May 2017 – that lemon life

Please Like Me

Hola everyone.

No, this post won’t be about me begging you guys to like me – which I hope you do. Today I’ll be talking about a tv series I finished lately called – you guessed it – “Please Like Me”. And I loved it so much that I thought I’d introduce it to you.

To be honest, I can’t even exactly tell you what the show is about without spoiling some parts of the plot, but I’ll try my best:

“Please Like Me” is about the life of Josh – a 20-year-old guy – who discovers that he’s gay right at the beginning of the first episode due to the fact that his girlfriend tells him and breaks up. After that shocker he finds out that his mum tried to kill herself and he now has to help her and his family deal with her depression. And let’s not forget his dad who divorced from Josh’s mum and now hides his girlfriend from her.All while exploring his new found sexuality, hooking up with hot boys and living in an apartment together with his best friend Tom and his annoying girlfriend who wouldn’t just leave. Oh and his absolutely adorable dog John.

So yeah, that’s pretty much it. But let me tell you, we just touched the surface of the show and there’s so much more to it. I found the show on Netflix and just got curious, so I tried it out. I wasn’t really prepared to find such a cute, brutally honest, comedic tv series. Actually it’s an Australian comedy drama series and when you get to the very end of the show you slowly realize why it’s described as a drama too. But I don’t want to spoil anything. I guess you just have to find out yourself.

Overall I would describe the show as a vacation for the mind. Every little episode just brings joy, despite the drama aspect. What I loved about it the most is the style and the humor of the show and how it deals with aspects like homosexuality, mental illness, and relationships. It’s brutally honest. It doesn’t try to hide anything or make it look like there’s beauty in suicide or breakups, because there simply isn’t. And that’s what makes it so special. And apart from that the humor is seriously the best. Honestly, all the characters are quite insane. Like, who let’s his girlfriend wait in the car for hours just because he doesn’t want his ex-wife to know? How weird is that? And you sit there and all of these strange situations happen and you watch it and think “oh my god, how is this really happening? They are crazy, completely crazy”. And then you just have to laugh. Because it’s so weird and awkward and honest that it becomes funny. I’d describe it as some kind of British humor, again really honest and weird, but still amazing. And let’s be honest, the acting is mind-blowing. The characters just seem so real, they feel like real people. Which they are. Personally, I’d say that this show is better at dealing with and talking about suicide and mental illness than 13 Reasons Why, which just turns the fault to all the other characters. I’ve never seen a show as real as Please Like Me.

And actually the series is mostly written by Josh Thomas, who plays Josh. He’s an Australian comedian and with that show, I think he created a total masterpiece. For me, this show was an emotional rollercoaster and I enjoyed it so much, I was really sad that it had to end. So I can just really recommend it to any of you guys, please give it a go. And don’t hesitate to ask me about it. And if you watch it or already have seen it, I’d be superhappy to hear from you. And until then I hope you enjoyed this post and wish you all an amazing week. And, as always, thanks for reading. x

Eurovision 2017

Hola everyone.

Today I’d like to talk about something typically European. Something not everyone in this world knows about. And one of the biggest music shows in the world with 42 countries taking part – Eurovision. Or as I would call it now – why Bulgaria should have won.

The Eurovision Song Contest is an international music competition. All of the attendees sing original songs, sometimes also in their original language, so it’s basically all about that multi-culturalism. And the music, of course. But also so much more.

Actually I had to watch the show this year because it was meant to be homework. But of course I just ended up staying up until long after midnight to see who wins and then, at least this year, totally freaking out about the guy who got to the second place – Kristian Kostov from Bulgaria.

This year’s actual winner was Salvador Sobral from Portugal. While I really wished that Kris would have won, I don’t mean to say that Salvador didn’t deserve to win. His song and performance truly was special. It’s a quiet, calm ballade sung in the original language – so I actually have no idea what the song is about. As soon as he started singing the audience went completely quiet and I guess that’s one of the reason why he was a favorite from the beginning on. He’s able to create a magical, calm moment in a apart from that huge mess of colours and pop and dancing and strong, loud voices. So yeah, I get why he won.

But that doesn’t change my opinion that Kris should have won. Here’s why… Before every performance at Eurovision, you get to see a little clip of the artist who is about to take the stage. And I was sitting on the couch, my mum next to me and Kris came on and I was like “holy moly, how old is this guy?”. Actually, he’s just 17. SEVENTEEN. Can you imagine? He’s the youngest singer to ever be part of Eurovision. And that’s just crazy. So yeah, I knew he was young and I already thought that it was so cool that someone that young could be a part of this huge show.

