. And now it’s happening. Which makes me so happy that I can’t even describe it. I’m so damn excited.

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But on the other side I’m also so freaking nervous. Like, moving to another city, in another country, on my own, completely alone, without having anyone I really know there… It’s more than crazy. And that makes me nervous. Because I’ve never really been alone in my life until now. There was always somebody there. And now I’m on my own. And besides that, leaving my family and my friends and my two pets aka babys is like the hardest thing ever. Especially leaving Peaches behind. Because I can keep in touch with my friends and family, I can talk to them, skype with them and they understand my situation. But how do I tell a cat that her mum isn’t going to be around until christmas? It’s impossible. I mean, I noticed that she can sense that there’s something going on, but who knows what she thinks. I’m just hoping that she won’t be too sad…

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So, those are my worries. I’m not scared of being alone, I can easily get used to that. It’s just the newness and everything unknown that’s making me nervous. But I’m 100 percent sure that it’s going to be one of the coolest months in my whole life. Seriously. And I’m so freaking excited to work at the TV company. It’s going to be so awesome. And interesting. I’m already so happy to be able to learn all these new things and see how working there is. It’s going to be so cool. I’m sure.

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I seriously can’t wait to learn all this new stuff and start this new chapter and meet new people and make all this new and exciting experiences. And of course I’ll keep in touch with my friends and family as much as I can. Skype and text and stuff. And they will also visit me in Berlin, which is supercool and already makes me happy. And me and mum are going to a Twenty One Pilots concert in Berlin, so my time already starts in the best way possible.

And of course I’ll keep all of you guys updated. Because you can probably all guess by now that my life in Berlin is going to be the main topic for the next three months. So yeah, that’s really happening and I’m just waiting for my brain to realize it. But still, the excitement is overwhelming. Oh and Happy Halloween guys. If any of you want to talk about this or anything else, I’m here. And now even happier to hear from you guys. And until then, I hope you enjoyed this post and life update and, as always, thanks for reading. x

Conor and me

Hola everyone.

This one is special. Really special. I know I already talked about him, but this is the post he always deserved and always will. This my story with a guy called Conor Maynard aka a guy I’ve only met once and loved before and since.

I think you all know who Conor is, at least I hope so. Because if you don’t, what the hell are you doing with your life? I kind of crashed into Conor about 4 years ago while I was on holiday in Cyprus with my parents. We stayed in a small house and I passed some time by watching TV. They had MTV and I loved it. I remember that was the time when Conor won the MTV award for best new artist and in every break, there was a small spot with him and his song Can’t Say No. And god, was I annoyed. But do you know what happens when you get to hear a song like 20 times a day for about 8 days? Exactly. First you get used to it, then you remember the words, then you hum it and finally you sing it loudly and dance to it. That’s what happened to me. I fell for the song.

And when I got home, I kind of kept him in my heart. At that time, I had a huge heartbreak and I just needed something to make me happy. So one night I was sitting in front of my laptop, surfing through YouTube when I got to his site. He had those series of funny little videos which he called “The Conorcles”. Actually they were just little vlogs, but sooooo damn much better. To be honest, Conor is one of the funniest guys ever. He has this totally amazing humor which makes it possible for him to laugh about himself. And honestly, he’s also just really really crazy.

I remember sitting in my room, watching, like, every single video and I laughed so loud that my mum came into my room to ask me what was so funny. Little did I know that I was laughing about a guy that would still be a part of my life 4 years later.

After I found out that Conor was a guy who had the same sense of humor as me, was just as weird and crazy as me and was also intensely cute, I started listening to his songs more and more. And oh my god, he has the voice of an angle, I swear. Next to Ed Sheeran, he literally has the most beautiful voice on this planet. Seriously. I don’t even know how so much talent can be stuck in one single person. But as we can see, it is possible. And I fell for him. Oh how did I fall. Actually, Conor and his music and videos really helped me with my heartbreak, so I really want to thank him for that (thanks Conor). And then it just escalated. I told literally everyone about him. Showed his videos to my friends. Listened to his songs 24/7. Tweeted about him. And finally I called myself a Mayniac, which I still do, of course.

And then June came. I remember it like it was yesterday. My mum and me had planned our second trip to New York. It should last for a week, starting at the 9th of June. It was April when I found out. I had just gotten home from school, when I checked my phone. I have this cool app called Bands In Town, that shows you every concerts in any city you want. And I had set it to show me all concerts in New York, because I really wanted to go to a concert there. And I had followed Conor there, so that meant whenever he had a concert in the city I had selected, I would get a notification.

I think it was about 2 pm when I got the notification. I looked at my phone and there it was. It said that Conor had just announced a concert in New York. On the 9th of June. The day we would get there. You can’t even imagine how much I freaked out. I started to cry immediately. I couldn’t believe it. It was close to being so crazy that it just couldn’t be true. I mean, how high are the chances that Conor would have a concert in New York exactly in the week when I would be there? I know, impossibly low. But it was true. I checked it like 100 times. And then I called my mum, half crying, half breathing like I just had had an attack. I remember that mum wasn’t so happy at first. Because it would be really stressful, because there wouldn’t be a lot of time to get to the hotel and to the venue. At the end it was incredibly stressful. But at the time we got into the taxi to the venue, all the stress and pressure got washed away. I think I already cried back then.