And then he came on stage and started to sing. And I was immediately blown away. I just couldn’t believe that such an amazing, incredible and mature voice came out of such a small bean of a person. I was and still am amazed. So Kris sang his song, pretty much had me speechless afterwards and then I just hoped for him to win. Unfortunately he “only” made it to the second place, which in my opinion is pretty amazing too. And as I got informed, also the highest position Bulgaria ever got to in the history of this competition. So well done Kris.

Have you ever met or seen someone and experienced what that person is capable of doing and how much talent that person has and you just want the world to know? That’s how I’m feeling about Kris. I just really want him to become famous – the good version, of course. His voice needs to be heard all around the world, he’s just too good. And I know that he has the potential.

But it’s not just his voice. From what I’ve seen, he’s just a really good soul too. After the show was over he had an interview and he actually started crying because he was so sad that he couldn’t make his country proud and bring the trophy home. How tragic is that? He’s 17 and just at the start of his career, he shouldn’t be sad and apologizing that he got to the second place, because that’s just as amazing. And I’m 100 percent sure that he made Bulgaria proud nonetheless. It’s an incredible achievement.

Since Eurovision I’ve been following Kris on social media, mostly Instagram and I’ve become quite a fan of his Instagram stories (here’s the link to his profile: instagram.com). Most of the time he speaks Russian or Bulgarian (I think?), so I basically don’t understand one single word, but it’s still as cute. And that’s probably also a reason why I’ve become a fan. It’s not just his amazing song that I’ve been listening to 24/7, but also the aspect that I’ve never really been a fan of somebody from an eastern country. So it’s all really new to me and just so damn interesting. And extremely fascinating.

So yeah, that’s my story about Kristian Kostov, a 17-year-old guy who sang himself into my heart. I’d really really love to see him become internationally known, because he deserves it. And quoting different people and fans from the internet who just put it perfectly into words – he’s a ball of sunshine and needs to be protected at all costs.

Did any of you watch this year’s contest? What do you think? Who should have won in your opinion? I’d be really interested and happy to hear from some of you guys. And until then I hope you’re all doing well and that you enjoyed this post. And, as always, thanks for reading. x

Plants all over

Hola everyone.

So, in the past few months I’ve been redecorating my room. I mean, I loved it before but now that I’m finished I just adore it even more. I think it’s 100 percent me and perfectly represents my personality and what I like.

While decorating it one thing became really important to me – plants. Especially succulent plants. I feel so deeply in love with them, I just couldn’t stop adding more and more to my room. And now my room looks like a little succulent garden house. I even made my own plant holders to put them on the wall – which I totally love too. And apart from that I bought two air plants, such creepy but cool looking creatures, even more now that I put them in their own little terrarium.

And as I’ve been such a big fan of my little plants and since I got them could keep all of them alive and healthy – which I’m extremely proud of – I thought I’d share some pics of this beauties with you. I hope you enjoy them.

Do any of you also own succulent plants or any other plants? I’d be really interested to hear your experiences. And until then I wish you all an amazing weekend and, as always, thanks for reading. x

Happy Mother’s Day

Hola everyone.

Yesterday was mother`s day – at least in my country. A day to show love to the one person we all would never be here without. So today I’d like to do exactly that. I know I quite often talk about my mum and I know I already did a post like that a year ago but she will for sure read this and as long as this makes her smile, I reached my goal. Because she deserves it. And so much more.

Actually, I’ve always called my relationship with my mum a really special one. Even more when I talked to my friends and classmates about that and some told me that they basically don’t tell their mums anything, keep secrets and so on. For me that thought seems so crazy to me like somebody would tell me that pigs can fly. It’s just unimaginable. Just because my mum is literally my best friend. I think there’s nothing I’ve not told her. That may seem weird to some of you but I was never scared of telling her my thoughts and worries and dreams, because she never pushed me away or stopped me from doing that. I always felt like I could talk to her about everything and anything. And that she would always be there for me, no matter what. And that’s the truth, that’s how it always was and always will be – at least I hope so.

But apart from that I also think we have such a good bond because we are basically the same person. I always tell her that she could basically call me mini-me, because we are so alike. I influence her and so does she me. For example, we still go to concerts together and festivals and have a mother-daughter-trip every single year. But it’s not just that. Because I literally share everything with her, she slowly started to become interested in the things I told her about it. Today she’s willing to pay 100 euros to see Twenty One Pilots live or has her own pair of black Doc Martens. She knows all the YouTubers I watch, tags me in videos of Ed Sheeran every now and googles festival lineups to see if we could visit one. Isn’t that crazy? I always tell her that she’s literally the coolest mum ever. I mean, what mum does that? God, I’m so lucky.

So yeah, so much to why my mum acts and looks so much younger than she is and why that’s the best thing ever. But besides being such an amazing friend and cool mum, she just really is the best mum ever. And I’m not just saying that to sound cute or something. I mean, of course we argue, everyone does that, mostly because we are just so alike. So sometimes we both get really frustrated and angry at each other, but we always get back together. And then we are just as bonded as before. You know, we understand each other.

And she just makes me so happy. I know that I’m not an easy kid and that sometimes my dreams are a little bit ridiculous, but somehow she always manages to make them come true or at least come close to it. And that’s crazy. She always tells me that her biggest goal is to make me happy. And now comes the special part, because I want the same for her. A few days ago I was sitting in my flat in Vienna, I think it was about 1 o`clock in the morning. To give you some context, we text everyday so we say goodnight to each other every night. And that night she didn’t do that. And I got so worried that I just had to call her. And she would do the same. So we protect each other and I think that’s one of the most precious things on earth.

And she supports me in everything. She always told me that if I keep fighting for something, no matter how big and impossible it may sound, I can do anything. And that she will always believe in me and be proud. And that stuck to my head. I got a lot of confidence from that. I mean, she reads every single post I write on here. And I think she bought my book about four times or so. So yeah, what an amazing mum.

Overall I can only say that I’m basically the luckiest person on earth to be blessed with such an amazing mum who loves me unconditionally. I could go on and on like this forever but I think then it would get a little bit out of hand, so yeah. Basically my mum deserves the world and so much more and if I can ever achieve to be the same mum for my children as the one she is for me, I’ve reached the ultimate goal. So, again, happy mother’s day to the most amazing women in the universe and the best mum ever. I love you forever and infinitely. And also happy mother’s day to all the other awesome mothers out there. You’re incredible and we wouldn’t be here without you. So here’s to our mums. And, as always, thanks for reading. x

The Future

Hola everyone.

The future is a quite scary thing, isn’t it? The past few days and weeks I’ve actually been thinking about my future a lot. About my dreams and hopes. The plans I’ve been making for myself. And about what I want and don’t want.

I have to say, there are actually quite a lot questions marks floating above my head. Although I do have a plan. I mean, I love thinking about my future. Because I love dreaming and no dream has ever been to big for me, thanks to my mum who always told me that I could achieve anything. So here I am, dreaming of going to London after finishing my bachelor studies in two years to study fashion journalism. God, that’s such a big wish of mine. Live in my favorite city on this planet and get to study the coolest course ever. Holy moly.

But in the past few weeks, like I said, I have been thinking about that a lot. Whether I really want to study fashion journalism or just focus more on my love for music or somehow involve my love for photography. So it’s quite hard.

And on the other hand I always have to keep in my mind all the things and dreams and goals and wishes I’ve already fulfilled in my life. I wrote my own book, lived in Berlin and am now writing for a local magazine. So I am actually already a journalist. It all really blows my mind, it’s so crazy. And I’m so proud of that and thankful for everything.

As I had and still have to think a lot, I somehow managed to (maybe) find a good plan for myself. As I know it will be quite hard to get into the University of Arts and moreover live and study in London – thanks Brexit. And leave my family. But I will fight for it, more than ever before and try to stay strong. Because that’s my dream.

And I’ve also been thinking about starting an online course for interior design or photography this summer as I’ve always been in love with that subject and the creativity involved in it. I think courses like that are perfect for people who want to learn new things and study, but at their own pace and at home. It’s comfortable, but still perfect if you want to enhance your interests and learn more about them. Actually my mum is currently doing a course to be a vegan dietitian, which I think is super amazing. So there are two students at home right now.

To be honest, I have no idea what the future will bring or where it will take me. I just know what I’d really love to do. Maybe have my own magazine sometime or work for one the big kings in the business – Vogue I’m coming for you. Or maybe I’ll become one of the people who have the honor to write about festivals and interview the biggest stars. Who knows. All I can say is that I’m incredibly excited.

I know this post has pretty much been me rambling about stuff that’s floating around in my head but I thought maybe some of you are in the same position as me. I’ve always enjoyed discussing stuff like this with other people and hear their opinions, so please don’t hesitate to leave comments down below. And until then I really hope you enjoyed this post and are doing well. I wish you guys an amazing weekend. And, as always, thanks for reading. x

PS: We just passed 7000 clicks on this blog and are nearly at 1000 visitors and I couldn’t be any more thankful for that. I’m so damn happy. Thank you so much guys, you’re amazing.