When we got there, we already saw a few people queuing up in line. I had actually bought Meet and Greet tickets, which was just the cherry on top of the huge ice cream bowl of craziness. The M&G thing also meant that I wouldn’t just be meeting Conor, but that I was also able to get into the venue before anyone else. But as you know me, I was too shy to go around the queue. But my mum isn’t shy. And wasn’t. So she literally just took my hand and walked right onto the street with me, passing every single person and getting right to the entrance. It was sooooo crazy, I couldn’t believe it. And then it all went down really quick. I ran into the venue, got my place in the second row and the two support acts came, sang and left.

And then the moment came. Conor finally got onto the incredibly small stage – the concert was for like 500 people, maximum – and sang and danced his heart out. And so did I. I laughed, cried, danced, smiled, admired him, screamed, cheered and literally had the time of my life. And he was sooooo damn good, oh my god. I loved every single second of it and wished for it to never end. But unfortunately it had to end, but then the M&G part came and I got so damn nervous, you can’t even imagine.

Actually, I had prepared a little gift for Conor – I had written a letter and had bought him a cool bracelet which fitted the other ones he always wore and still does to this day (they are friendship bracelets). I remember that he smiled at me when I gave it to him and that he said “Oh I’m going to cry”, which is something I love so much. And my mum took pics, so this moment is literally captured on my phone. And oh my god. I remember when we took a pic together, he put his hand on my hip and I just put it on his back but my hand was half on his denim jacket and half on his shirt, which was kinda awkward, so I just slipped my hand completely under his jacket. I still laugh about it to this day. I think it’s so funny, I don’t even know why, it just is. Then I thanked him and got out of the concert area and sat down on a bench. I was shaking so much and my heart was beating like crazy. I think I sat there for like 10 minutes until my mum asked me to go and I was so not ready. Because I knew that Conor was like 2 meters away from me. I didn’t want to leave him. Thank god there was a small window in the door, so before we finally got out, I looked through it and took on last glance at him and said goodbye for the last time.

So that’s how I met Conor. It was like one of the best moments in my whole life and I’m so happy that I could be a part of this small, intimidate show. It was really special.

A few months later, Conor announced that he’d be publishing his own book and that he wanted to put a few pics with his fans into it. So he started a contest in which you just had to post your pic with him on a website and they’d chose the pics randomly. I bet you can already guess what I did. Of course I posted it a lot of times, because I really wanted to be in this book. Or at least have him see it. And of course I also preordered the book, no matter if I was in it or not.

I was in class when my mum sent me the picture. I can still see me staring at the phone, eyes wide open, with my teacher getting right into class. I was so excited, I threw my phone on the table. I was shaking like crazy. On the picture my mum had sent me was the pic of me and Conor. In his book. Right on the first page. I thought she was joking. I couldn’t believe that this was real and to be honest, I still can’t believe it. It’s just too crazy. And of course I showed it to everyone. Because like, this is REALLY special. Like really really special. I’m in Conors book (oh wow, I still haven’t realized it).

So far, there had been two really special things that happened with Conor – the concert and his book. And then my 18th birthday happened. I remember tweeting him that it was my birthday and that I’d literally go crazy if he tweeted me. But when I went to bed there still hadn’t happened anything. But it was okay for me. Because I mean, he’s Conor. The next day my class and I went to a trip to Madrid and my friend picked me up to drive to school. And when I turned on my phone, I got a notification from Twitter. It said that Conor Maynard followed me (!!!). And I was like “yes of course, suuuure”. Because I thought it was some fake account. So I just clicked the link to see who the fake guy was. And then I saw the blue verification sign next to his name. And I went crazy. Conor had followed me. He was following me. I couldn’t believe it. To this day I think that this was his special birthday present for me. And I couldn’t be more thankful for everything he did and does.

I still remember texting my mum that Conor followed me and her replying with “what does he want from you???” and I grinned like an idiot. I was sooooo freaking happy, oh my god. Actually, I still am, because – thank god – Conor is still following me. Which enables me to text him whenever I want, which is like SO DAMN COOL. And of course I’m texting him sometimes, for example when he releases a new cover or something. He still hasn’t replied, but I’m sure that he at least saw it and had a small reason to smile and that’s all I could wish for.

And now it’s 2016 and I’m still here. And I always will. Because Conor really means a lot to me. He’s more to me than an angelic, freaking amazing, unbelievable talented singer. He’s a guy who’s part of my life since 4 years now and I’m not planning on changing that and I hope he isn’t either. It really means a lot to me that I’m sharing this special story or let’s say relationship with him. I wouldn’t want to miss any of it. Never ever.

Oh and actually, after a wait of two years, Conor finally released some new music. His new album “Covers” is out today, which includes all his latest albums, two new ones and another original. I especially love his cover of “Don’t Let Me Down” by The Chainsmokers and of course his original called “This Is My Version” (I think this song is about his breakup with his long-term girlfriend Victoria, so it’s a little bit sad – okay it’s really sad – but so freaking amazing). So please, whatever you are doing right now, STOP IT. And go listen to Conors album. You won’t regret it, I swear. Conor deserves all of his fame and appreciation and a lot more. Because he really has a huge talent and he is an amazing person. And I’m just really thankful that I got to know him and have him in my life, even if he’s not physically next to me.

I really hope that you enjoyed this post as much as I enjoyed writing it. I think you noticed how important Conor and this memories are to me. If any of you want to talk to me about Conor or anything else, I’m here. Oh and here’s the link to his new album – spotify.com. And here’s the link to the official video for his new song: youtube.com. I really hope you enjoy Conors music as much as me and, as always, thanks for reading.