A Monster Calls

Hola everyone.

As you can see from the title of this post, today we’re going back to our movie-fan-roots. I recently watched the movie “A Monster Calls” and I thought I’d share my experience with you.

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To be honest, I didn’t really quite know what the movie was honestly about until I watched it. I mean, I was literally drawn to it still. I watched the trailer as soon as it was out and I was already in tears afters those two minutes. But I only had an idea of what it was about. So here’s a little description:

“A Monster Calls” is about 13 year old Conor who’s mum is having a hard time fighting against cancer. His dad left the family when Conor was little, his grandma doesn’t really seem to like him that much and the other guys are bullying him at school. So you could say that Conors life is pretty tough too. That changes when one night, seven minutes after midnight, the big yew tree next to their house suddenly comes alive and turns into a monster. The monster wants to tell Conor three stories. And after that, Conor has to tell him a fourth story, his truth, the nightmare he’s trying to hide. The one thing Conor never wanted to face. (Here’s the link to the trailer if you want to watch it – youtube.com)

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Sounds amazing, doesn’t it? I went to watch the movie with my mum – of course – because honestly I wouldn’t have been able to watch it with anybody else. I would have just sat there, screaming inside “oh my goooood, I want to be with my mum, NOOOOW!!!”. But this way I had her right there sitting next to me and I could cuddle my face into her while the tears were rolling down my cheeks.

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For me, the movie is a pure masterpiece. It completely draws you into the story from the first second on and it breaks your heart into a million pieces, but somehow the pain also heals you. I especially liked the artistic style of the movie, as all the stories the monster tells are drawn in water colours. It’s magnificent to watch.

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In my opinion, what matters the most and what keeps you awake, thinking about the movie over and over again, is the ending.

If any of you haven’t seen the movie, beware, spoilers ahead.

As you can probably tell, the movie ends the exact way you think it will end. Conors mum just wasn’t strong enough to fight, the medicine didn’t work the way they had planned and everyone knows she won’t make it. After the monster tells the third story, it’s Conors turn. But he doesn’t want to tell it, to face the truth, his truth. But at one point he simply has to. And that’s when we get the reminder that we are all just human. Conor simply wants it all to end, his pain, the stress, just everything. Also if it means he has to let his mother go. I think at this part the monster tells Conor the exact thing he and also we, the audience, need to hear: “You were merely wishing for the end of pain… Your own pain. An end to how it isolated you. It is the most human wish of all.”

Conor understands whats going to happen and that it’s not his fault and although he doesn’t want to, he has to let his mum go. In the last few moments, Conor holds his mum and the monster is with him. Then we see his mum looking up and smiling at the monster, which means that she can see it too. Conors mum then passes away, seven minutes after midnight.

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At the very end of the movie Conor comes back to his grandmas house, who has prepared a room for him. He goes in and finds a book on his desk, a book that seems to be his mums art book (she wanted to study art). Conor opens the book and finds paintings of the three stories the monster had told him. And right on the last page he finds a painting of his mum sitting on the shoulder of the monster.

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Personally, I think this end leaves you enough space for interpretation. For me, his mum together with the monster and her seeing it before her death means that she also met it when she was younger and struggled with the death of her father. And now that Conor is struggeling too, the monster is visiting him. What a cute way to end such a dramatic, heartbreaking movie.

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Apart from the beauty of the whole movie, my favorite and most emotional scene has to be when Conor and his mum have the “talk”. She knows she’s going to die and leave Conor alone. And he’s angry at her. But she understands him. And while tears are rolling down her cheeks she says: “It’s okay that you’re angry. I’m angry too, and if you need to break things, by god you break them. I wish I had 100 years, 100 years I could give to you.” That scene literally broke my heart into a billion pieces. And again I was so damn glad that mum was with me. I would’ve really needed her at that moment.

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Overall, the movie is a complete masterpiece. And I would recommend it to anyone at every age. Just keep in mind that you won’t walk out of the cinema with a smile on your face. It really hurts, but somehow the pain feels good. The movie breaks you and then cuddles you into a warm blanket full of emotions. It’s overwhelming, but in a good way.

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If any of you have seen or read it, what do you think? And how do you interpret the end? I’d be really happy to read from you. And until then I hope you liked this post and, as always, I hope you’re all doing well and thanks for reading. x